A Payment a Day -Part Seven!

psychopathbabble

Thanks everyone... I know I'll be ok again soon, just having a down period anyway without man stress. I shall take my misery elsewhere, get rid of it and then come back to be positive about pad'ing and all the rest! :cool:

Have a great weekend whatever you are doing:)

Hopeful1

psychopathbabble wrote: »

Thanks everyone... I know I'll be ok again soon, just having a down period anyway without man stress. I shall take my misery elsewhere, get rid of it and then come back to be positive about pad'ing and all the rest! :cool:

Have a great weekend whatever you are doing:)

As long as you know you don't need to be alone when you're part of the PaD family. Feel free to offload anytime xxx

psychopathbabble

Hopeful1 wrote: »

As long as you know you don't need to be alone when you're part of the PaD family. Feel free to offload anytime xxx

Thank you! I think my friends are a little bored of me going on about it now so I can now bore all of you! Don't panic, I'm on earlies so I'll be going to bed soon!

Oh and well done Green on going for it with OH, must be a huge weight off your mind!

clearing_out_my_pockets

Hopeful1 wrote: »

Hope nothing serios is wrong. Are you feeling any better now? x

Our boiler is broken. We currently have borrowed a halogen heater and a fan heater from my parents and we'll be sleeping with two duvets over us tonight. We have no hot water either...

The good news, however, is that the rose wine doesn't need to go in the fridge so it can stay in easy reach!

angelicmary85

Evening Padders!

That pic of Mr MSE with a rose in his mouth isn't very attractive is it?! Especially knowing that he's got food poisioning and has to spend all day in thewee boys room!! *lots of shudderingness*

Anyway, for those who don't know...I've completed my farm...took me a long, long time but I'm finally finished! Yay...go me!!

Psycho are you sure that nothing's happened to you 'OH'?! You might be angry with him and he's actually got swine flu or something?!! (Just a thought )

Keza could you please stick me down for another £9.00 today!

Hope all of you who haven't posted not good things, have had a fab day! x

Paulgonnabedebtfree

psychopathbabble wrote: »

Thanks everyone... I know I'll be ok again soon, just having a down period anyway without man stress. I shall take my misery elsewhere, get rid of it and then come back to be positive about pad'ing and all the rest! :cool:

Have a great weekend whatever you are doing:)

Of course you will be OK again.
I would even dare to say that you are OK right now. There's only one person who can decide how you feel and that person is you. Things are what happen. How we feel about them is how we perceive them. I've had my heart broken a few times (and broken a few hearts) before I got around to seeing it that way.
Personally, I prefer more direct communication these days. I dislike the game playing, inability/unwillingness to be assertive, manipulation etc that can go on in relationships and "maybe" relationships. It's just plain wrong to f*** about with someone else's head and if someone tries to do it to me I would either dump them (if it's a repeat "offence") or call them on it and ask them not to do it (for a first time). I once lived with someone who screwed around with my ead so much, I ended up getting therapy before I eventually walked. I even considered topping myself at one point. It really went that far before I started toughening up emotionally. Even though that was some time ago and I have had no ties or contact for some years, a fair chunk of my current debt can be attributed to those times.
Choose well but also remember that it's notnecessary to be in a relationship at all in order to be a complete person.

psychopathbabble

Paulgonnabedebtfree wrote: »

Of course you will be OK again.
I would even dare to say that you are OK right now. There's only one person who can decide how you feel and that person is you. Things are what happen. How we feel about them is how we perceive them. I've had my heart broken a few times (and broken a few hearts) before I got around to seeing it that way.
Personally, I prefer more direct communication these days. I dislike the game playing, inability/unwillingness to be assertive, manipulation etc that can go on in relationships and "maybe" relationships. It's just plain wrong to f*** about with someone else's head and if someone tries to do it to me I would either dump them (if it's a repeat "offence") or call them on it and ask them not to do it (for a first time). I once lived with someone who screwed around with my ead so much, I ended up getting therapy before I eventually walked. I even considered topping myself at one point. It really went that far before I started toughening up emotionally. Even though that was some time ago and I have had no ties or contact for some years, a fair chunk of my current debt can be attributed to those times.
Choose well but also remember that it's notnecessary to be in a relationship at all in order to be a complete person.

I'm pretty sure I'm just upset with myself for being so upset if that makes sense? I hate failing and thats why I'm so terrible at break-ups... although I know it's for the good in the long run. The thing is, he was upfront and straightforward all along right up until now... he wasn't shy about his feelings or that he wanted us to be in a relationship and I really thought he would just be honest enough to just tell me if he thought it wasn't working. I think it's why the silence all the more confusing, it's not his style yet that's exactly what he is doing... unfortunately he has been to work and stuff so I know he isn't ill or anything. But I shall dust myself off again and soon enough I won't want to hear from him even if he does deign to get in touch.

Paulgonnabedebtfree

psychopathbabble wrote: »

I'm pretty sure I'm just upset with myself for being so upset if that makes sense? I hate failing and thats why I'm so terrible at break-ups... although I know it's for the good in the long run. The thing is, he was upfront and straightforward all along right up until now... he wasn't shy about his feelings or that he wanted us to be in a relationship and I really thought he would just be honest enough to just tell me if he thought it wasn't working. I think it's why the silence all the more confusing, it's not his style yet that's exactly what he is doing... unfortunately he has been to work and stuff so I know he isn't ill or anything. But I shall dust myself off again and soon enough I won't want to hear from him even if he does deign to get in touch.

What you say makes sense.
I don't see it as failure though.
Perhaps his apparent "upfrontness" and apparent "straightforwardness" are his way of manipulating people.
Perhaps the worst thing that could happen right now is for him to reappear swearing undying love and having a semi-plausible excuse for not getting back to you (lost phone/damaged SIM card/hemmerhoids - I'm sure you get the picture). Oh yeah. No-one who works for the secret services would actually tell you about it either before he starts that one.
There's one thing that pees me off more than someone not responding to me and that is them taking me for an idiot.
Sometimes the best things happen when you aren't really looking for them. One day you just walk into the supermarket/garage/college/train etc. with men the last thing onb your mind - and there he is. It's recognising it and seizing the moment that's the trick (TIP: Don't jump on him).
For what they are worth, those are the thoughts of Chairman Paul

Paulgonnabedebtfree

Oh yes.
While I'm here.
A PAD of £44.13 today thanks Keza

mooomin

Morning all!

A very exciting £2 for me today please