Alleycat's secret diary

Alleycat

This talking to myself is really quite therapeutic! Anyway, had a good day today. A NSD!! Been gardening with my 7 year old this afternoon, cooked a lovely roast dinner, cut the youngest hair and busy refreshing my two listings due to finish this evening!

Was rather exciting refreshing the one that finished a few minutes ago. Suddenly shot up to £20.78 so immediately jumped on here to update my signature! Is that sad?! One more due to finish in a minute or so and already at £10. Please can people get into a last minute bidding war!

Alleycat

Eeek, the start of a new month tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it. Normally look forward to my pay going in but just feel it's not been going great with the spending recently and don't have the energy for another skint month. Tired and the weather is rubbish and annoyed that the overdraft on our new account has been creeping up. Not massively but if it's not kept in check it will bite us on the bum.

Need a to do list for tomorrow and next few days:-

Ring T Mobile to cancel contract so can switch to a cheaper one.
Ring Nationwide credit card to see if they will extend the 0% on purchases. If they don't I'll need to think about either switching the small balance left onto the overdraft as that's 0% or apply for a new CC with 0% transfers.
[STRIKE]Post Ebay parcels[/STRIKE]
[STRIKE]List more on Ebay tomorrow evening[/STRIKE]
Give OH kick up the bum to sort out printer so I can list it
Take books to charity shop
List bundles of clothes on Gumtree
[STRIKE]Investigate cheap paint[/STRIKE]
Take old book to book shop for valuation (fingers crossed on this one!!)
Talk to OH about selling his precious Star Trek figures (so precious they've been sitting on top of his wardrobe in his mother's house for several decades!)
Sort through large pile of paperwork

[STRIKE]Oh and do list and go shopping[/STRIKE]......Blimey!

ladymay

Go Alleycat!!

Teatime

Ha ha - you're not really talking to yourself - I have just read your whole thread.

I am impressed with your steady progress. Your ebaying has been amazing and your meat buying is second to none!

Away to go try to get my mobile costs down. See you later. T.

meow5678

Definitelty not talking to yourself, I've just read the entire thread too!
Well done on all your progress so far and keeping up the momentum to post on here/sell on ebay etc.

Keep it up, and I will keep checking in to see how you're doing

Alleycat

Sorry I've not replied until now. Been feeling a bit flat and haven't had the motivation to post. What a wonderful new financial year. Worked out the other day that we're £50 worse off under the new budget. OH works in the civil service so is on a 3 year pay freeze yet his pension contributions have gone up. The rent's just gone up at the beginning of this month, water rates and for some reason my wages haven't risen despite the increase in the tax free allowance. Apparently I need to phone the Inland Revenue but just feel really scared. One more horrible thing I've got to deal with head on but just can't.

Ebay has been ticking over nicely though not sure how this week's are going to go. Feeling quite depressed about it all. Shame as last week was feeling quite upbeat.

Looking at that horrible to do list up there, can't really cross much off at all.

Sorry, being pretty carp this evening. Think I need a few beers!

Teatime

Aw you sound so downhearted. I think you maybe need a night off then can get back to thinking about it all again tomorrow.
Maybe getting one thing off your list done tomorrow will give you a boost? I managed to get my phone/Internet payments reduced today so it made me feel I had achieved something.
Do you have anything in the house for a treat? Chocolate? Watch some comedy?

Alleycat

Thanks for the support teatime. Still feeling pretty rubbish this evening. OH went out after work last night but didn't tell me. Well he said he sent a text but I've never received it so I was sat in on my own again.

Then was having a really nice day today as hubby had finished his run of shifts. We'd been to see our daughter's play, been to Homebase and bought paint for the boy's bedroom and just had a nice chilling and bits and bobs afternoon. He had said he was going out this evening but I wasn't expecting him to turn around at 4.30 and say he was about to leave. Really put a downer on things......sigh.

There's so much more I want to say but I fear it will be just too depressing.

Anyway, managed to get one thing done off my list, bought paint!! Quite a bargain, Homebase had 20% off all decorating stuff so got the paint and filler for £11.50. Really excited about doing his room this weekend.

Also managed to do loads of tidying and sorting this afternoon. Finally dusted the shelves in the living room that looked like they'd grown a fur coat. Could have stuffed a cushion with it all!! I'm so slovenly, story of my life.

Well done on getting your phone and internet reduced! I bet that made you feel good!

Alleycat

Why am I here? Watching crap on youtube and flicking between here and facebook. OH still out. Just me sat on my own. Feeling really sad and not really sure why I'm posting. Think I just need to write it down. Not just sat here thinking to myself as always. Instead maybe talking to real people. So lonely and depressed. Just can't keep doing this. Should go to bed but really don't want to. Just so alone.

Feel so bad. Just don't know what to do anymore. Can't keep feeling like this. If OH was home would walk out.

ladymay

Oh hunny,

I'm sorry you're feeling so carp, and I'm sorry your OH isn't being more supportive. Is there any way you can get away, even for just a night - maybe it's time for you to have a bit of fun!!

Great news about the deal on paint - maybe make the painting a whole family thing and celebrate with OH cooking

I'm really sorry that I can't give any practical advice - I've always found talking to a professional helped me when I've felt really bad (I've got a grip on my depression now, but it still creeps up on me sometimes)

Hope you feel better... :grouphug: