depression

Miroslav

Well.......today's events in the chronicles of Miro.......

So, today I woke up quite low, but cheered up as the day went on.

Went into town, bought a new belt (Oh my gosh, I have lost sooooooooo much weight my trousers are starting to fall down!) and flatmate bought a few bits.

We went Tesco's and bought some food, some of it was for Mine and 'S' lunch on Sunday......bought her fave Banofee Pie.

I topped her phone up for her. Poor thing only has a mobile, and when she runs out, she has nothing until she next gets paid, so often can go a week with no credit.....was a hassle though, didn't know how to top her up without no phone or top up card.........eventually topped up via an e-voucher which I text her the details........she text back really happy and grateful, saying how much she cannot wait until Sunday

Her texting made my day, I really really like this girl ALOT! She's made me have feelings I haven't had in years, I feel with her in my life, I can get on with my life, maybe even consider another partner, get a job etc etc.......all because someone other than my flatmate seems to like me. It's amazing how that is all I need, just someone to like me, weiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrdddddddd!!!!

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

I'm quite upbeat today. Woke up feeling a bit low, but things have got better.

How are you today Sazbo?

That's good, that's good. i'm ok, a bit crackered after a long old week, but hey it's the weekend so I'm always happy about that Feeling at a bit of a loose end for some bizarre reason... think my cold is making me feel restless But I came home from work and got some bread rising ready to bake and some veggies in my slowcooker (like the good Old Styler that I am ), so have got a few things done but still fidgety Ah well another glass of red will soon cure that :beer:

We've all had quite an eventful week, one way or another. Hope everyone's doing ok xxx

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Well.......today's events in the chronicles of Miro.......

So, today I woke up quite low, but cheered up as the day went on.

Went into town, bought a new belt (Oh my gosh, I have lost sooooooooo much weight my trousers are starting to fall down!) and flatmate bought a few bits.

We went Tesco's and bought some food, some of it was for Mine and 'S' lunch on Sunday......bought her fave Banofee Pie.

I topped her phone up for her. Poor thing only has a mobile, and when she runs out, she has nothing until she next gets paid, so often can go a week with no credit.....was a hassle though, didn't know how to top her up without no phone or top up card.........eventually topped up via an e-voucher which I text her the details........she text back really happy and grateful, saying how much she cannot wait until Sunday

Her texting made my day, I really really like this girl ALOT! She's made me have feelings I haven't had in years, I feel with her in my life, I can get on with my life, maybe even consider another partner, get a job etc etc.......all because someone other than my flatmate seems to like me. It's amazing how that is all I need, just someone to like me, weiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrdddddddd!!!!

Hey it's not weird at all. That's what it is to be human. We all want to be liked by someone. So many things follow on from that essential requirement. It's good you feel your confidence coming back.

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

That's good, that's good. i'm ok, a bit crackered after a long old week, but hey it's the weekend so I'm always happy about that Feeling at a bit of a loose end for some bizarre reason... think my cold is making me feel restless But I came home from work and got some bread rising ready to bake and some veggies in my slowcooker (like the good Old Styler that I am ), so have got a few things done but still fidgety Ah well another glass of red will soon cure that :beer:

We've all had quite an eventful week, one way or another. Hope everyone's doing ok xxx

Ahhhhhhh, the weekend........love weekends..........no builders :mad: and lots of sport on TV although miss final GP on Sunday because of 'S'.....do I care...........not overly, sooner be with 'S'

You're an old styler? I'm a new styler.......erm.......well, maybe not, I'm just not a great cook.......can do basics, such as roast dinners etc, but when I was younger and took up working in a cafe, the kitchen was too hot and I always felt faint :-(

We have all had a different week, and like you, I hope everyone is doing okay

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Hey it's not weird at all. That's what it is to be human. We all want to be liked by someone. So many things follow on from that essential requirement. It's good you feel your confidence coming back.

Yeah, I guess so, I've just not had this for so long that I don't know what is normal anymore, I've shut my feelings off so much, that I was very cold, but the last 2 months, I've just been different, i've let my emotions get the better of me.

