Nearly the Weekend Thursday Daily Chat

Gemmzie

Good news on the DSA Pooky, was wondering if they'd sorted that for you yet.

sallyx

Bun I can totally recommend the snazaroo paints...they are EXPENSIVE though. Luckily my sister bought B loads for one of her birthdays and they are still going strong. Have a look on here http://www.facepaintingdesigns.co.uk/designs/designs.html

sallyx

Pooky wrote: »

Blimey Sal...I read that just as the postman came - the refund cheque from the wheelchair, a tax rebate for DH (£107 :j) and a letter from ESA saying DH has been placed in the support group and his money goes up from April by £53 a week!!!!

Promotes Sally to "MSE Daily Chat Official Lucky Thing" :T

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Fanbloodytastic So glad that things seem to be coming together

sallyx

Bunnyinthelights wrote: »

Great news Pooky!

Sal-I had a horrific dream about DS drowniing the other day and holding him and screaming-it was awful. I woke myself up crying.
When my parents were splitting up, my Mom kept having nightmares about all of us in a tornado and she couldn't hold on to us...she was seeing a psychatrist at the time who said basically your dreams are amanifistation of how you are feeling ie my Mom was feeling out of control of the situation and worried aobut how the family splitting up would affect us.

Sorry, notthe happiest post was it...

Thanks hun...I know exactly why Im having these dreams as I am petrified of loosing B, not seeing her, OH running away with her, OH loosing the plot and deciding to top himself and B because if he can't live with her then I won't too....the list is endless and all whizzing through my mind all the time. Headfcuk me

Bunnyinthelights

Sal,
I know you are scared about all of those things but you cannot let them control your life-you have been so unhappy in limbo land and now you have a concrete reason to move on-IF your husband decided to do any of those things (which I am 100% SURE he wouldnt!) you would deal with them if and when-please dont worry yourself sick about about what MAY happen-deal with the now.

Easier said than done, I truly know but remember you have all of us and we will help however we can.

redsquirrel80

Hugs Sal - wise words from Bunny, you have plenty to deal with as it is without imagining others, though your fears are understandable - but it's not as if you are running off and leaving him for no reason, or for someone else, or being unfair or unkind to him.

sallyx

You are right Bun...just need to grab the bull by the horns and be strong. I just want us both to be happy and for B to have us both as and when she needs us.

Bunnyinthelights

It may get harder before it gets easier but you are on the road to happiness my wonderful friend.

You will have a space ready to be filled with love and support and kindness and maybe even sex

sallyx

Bunnyinthelights wrote: »

It may get harder before it gets easier but you are on the road to happiness my wonderful friend.

You will have a space ready to be filled with love and support and kindness and maybe even sex

:rotfl:;) now would that be good

Pooky

Hugs Sally - I know what you're going through there, I had the dreams, the irrational fears and the constant sick nagging feelings.....in my case it was just before I left exH.....I always looked at them as my minds way of working through all the things that scared me most in order to make me strong enough to do what I needed to do, which was leave.

Obviously that's how it worked for me and I'm not suggesting that you need to do anything drastic.