depression

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Trying too...........i'll only give up when she tells me to *cough* go away.

I'd be surprised if she tells you to do that - really I would. Particularly since Britney is now a free woman

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

I'd be surprised if she tells you to do that - really I would. Particularly since Britney is now a free woman

Well, she is an odd girl. Even if we had a relationship starting tomorrow, by 2007 starts, we'd have split up 9 times, got back together 6 times, unsure 3 times, text each other 17 times, phoned 3 times, and she'd have forgotten my address every time.

:whistle:

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Well, she is an odd girl. Even if we had a relationship starting tomorrow, by 2007 starts, we'd have split up 9 times, got back together 6 times, unsure 3 times, text each other 17 times, phoned 3 times, and she'd have forgotten my address every time.

:whistle:

Well, at least it wouldn't be dull The thing is you are able to see past the 'oddness' to what S is really like, you know? And anyway - what you've described ^^^ sounds a bit like me on a normal day :) I'm forgetting everything at the moment. Today a colleague asked me if I could something in two weeks, and I said yes no problem, just if she could remind me nearer the time, so she's stuck a post-it note on her computer to remind her to remind me :rolleyes: With S, I'm sure it's not meant at all, and you understand that totally. I appreciate it's a bit hard for you though, when you need appreciating too xx

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Well, at least it wouldn't be dull The thing is you are able to see past the 'oddness' to what S is really like, you know? And anyway - what you've described ^^^ sounds a bit like me on a normal day :) I'm forgetting everything at the moment. Today a colleague asked me if I could something in two weeks, and I said yes no problem, just if she could remind me nearer the time, so she's stuck a post-it note on her computer to remind her to remind me :rolleyes: With S, I'm sure it's not meant at all, and you understand that totally. I appreciate it's a bit hard for you though, when you need appreciating too xx

Well, dull is nice sometimes, this old heart of mine, been broke a thousand times and all that

:rotfl: at normal day. 'S' is lovely, but it's sometimes noticeable she's a bit 'different' and she's so easily used, and it frustrates me, as she is adoreable and all I want to do is look after her

:rotfl: @ colleague

It is hard, I want to be cared about too, but at the same time, I want her to acknowledge me that she knows I care, and that she likes it

Tiff_2

Sazbo wrote:

I'll get Tiffy onto ya. Then you'll be sorry!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

I am Tiff - hear me roar!

Like that Sazzy?:D
Tiffxxx

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Well, dull is nice sometimes, this old heart of mine, been broke a thousand times and all that

hun, it'll get fixed x

Miroslav wrote:

It is hard, I want to be cared about too, but at the same time, I want her to acknowledge me that she knows I care, and that she likes it

She's maybe still re-learning how to do that, you need the patience of the saint, but I suspect you have it :think: Says Sherlock Saz!

Sazbo

Tiff wrote:

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

I am Tiff - hear me roar!

Like that Sazzy?:D
Tiffxxx

:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

hun, it'll get fixed x

She's maybe still re-learning how to do that, you need the patience of the saint, but I suspect you have it :think: Says Sherlock Saz!

Hope so

I have patience around her, in private i'm head butting walls and stapling my privates, but hey

I'll keep going, I just don't like the anxiety she causes me :rotfl:

Miroslav

Tiff wrote:

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

I am Tiff - hear me roar!

Like that Sazzy?:D
Tiffxxx

Nice Puss-y.

Can't hear much of a roar though..........possibly as my PC has no sound

blinky

Tiff wrote:

Ok Guys - Houston we have a problem!:rolleyes: Is everyone on heat? First Miro & now Bunnie!:eek:
Miro - no more smarties of any colour for you or Tiff will have you down at the vets to get fixed quicker than you can say 'Britslav'!!!.:D Well, it's cheaper than getting it done privately.
Plus we gotta make sure that Miro and Bunnie don't get together - can you imagine 6ft 7" Bunnies?!:eek: :eek: :eek:
just joking guys - good luck to you! Good to hear you happy.;)
Much love,
Tiff xxx

LOL

Must be something about this thread. It looks like I might have rescued my fledgling relationship from the jaws of disaster. :j There's being increasing texts and she's replied positively to an email where I bared my soul and explained my problems to her. There's also a Meeting up with 'R' for a drink + bite to eat tomorrow night. If things go well I think (hope) that we are meeting up over the weekend. Must keep my feet on the ground. Keeping everything crossed and hoping that I don't get too nervous.

Today hasn't been too bad - work has been less stressful. Fixed a few things and successfully diagnosed an issue - just need to work out how to explain it to BT (too complicated to explain over phone to help desk :doh: ). Still plenty of work to do when I left but it wasn't urgent so it could wait. Even bought a couple more self help books on the way home. Trying to stay positive.

I know I was quite bad last night but it was a mixture of being extremely tired and having a stressful day. When I'm feeling a bit low / vunerable I find it easy for my mood to slip when I tire.

Miro - maybe 'S' is feeling threatened by Britney becoming single again or maybe she's gone to tell her to stay away from her man . Seriously hope 'S' and yourself are fine and I'm sure she'll be in touch soon.

Thank you all for your support. You are all :A :A :A :T :T :T

Hope this post helps at least somepeople and I wish everyone a safe night. Don't want anyone to give up hope - Things will change and get better but I know when you are very low you cannot see it. Just keep it going even if it's just for me.

Thinking of you all.

Paul

PS. 4 year old with depression. http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/wear/6127694.stm Truly truly sad, but it did happen in Sunderland... Speaks volumes to me :whistle:



Hope everyone