OMG total LBM!!!!

Saving_the_family_silver

Well Ok there is a bit of news I have decided to turn down the promotion and before anyone says it no I'm not mad. The reason is I am Bi-polar and to be fair even with meds I struggle work are well aware of the situation and don't seem pleased I have turned it down. The situation every so often even on meds my whole life collapses and I mean my WHOLE life and I don't want to take the people I am supposed to be managing down with me and I know eventually this will happen. I can't be resposible for that many people so I am going to use the only coping stratagy I know and not take it. To be fair to think of it this is the reason I have no boyfriend, many friends and am scared of the day my daughter leaves to either go uni or get her own place, but well that's a whole other issue. So there's me morbid and all lol.

Saving_the_family_silver

Well my friends just left (thank god) Ok I don't mean to be mean but shes just given me a full blown lecture on my when it will happen and told me to adopt a it will never happen one instead so where am I now ...... Ok must admit still not taking the promotion and never will

savingholmes

hi - only you know what's right for you. I struggle with ordinary depression if there is such a thing and am secretly scared of having too high powered a job in case it all crashes down around me and I get burned out so do secretly of course know where you are coming from. It's a shame tho - but what a confidence boost to have been offered the role.

Saving_the_family_silver

Thank you savingholmes, so glad there is someone who gets where I'm coming from I know right now that I can get up from a small fall but not a big one that would be too hard, really needed to hear from someone that understands you have no idea how much thats made me feel better thanks

Saving_the_family_silver

finally back after a major bout of food poisoning that will teach me to go out and get drink then eat chicken from dodgy places lol On the upside I have had 4 NSD's as i couldn't get out of bed finally starting to feel better yayyyyyyyyyy

savingholmes

Saving_the_family_silver wrote: »

so glad there is someone who gets where I'm coming from ...., really needed to hear from someone that understands you have no idea how much thats made me feel better thanks

Aww That made me feel so touched. You're welcome. That's what I love about these forums - I am annoymous but when I feel up the creek without a paddle- and share it - someone always comes along and posts some encouragement. Or like this week I went back to work after a period of sick following an operations - and I had a load of good luck messages. It really does lift your spirits.

I also find that people on the forum :Ahelp me with keeping things in perspective. Sometimes having a rant also gets things out of my system that otherwise would bug me for days. I then find it easier to let negative thoughts and feelings go. I'm also often humbled by the diaries I read and lurk on - and realise that my life is a lot better than I thought too or at least more normal which helps me be grateful and therefore more positive. :T Win win all round

Hope you are having a good week