I hope she sticks around and wants me in her life, she's good for me, and I know I am good for her.

Flatmate thinks she may make a move on me soon, because she doesn't understand why a bloke would like her for just who she is, so no matter how much I like her, if she does make a move, I'm gonna have to let her down gently, or something, I dunno

Sazbo

feelinggood wrote:

He ain't willing to take things further whilst I'm with OH, but I'm not ready to leave OH for something that isn't definate.
Sigh

Aww that's tough fg. Maybe you need to consider the situation with OH, maybe try and talk to him about how you both feel about things? I don't know your situation of course, but perhaps this other person is giving you cause to evalute your relationship with OH, in a general way. So maybe you need to do that before you can decide whether you want to leave or not? Just my thoughts... Sxx

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Yeah, I guess so, I've just not had this for so long that I don't know what is normal anymore, I've shut my feelings off so much, that I was very cold, but the last 2 months, I've just been different, i've let my emotions get the better of me.

I hope she sticks around and wants me in her life, she's good for me, and I know I am good for her.

Flatmate thinks she may make a move on me soon, because she doesn't understand why a bloke would like her for just who she is, so no matter how much I like her, if she does make a move, I'm gonna have to let her down gently, or something, I dunno

Well from what you've said, it sounds like she's more used to men wanting to take advantage of her, so I can imagine that you would be a welcome change from that.

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Well from what you've said, it sounds like she's more used to men wanting to take advantage of her, so I can imagine that you would be a welcome change from that.

Yeah, my flatmate said she keeps talking about me and my looks (Still can't get over that ) and that she can tell i'm different, so maybe she's testing me

The top she was wearing yesterday left nothing to the imagination, and some of the things she said, and nearly said, has left me, not worried, but a little anxious, as I think she was trying to tell me she liked me, but was too scared too. She was complimenting me loads, kept touching me, and flatmate says she fancies me like crazy

I know she likes my arms, they are very big, but she also likes......well everything apparently Including my clothes

But I am different, I don't want her for sex or anything. I hope it doesn't come down to me having to politely refuse, although it would flatter me alot. I just want to prove to her i'm not like the rest, although she did keep saying, when I was buying her things, "I'm not used to this, I usually have to pay for guys I'm with" although she was really appreciative that I was doing it.

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Yeah, my flatmate said she keeps talking about me and my looks (Still can't get over that ) and that she can tell i'm different, so maybe she's testing me

The top she was wearing yesterday left nothing to the imagination, and some of the things she said, and nearly said, has left me, not worried, but a little anxious, as I think she was trying to tell me she liked me, but was too scared too. She was complimenting me loads, kept touching me, and flatmate says she fancies me like crazy

I know she likes my arms, they are very big, but she also likes......well everything apparently Including my clothes

But I am different, I don't want her for sex or anything. I hope it doesn't come down to me having to politely refuse, although it would flatter me alot. I just want to prove to her i'm not like the rest, although she did keep saying, when I was buying her things, "I'm not used to this, I usually have to pay for guys I'm with" although she was really appreciative that I was doing it.

Sounds like she already appreciates you're not like the rest. I think that always speaks for itself; when someone is genuine, the real deal. You (ie anyone) can't fake that - least I don't think so. But at the same time, always nice to get compliments.

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Sounds like she already appreciates you're not like the rest. I think that always speaks for itself; when someone is genuine, the real deal. You (ie anyone) can't fake that - least I don't think so. But at the same time, always nice to get compliments.

I hope she does, she seems too, but I can tell she is confused and thinks it won't last maybe.

I'm just old fashioned, I don't mind admitting I am an old style gentleman, who likes to look after young ladies. I am not British, although I have been here since quite young, and I guess my culture is different. It annoys me when men disrespect their partners. It upsets me when the women stay with those men. I don't meet women, but I won't change my ways, and hopefully one day, someone will appreciate me

I'll be careful with 'S' though, I don't wanna lose her friendship, not now, I've waited over 3 years for this, she is very special to me.