lilmissmup - the 2010 chapter!

Shoe_Gal

You needs to see the doc - all this does not sound good

lilmissmup

Right only 1 more day until payday! Will do my budget Thursday night once I know what I have!

Health seems to be better this week but mental health still pretty crud.

Still feeling very incapable of doing "normal" things, keep winding myself up about not being able to drive and letting people down and today feeling worried that my boss thinks I am not working hard enough as my supervisor *who has stolen parts and thinks no-one knows.....* has mentioned it has been noticed I am talking a lot to one of the ladies I get on with, apparantly he took a daily job off me to help me *which he says he told me about but I don't remember* and now I am taking the pi$$ by chatting to her more.

I wasn't struggling before but it has made me worried now as I have only been there 4 mths and don't want people thinking I can't do my job and am being lazy.

Got a few worries about me and Simon going round my head too though these are future worries not anything he has done.

Living at home is getting harder and harder too, me and my Dad are arguing more, just want to move out.

Feeling very lonely and never seem to have time to see my friends, was supposed to see one tonight but I cancelled as am feeling low so its a vicious circle.

I need something to change, hate feeling so inadequate.

wendz86

Hi,

Sorry to hear you are not very happy. Really hope things get better for you , whatever needs to happen!
x

lilmissmup

I am happy as such,life could be worse and i have a great boyfriend these days unlike my ex who never left the house! just wish life was less complicated.

Souk08

Lilmiss, PM me if you want to chat X

Shoe_Gal

Hope you feel better soon, I understand as I have been feeling down for a while

lilmissmup

Hello anyone out there.

Not posted for ages again but been lurking.

Credit card got down to £200 but then I brought foo fighters tickets for next year for me, Simon and my best mate and her fella so back to £400!!!

I am off ill today, got a stinking head cold. Cant stop blowing my nose and ears feel "inflated". Only thing is I lose £63 for the pleasure of being ill......I am also supposed to be seeing Simon tonight for first time since Monday at 6am but not going to happen as I can barely move from bed and he STILL has no bloody heating! Apart from a couple electric plug in heaters!

Bit worried about being off ill, always worried I am going to get the sack esp as I still have one month of probation left but I can't sit at work coughing at everyone all day.

Been stressing out about how the !!!! I am going to get to work if I move in with Simon anyway, worked out until I can drive I will be spending 3hrs getting to and from work and 10hrs at work on some days..not something I am looking forward too.

I need to start taking chill pills, always so stressed these days.

Shoe_Gal

:j to even thinking about moving in! How far you have come from when I first 'met' you - well done you!

lilmissmup

He wants me to more than I do, been spending nights sleeping over there with him and the kids but thats sort of put me off moving in ATM as its quite tough although I get on fine with the kids.

Just text him saying I can't see him tonight, bit gutted as not seen him since Mon but I dont want to sit in car for ages and then be cold in his house when I feel like this, look horrid too and not been with him long enough for him to see me looking so pale and chapped!

lilmissmup

The powers of persuasion...currently at Simons as he really wanted me to come over last night but still feeling horrid, cold has spread down to my chest so not at work today so thats 2 days unpaid....:o.

Still trying not to worry about not passing my probation for being ill as had 4 days off since I started and got 1 month left on my probation but if it happens it happens.

Having a few doubts about the job, I like it but its a very long day for the wage (8-6 and then 5 hours every 3rd Saturday) not sure it would look that good on my cv if I left so soon though but if I am going to be travelling a lot more in a few months I might have to have a browse...

My health does seem to have dropped a lot since I started

This is why I need to boost my savings incase it does become too much.

Need to set some goals for 2011,can't believe its nearly another new year, this time last year was so different to now, hoping this time next year life will be even better, Simon's made me so happy, thank match.com everyday for finding him. :rotfl: