depression

Tiff_2

bettyboop61 wrote:

Oh Rose,
Thankyou sooo much for your post, I too have hit a very low spot again and I know I shouldn't but have been contemplating suicide again, but your post has given me the strength to carry on a bit more and see how things pan out. I don't post on here often as I'm tooo low to make the effort but your post somehow hit a cord with me. Hello and hugs to all my fellow sufferers out there.

Hi Bettyboop,
Well done you on posting. :T
It's a great site and people care & understand. Try & post some more posts when you can - it's great for letting off steam.
Please don't consider suicide angel. You did so well to change your mind due to someone else's post - that show's you are in control!:T You are too valuable to do this, no matter how you're feeling.
I think this post shows just how much difference our posts can make.
Big hugs to all. x

xlesleyann

I think this is a great post in the fact you can put down how you really feel without being worried about getting judged by others. I know it is hard to sometimes open up and be honest to close ones about your true feelings.

I went through loads of days when all I thought about was taking my own life to stop the feelings and this upset my fiance when i spoke to him about it.

So to have others that can share your experiences and give you words of confidence to get you through each day is great.

My heart goes out to anyone suffering depression as it is not a nice feeling but as Tiff said you have to get in control of it and stop it being in control of you. It is a long process but you will get there.

I will keep posting here, I am sure I will have a few more bad days yet to come but there does come a point when you have more good days than bad days.

Please noone give up, life is too precious.

xxx

rose07

bettyboop61 wrote:

Oh Rose,
Thankyou sooo much for your post, I too have hit a very low spot again and I know I shouldn't but have been contemplating suicide again, but your post has given me the strength to carry on a bit more and see how things pan out. I don't post on here often as I'm tooo low to make the effort but your post somehow hit a cord with me. Hello and hugs to all my fellow sufferers out there.

totally agree with you tiff.

hi bettyboop, im glad my story has helped you and struck a cord with you.
i know how hard it can be not wanting to get out of bed and feeling like each day is a struggle and constant battle.

but if your feeling down you can always come on mse and post how you are feeling.
and you can pm anytime if you just need to chat.

depression is such a powerful thing it can take over your life, but as long as you make sure your the one in control and not the illness then you can be stronger a little each day. the main thing is to take each day at a time, even each hour and just try and keep yourself occupied with things you love and not things that get you down.

((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))

xxx

bettyboop61

Thankyou so much rose and tiff for your support, I'm still here to battle another day, so that must be something I guess, Have been trawling the internet for some help and ideas and came across this place, I am considering contacting them as I am sooo desperate. It is a place called Maytree a sanctuary for the suicidal, it is a non medical respite centre for those of us that our desperate and at the end of our tethers, you can be referred by your own medics or they do accept self referrals, you can stay there for 4 nights. Have a look at maytree@maytree.org.co.uk . Thankyou again for everyones support.... I desperately feel for everyone one of you that post on here and all of you that read this post and feel unable to post yourself.
Hugs to everyone

Tiff_2

:rolleyes:

bettyboop61 wrote:

Thankyou so much rose and tiff for your support, I'm still here to battle another day, so that must be something I guess, Have been trawling the internet for some help and ideas and came across this place, I am considering contacting them as I am sooo desperate. It is a place called Maytree a sanctuary for the suicidal, it is a non medical respite centre for those of us that our desperate and at the end of our tethers, you can be referred by your own medics or they do accept self referrals, you can stay there for 4 nights. Have a look at maytree@maytree.org.co.uk . Thankyou again for everyones support.... I desperately feel for everyone one of you that post on here and all of you that read this post and feel unable to post yourself.
Hugs to everyone

hi angel - you are so very welcome - you must be feeling a little better to have been able to have tried to help yourself by looking up resources. Well done you!:T
I'll check out the link after I've finished my mail.

It's amazing how your priorities change when you suffer from mental ill health. You know you're on the right track when you start to really prioritise & get rid of all the cr*p in your life & suddenly realise you've been like a hamster on a wheel until that point. We're so busy managing and coping we don't see the things we should be doing/enjoying and that we let all the fun go, replacing it with responsibilities. Really simple things can be enjoyed.

