Finally feeling more positive

RainbowDreamer

Sorry I know it's not really money saving. Well.. I guess it is, as the more positive I feel the more I am able to focus on budgeting and saving

I guess I am writing this, because I need to write it down to stop everything whizzing round my head and maybe, just maybe once it's out of my mind I will actually be able to sleep at night, lol.

I have been worrying and worrying over exam results looming, over applying to university for the midwifery degree and over an impending court case where my ex is taking me to court for full residency of the children over false allegations.

Anyway, I have got my exam results back and I have passed!! Didn't think I would as sat the exam at a low time with tons of stress going on.
I had an interview over a week ago for the midwifery degree and even though I messed up the maths test it only counts as 15% of the overall points you recieve and I felt I did extremely well in the interview. I just now have to wait to see if I get offered a place. (Its a 1 in 10 chance or so of recieving a place).

I have now also spoken to cafcass who seemed really nice and seemeed to fully understand my concerns and said he was happy that I was putting my childrens needs and well-being first rather than thinking of what I want. He also said that no allegations can be proved and that it will not look good on his part for making things up to gain more than 50% access. It sounds as if he may have it reduced to benefit the children, but there was a mention of another go at mediation even though I am doubtful that the ex would agree to attend.

Anyway, I guess I am finally seeing some light at the end of the tunnel. Lately I have felt down in the dumps and have felt like I am a terrible mother who is achieving nothing for their future.
I am hoping I can now enjoy Christmas with them and make it a year to remember, full of enjoyment and smiles. I am sure a grumpy mummy has a negative effect on the kids after a period of time.

denton6

glad things are picking up for you and positive thoughts are there, keep up the good work, i'm sure you havent been a grumpy mum just a stressed one.

supersmith

I don't know you but just wanted to log on to say *well done!!* It sounds as though you have overcome so much this year and passing your exams and doing well in your interview is fantastic. :beer:

Really admire your positivity. Here's to a fab 2012 as well.

xx