Starting again, with a positve attitude this time ..

jwil

Hope you're ok x

beanielou

Sorry to hear your news.
Why do you feel that you have to leave with nothing?

Hiddenidenity

I don't know. I wouldn't know what to take, what woud be mine. I don't want to go (I do for the kids obviously. I mean I wouldn't choose to if it wasn't iykwim)

Hiddenidenity

Hello all hope all is well?

Finally decided going 'home' is definitely the right decision. I'm up here at a wedding yesterday and staying in the hotel until Tuesday, I've had a drive about this afternoon and took a few numbers of some house to call Tuesday hopefully one will be suitable.

Me and him are going to still stay together but at a distance like it was orignally to see if we can sort things. Truthfully alot of problems come down to me being the way I am.

Panic attacks are really getting bad again, so need to see the gp Tuesday too. I can't carry on like it anymore, its even waking me in the night now too.

Worked out I owe about 2000 pound to various people so need to sort that on a very small budget again but obviously not as tight as originally but have my sister staying with me now too so an extra mouth to feed.

jwil

Hope you find somewhere soon.

beanielou

Keep plodding!

Hiddenidenity

Thank you

Will feel much better once I sort these attacks. Its making me scared to be alone with the kids.

Hiddenidenity

Well I think I've sorted a house, its not in perfect condition and does need decorating carpets all through etc, but it is in a nicer area of town. Close enough to family, hospital and other appointments I need to attend. Its through a friend who rents several houses.

He's happy for me to move in and do my own thing to it over coming months. Its alot cheaper than what the normal is for the area and I couldn't afford to live there if it wasn't for him. Definitely giving it serious thought, the areas more important than the decoration.

Have lots to sort this week with moving things back home and sorting money etc. Will have to do a whole new budget and everything be up and running for the 3rd Sept when my sister needs to be at college.

Hiddenidenity

Morning all hope all is well??

So after being up moat the bight and giving serious thought to the offer of the house I decided that renting that will definitely be the best option. I plan on taking all our clothes etc but will need a few bits which I'll do slowly. Will also need every room decorating and carpets/flooring as currently it has bare floors up and down stairs. It has a lovely little garden that needs TLC but im looking forward to being myself again x

Hiddenidenity

Lazy day today watching kids films tucked up under blankets now. It's awful weather! Typical bank holiday rain.

So why the kids are watching tinkerbell. I'm going to meal plan and write a shopping list for Thursday. Budgets for the next few weeks as things are tight until payday.

Bank balance stands at £11.39 with £33.70 going in tomorrow. All bills paid until the middle of next month though.

Going to keep a track of spending because I have definitely let it slip. Going to wait till I've moved and got net etc then start the surveys/ebay again too.

So
Bank £11.39

No spends today needed good job really. Have evening meal already paid for and breakfast before we leave tomorrow.