I've made myself a little 1st Aid Kit in a pretty box for when things are too hard and I disappear into my room. Take a nice cup of tea too. Only one rule : nothing negative/depressing/sad /sharp and no alcohol allowed! - well if I can't drink, why should you?!:D

Ingredients as follows:
- biggest bar of chocolate you can find (er...until I became allergic to dairy products 4 years ago! )

- cat or dog -do not keep in box as you will be arrested ...(er...until I became allergic to them 5 years ago and had to rehome! )

- a cold smooth glossy stone (not to be used in conjunction with windows or other people!:eek: )

-a tape or cd of your favourite music to soothe you (only usable when 16 year old DS is out of the house - hardly ever - and doesn't have tv, music, & phone going at the same time both upstairs and down!_pale_ )

- photos of your favourite things/people/places (but not if they're the reason you're depressed!:rolleyes: )...(or if afore-mentioned DS has used your digital camera & deleted your pictures before you could print them!:mad: )

- your 1st Barry Manilow album (it'll either kill you or cure you!:rotfl: )...(yet another of my dreams that never came true!:drool: )

-textures like a feather (preferably off the bird!;) ), (er...until I became allergic to feathers 3 years ago )...

I just reviewed my happy box... kinda empty...

AND YOU WONDER WHY I'M ON MEDICATION!!!!!:rotfl:

S*d it, grab a chinese takeaway (and yes, I'm allergic to that too!), a bottle, as much chocolate as you can find, any man under 60 without his own labrador and stick, and I'll be round in an hour!_party_ :cool:

Seriously, (oh do we have to?:rolleyes: )The idea of a happy box is to make you feel special/ comforted when you need it most and I think the next thing I'll be putting in mine, is some of these wonderful posts.
Thinking of you all -much love
Tiff x

bettyboop61

Sorry I think the proper link for May tree is https://www.maytree.org.uk and tiff you have made me smile tonight...you have a sense of humor, i must get mine back, somehow it went missing,
Thinking of you all tonight as I won't be sleeping!!
Betty

rose07

hi tiff and bettyboop

oh tiff you made me laugh there with the box idea, great idea, just a shame you allergic to it all.

my mum is doing my head in at the mo, given me orders and shouting she is a mad one, :mad:

how are you feeling today bettyboop??

not having a job is getting me down, im just a struggling artist at the mo.

the place you have researched looks good, do you know when you will be going there, may i firstly say well done in taking the steps to making sure you get the help you need i found it soo hard to do this, but well done you :A

(((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))) to you all

xxx

tigertiger_3

Hi all dont know if this site has been mentioned in any other post but its very good.

.http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/lounge/default.asp?sectionid=0.

CarolnMalky

Evening everyone,
I have been reading this post for the first time, and as a fellow depression sufferer I am overwhelmed.
I was finally diagnosed last July, after having a nervous breakdown in a DWP medical, and again at my own GP.I was prescribed Flouxetine(Prozac) and rest etc.
At this point, my parents turned their back on me and disowned me...asked if I had caught the depression from my hubby? Or if I had caught it whilst on holiday...the funny bit is they are both on anti-depressants.
Anyways...Over a year later now...still having bad days, IBS flares up, attending Gyn due to absence of periods etc.
Our fabulous NHS is pulling all psychiatric practise nurses out of GP practices, and its an 11 month waiting list to see a pyschologist!joy eh!
But hey, tears are all part of the healing process, my hubby thanks god he has waterproof skin lol!
This website is a great "distraction" for me, I cant go out on my own due to panic attacks etc, and if Im worried and anxious I come on here and have a wee wander through the forums, save money and get freebies at the same time.
Thanks everyone for reading this, and its good to know you guys are here!
xxx Carol xxx

Tiff_2

bettyboop61 wrote:

Sorry I think the proper link for May tree is https://www.maytree.org.uk and tiff you have made me smile tonight...you have a sense of humor, i must get mine back, somehow it went missing,
Thinking of you all tonight as I won't be sleeping!!
Betty

Hi bettyboop - what do you mean "sense of humour" - this is my life!
I think it just pops in and out (don't start!:o ) - sometimes I think it's a distraction from what's been going on. There's nothing like a perky depressive to hack people off!;)
Glad I brought you a smile anyway. I don't think I'll be sleeping much tonight as my DS gets his GCSE results tomorrow.
Look after yourself angel. :grouphug: