depression

Sazbo

CCStar wrote:

Watch those naked flames around those fumes

Thanks CCStar hun! Didn't occur to my one brain cell But thankfully I'm still here You ok hun, how's your evening going? Sx

feelinggood_2

Hope everyone is good this evening
I'm still not drinking, and I'm not going to either.
I'm feeling good still, still very very queasy tho

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

got a houseful of kids (mine and their mates) I must be bloody mad, lol

:eek: assessments are a doddle compared to that! :rotfl:

Sazbo

feelinggood wrote:

Hope everyone is good this evening
I'm still not drinking, and I'm not going to either.
I'm feeling good still, still very very queasy tho

Why you queasy hun? x

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

Hi Everyone, miro, ccstar, FG, elona, geminilady, ethel, blinky, tiff and saz, you all know who you are by now

another rosie essay for yas xxx

Firstly Tiff huni (yeah your first for a change;) )
its awful you going to be on ya own,. do you want rosie to get her dark side out and her wellies and help you get someone?, i am always here tho hun, i have bags of time at the moment so can talk anytime.
really tho hun hope you ok, hate to think of you suffering when i love ya sooo much

so here ya go tiff, you said you wanted one
so i might just give ya a few if thats ok, just so you know

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: BIG HUG ALERT :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

plus

http://www.all-creatures.org/aip/hug-sm.jpg hehe,

you are not on your own hun, ok? i will drum that into your head if need be

Miro, hope you ok hun? hoping all ok. i am sure your lyrics had something to do with it about 'S' staying, you just gotta have faith in your heart hun xx
yeah dunno what to do about work, my parents wanna shout at them, might be good to watch :rotfl:

Saz, how you doing huni.? thanks for what you have said.
So you think im brave, hhhmmm well im doing me best. one of the nurses well my personal nurse upset me today she said something that really hurt, felt like whacking her, i didnt, as then they would really lock me up :rotfl:
It is soo hard tho, i just want to let you all know you will get there if you want to. so sazzie, huni, how are you doing? i wanna hear all bout ya week?

Elona and blinky, ethel, ccstar hope you all ok?
xxx

Feelinggood, where are ya at hun? Hope you ok, are you still drinking? today my personal nurse also took me to a room and had a talk with me and guess what we talked about the g*d d*m r*pe.!!!!!, i said i didnt want to talk about it, but she made me, yep she a hard woman, very nice tho.

geminilady, thanks for saying such a lovely thing, my self esteem, confidence and everything is soo low right now and it soo helps to hear you say that im a nice person, as sometimes i shoot myself in the foot soo much i just cant see any good in myself, and thats where im at at the moment, so thanks for the kind words. and yeah i do care about you all here, all i do all day is hmm wonder what the gang are up to, but your friends now. xxx

have i missed anyone i am bound to have missed someone my head is soo woo woooo. well you all know im thinking of yas.

ok so time for rosie time.

ok this was my day today, went in for 10, at 1030 did relaxation, which was good till, my mind wondered, and i lost my way up the mountain, and then decided to fly down it and well i woke up in the end, was good tho, had a little snooze, maybe im just not caught out for relaxing???, my body was relaxed but my mind wasnt

then from bout 11, i did colouring in, hehehe, yep its like playschool. i coloured in a circle thing. did that till neighbours was on, went to one of the 3 lounges, i have a fav lounge now tho. and then my personal nurse interrogated me grrrrr, that was till bout 4, and when i told her i hadnt eaten, she said to me, well now i am going to tell everyone off because they havent kept a proper eye on you how does that make you feel? guilty and now i feel worse, cheers for that you a**. wont tell you anything no more

well as you can prob tell my mood abit bad tonight

then from four till 5, i lied down again, im only getting 3 hours sleep a night, i feel sick, i get pains, my body aches and i feel worse than i did before, maybe its just the environment im in. but its where i need to be to be safe.

in the afternoon i also lied down on a chair, thats all we do, watch tele and lie down on chair, thats it!!!! i am sooo bored. but they keep telling me how bad i am yet they still dont know quite a diagnosis they say well it could be a bit of:

depression, PTSD, bulemia, OCD, epilepsy? schizophenia? Hypoglycemic, agoraphobia (aint that what you got tiff?) and some other things i cant even pronounce. :rotfl:

now i know it def two of these things the PTSD being one and the hypoglycemic, is cause im not eating. i am the youngest on the ward as well, so it weird. i know im not the schizophenic one tho, i think you guys would now that if i was.

then oh now this is funny, i found a lovely women and we got chatting my dad said he was going to be late so we went for a little walk :rotfl: hehe.
now all we did was walk down the ward, how was i supposed to know i wasnt meant to go where the inpatients are, not like its sectioned off, its just one long corridor, and im starting to make friends with them, so how am i to know, anyway i got back to the top and my personal nurse told me off, where have you been? for a walk :rotfl: , stupid people.

three of the patients werent ok today, one i was friends with till today, wow how things can change, another, was mad, she was shouting, swearing banging things, and it hurts my head. and other kept talking to herself and having a conversation with herself. so it all a bit strange, but the strange thing is because i am there all day i feel better with the inpatients, even the maddest one, strange aint it?

so im of in tomorrow too, and sunday, they got me on a tight leesh i can tell ya, ruff, ruff, :rotfl:

ok better go now am sooo shattered
i dont sleep
i dont eat,
and all the rest
but im fighting

ok so keep going everyone
i am thinking of yas
take care
and much love
xxx
:grouphug: :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:

Rosie hun, thanks for posting x. Sounds like a lot of new stuff for you to have to get used to, but you did make me laugh too - trust you to go for a walk and get told off! As Miro says, please eat something and get some sleep ok? You're doing great, keep going. We're still here for you. Love, Saz x

feelinggood_2

Sazbo wrote:

Why you queasy hun? x

I think it was a nasty reaction of the antidepressants and the 10+ drinks I had yesterday :rotfl:

Sazbo

feelinggood wrote:

I think it was a nasty reaction of the antidepressants and the 10+ drinks I had yesterday :rotfl:

They do not mix FG. What are ya like! x

blinky

EthelBloggs wrote:

hiya sazzy n blinky too if ur both still here?


lol, sometimes i find it hard to keep up with everthing here, dont mean to be rude or seem to ignore anyone

Not finding I have enough time myself to keep up with all the posts

Like Ethel I only have time to reply to certain posts. It's not that I'm snubbing anyone. Hope I haven't offended anyone.

Don't think I'll have much time in here over the weekend but I'll pop in when I can.

Will be with 'R' on Saturday evening- Sunday morning and evening :blushing: :kisses2:

feelinggood_2

Sazbo wrote:

They do not mix FG. What are ya like! x

I've learnt my lesson!!
I'm off the drink now

EthelBloggs

blinky wrote:

Not finding I have enough time myself to keep up with all the posts

Like Ethel I only have time to reply to certain posts. It's not that I'm snubbing anyone. Hope I haven't offended anyone.

Don't think I'll have much time in here over the weekend but I'll pop in when I can.

Will be with 'R' on Saturday evening- Sunday morning and evening :blushing: :kisses2:

Woohooooo have a lovely time blinky!!!!