Depression

Pumpkin_Pie_5

Feelinggood - Sorry to hear your having such a rubbish day *** Hugs***
A pill thing sounds like a good idea - My mum used one bfore and it helped a lot.

I wish I could magic your pain away.. I wish a lot of things.

I suggest a hot cup of tea :coffee:

Take care hunny
Pumpkin xxx

feelinggood_2

THank you Pumpkin You are very lovely, I'm glad you decided to join the thread

Feeling alright at the moment, spaced out. Pain will come back later :-/

Hope you are enjoying your day as best you canxxxx

Sazbo

feelinggood wrote:

Ahhhh cleaning helps I've decided to leave the walls for today - I need to get some mould/mildew remover first, then will use sugar soap - thats that yellowy stuff ain't it?

Dining room is almost finished, just need to put a few bits away and then vacuum again. Started on the kitcken, cleared out some cupboards, think I'm also going to buy a few bits tomorrow, I need a new dishdrainer and stuff like that. Just going to give the kitchen walls and cupboards a going over and then clean the door and floor. Getting there. Hard work, but feel better for doing it. Will also do the bathroom today, that way I can have a nice long hot soak in the tub

Crying a little bit, very shaky, and feel very much alone But, I'm not eating/drinking/smoking. I am picking though, pretty tough, its bad today, which is annoying as I managed 8 days with minimal damage. Ahhh well, there is always tomorrow, at least I feel slightly better for it.

Oh and my mind is all over the place - I take 2 AD's and 3 other tablets each day. Today and yesterday I've been getting muddled up and taking the wrong ones at the wrong times,too many off one and not enough of the other! Will buy one of them pill thingys with the day / time compartments tomorrow.!

Those pill compartment thingys are really good, or you can do what my aunt does and wrap each days tabs in a piece of tissue! - V money saving!:D:D Sorry you're feeling alone hun - we're here for you, dont forget that xxx

new_mum_again

Im just on my way out to pick kids up from school but thought i would post as i am sooo proud of myself and hopefully someone on here will understand but today i managed to go to the dentist and have 2 fillings on my own it is something that other people do without thinking about but i suffer from panic attacks and a fear of dentists and a few other things that i wont bore you with. It is also the first time i have been there without my mum who sadly died 28/09/05. I know its sad a 31yr old mum of 3 needing her mum to go to the dentists with her but hey that was me!!:o Gotta rush will pop back in later after kids in bed:wave:

Sazbo

feelinggood wrote:

Not sure what I'm going to do about the pub, I am considering having a night off from the drink. Will decide closer to the time.
The problem isn't with the doctor - its with me. I guess this problem just isn't fixable.

Feelie hun - the doctor's there to help you. I don't want to accept it's not fixable - you deserve help - I can understand it might be upsetting, but so long as that's part of the process of getting you healed that's sort of ok in the short term? Easy for me to say, I know... xx

PS don't go to the pub if ya don't wanna x

feelinggood_2

new_mum_again wrote:

Im just on my way out to pick kids up from school but thought i would post as i am sooo proud of myself and hopefully someone on here will understand but today i managed to go to the dentist and have 2 fillings on my own it is something that other people do without thinking about but i suffer from panic attacks and a fear of dentists and a few other things that i wont bore you with. It is also the first time i have been there without my mum who sadly died 28/09/05. I know its sad a 31yr old mum of 3 needing her mum to go to the dentists with her but hey that was me!!:o Gotta rush will pop back in later after kids in bed:wave:

Well done New Mum Again, that is really something to be proud of - well done! :T :T :T :T :T :T :T

feelinggood_2

Sazbo wrote:

Feelie hun - the doctor's there to help you. I don't want to accept it's not fixable - you deserve help - I can understand it might be upsetting, but so long as that's part of the process of getting you healed that's sort of ok in the short term? Easy for me to say, I know... xx

PS don't go to the pub if ya don't wanna x

I'm just on a downer today, its days like this that I don't want to fight to get better, sometimes I just want to give up, just give in to the demons and do what it is I want to do. I'm resisting though. ODAAT, just got to get through this particularly nasty one!

elona

New Mum

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Give yourself a huge pat on the back! Your mum would have been proud of you. I used to hate going to the dentist too - but it does get better.

Gilly Congratulations on your new person.

Miro

Big hug.


FG

Rather than paying for special mould and mildew remover try a bleach solution with hot water first.

Have just had a posh open sandwich with german rye bread, smoked trout and a gherkin slice. happy bunny now. DH and DD enjoying the home made soup I made in the slow cooker.

feelinggood_2

elona wrote:

FG

Rather than paying for special mould and mildew remover try a bleach solution with hot water first.

Have just had a posh open sandwich with german rye bread, smoked trout and a gherkin slice. happy bunny now. DH and DD enjoying the home made soup I made in the slow cooker.

I'm funny with what I can use - and bleach doesn't clean things well, isn't strong enough. Totally illogical lol, just doesn't 'feel' right hehe.

How are you today? xx

gillette147

Hi folks,

Up and down today.
My Chemical Romance (chemical=AD, Romance="friend") must be working and I have been on phone to all sorts of people. Dole say they were only waiting for a form from my old employer so a decision will be very soon as it arrived today. I've booked a jobsearch interview for 12:30 tomorrow and I'm going to see a job agency tomorrow 2:30 too!! I have also sorted out a place on the safety course i am going to do - starts MONDAY eek!!!

I was too late to do the learn at home so I gotta jump in deep end and do all week in london on a full-time course. Scared coz i now need to go from slob to student in 6 days!!

Even phoned Alliance and Leicester about overdraft fees they charged when i went overdrawn for 2 days. They offered me 1/2 back or i have to write in and make a complaint. I took half but i mite still write in - worth a stamp.

So I've pretty much tackled everthing today.

But now the downside.....

My niece who I love like a daughter is 8 months pregnant. She started bleeding yesterday and she is in hospital. They don't know what it is but are saying all their tests are showing that it's all ok. AND my uncle (who is also my great friend) who has cancer (the slowest one I'm told) is having kemo. He phoned me up (we do talk, but this is quite soon after xmas) and didn't really have anything to say. I know from experience how people act who are thinking they are going to die. I feel worried and can just tell how bad he must be feeling.

My life always takes a hit whenever it looks like I can be happy. That's why I have depression - if i allow myself to be happy then someone dies. I have some reasons to be happier this week so is there a cost? I just hope the cost is just that I have to do some worrying about two people I love rather than the cost is that something actually happens to them.

I have to spend my life thinking the worst or I jinx it. Whenever I walk to my parked car I have to approach it thinking "it's not safe to think it's not been broken into or stolen" right up until I have got back and can see it is alright.

It's not a happy way to live - it feels like a test from god.

So today I am happy really - but having to go through a load of OCD-type worrying.

Do people who have been unhappy all their lives finally find happiness?
Or are we just a type? Destined to be like this forever?

I have always had a feeling that MSE will save my life. That all the answers to life are somewhere on the threads. I know that may sound ridiculous to most of you but I have huge hopes for this place. The whole spectrum of life is contained here. You get what you give on here and I give everything.

Love to you all