So Stressed Out!!!!!!

darknesshayz

I am so stressed out at the moment with this tribunal stuff, they havent called yet, but its dragging me down.

The other day, I looked at the paracetamol, my meds I take in the morning, and my Armitriptiline and thought if I take them all now, I can just try and end it all, end my life out of this misery that is dragging me down. I didnt do it in the end, cause if anyone were to find me, it wouldve been my younger brother, and I wouldnt want him to see me like that. Then I thought if I cut myself, then at least the stress will go away, and it did for an hour or so, the pain made the stress go away. I spent the past week in my PJs cause I just was so down and stressed, I couldnt be bothered.

My mum looks after me (but at the time of when I wanted to take the all my meds she was out downtown), but I do think of suicide, and ways to do it, also I try and cut myself so deeply.

I guess I am typing this cause I am really low, feel awful for having suicide thoughts..... The DLA people, dont think I need to be watched? I believe I do need to be watched....

I just want to hit my head on a brick wall, and make them take notice, I'll show them my wounds if they want to see them..... Cause it seems like they need prove!

Sorry for my stessed/depressing post!

sheeps68

Big hugs. Please talk to a doctor or someone you trust. You need help to get through this.

[Deleted User]

Yes you must talk to your gp about this urgently,I took an OD 10 days ago a cocktail of 44 pills,it was touch n go for a few hours but I made it and am I glad I did?....YES. Amatryptiline are very dangerous and 1500mg or more could kill.
Hope you get the help you need.

mum-of-3

I took an overdose 4 months ago, a cocktail or morphine and amytriptline, I took almost 200 tablets and spent a week in intensive care. My husband and parent had to see me be resuscitated twice. I may have permanent liver damage, but i am lucky to be here. I have turned a corner since then and am being more positive about my disability.
My GP has been excellent as has my husband, I only order a certain amount of medication now and never have to much in the house. The morphine is kept out of my reach. I was under the crisis team to start off with and now have a CPN. If you go to your GP they will refer you for help, most GP surgeries have their own counsellors now too.
Dont suffer in silence, talk to someone, also the samaritans is also there.

[Deleted User]

thanks for that,I did speak to someone at the hosp before they would let me out,luckily i have a great family and a supportive GP have seen counsellors a few times but of little help.

mum-of-3

Have you been assessed by a psychologist yet?

[Deleted User]

mum-of-3 wrote: »

Have you been assessed by a psychologist yet?

No and tbh it hasnt been suggested,I think they hope it was a one off,which I really hope it was.

darknesshayz

I am seeing a conouilor, later today, abit nervous, as I dunno where to start