Just the three of us - new beginnings!

doodledo_2

Thanks CMD.

I have had one text today from him saying he has a headache lol. Obviously I wasn't what he thought I was and vice versa. Good thing is least we both know now and can move on as such. Although in all honesty not sure I can be doing with it all lol. Think I might just concentrate on other parts of my life and see what happens.

I do miss adult contact though in the evenings particularly so I will just have to bore all the people on this board with my ramblings lol.

doodledo_2

Just got back from a lovely long walk with the dog and feel so much better. Nothing like some fresh air and loud music on your ipod to blast the cobwebs away.

Feel a little lost today as my Ex has taken my little girl round his this afternoon. This is the first time he has taken her when I am at home normally it is when I am at work. I feel a little lost in the house, I am so used to her whittering away in the background suppose this is something that I have to get used to I just hope it gets easier.

I need to get stuck into something as I am close to getting a bit down again, I feel very lonely and keep thinking about how I shouldn't be in this situation it's just not what I had planned.

I need to concentrate on the future, getting myself debt free and financially stable and lose some weight which I know will limit me from moving on into another relationship.

Going to go and get myself a coffee before I get too maudlin :rotfl:

hypno06

Things will take time to settle down and get used to, but you will soon relish those days when you have the house to yourself! I would lurve a bit of peace and quiet once in a while :rotfl:

doodledo_2

I know I was thinking the same thing, sometimes when I am here on my own I can't wait for a little me time.

She is like my comfort blanket at the moment and I suppose I need to change this as obviously none of this is her fault and I don't want to stunt her in anyway by being an overprotective mum

doodledo_2

Today has been an odd day.

Yesterdays meet with Santaman really knocked my confidence and bought a whole load of emotions to the forefront. It made me realise that I am not entirely ready to move on. I mean I have moved on as in I won't go back but I am not sure I am strong enough to put myself in a position where I can get hurt again if that makes sense.

I have been mooching about online and talking to my mum (gawd bless her) and have made a few decisions.

I need to move on from my Ex in all respects and at some point I hope to have another relationship but in order to do this I need to get "me" in the right place. Currently my life is dictated by my lack of finances due to debt and by being overweight . Both these things impact my emotional well being and also my ability to move on.

So tonight I have rejoined WW online courtesy of my lovely mum who has agreed to fund this as long as I do it so very MSE. It's a simple diet and one I have done so many times and lost weight I just lose my mojo. So everyone on here who reads this please kick me at any opportunity and help keep me on track.

Secondly I have to get my butt back on the DFW wagon as since Christmas I have let myself slip and although I haven't been out spending I haven't been earning either.

Hopefully whilst this is all happening my knight in shining armour will appear over the horizon and whisk me off my feet................ dream on lol

Purpleroses

no kicks just encouragment hun! (alhough i hear Caf has a whip so maybe watch out for her )

jenchin66

Good luck Doodledoo. It will take time and you will most likely meet your knight in shining Armour when you are least expecting it.

doodledo_2

Thanks peeps.

I'm sure he is out there somewhere lol.

doodledo_2

Morning everyone.

Not a good start to my Sunday here. My little girl had an awful night. She has developed the most annoying cough which kept us both awake all night. In fact I didn't even get to bed as I was in and out of her room every 10 minutes or so.

We were being taken out for lunch today but no way either of us are in the mood so will be cancelling that .

She is tucked up on the sofa at the moment in her duvet so I am hoping she may fall asleep in which case I may grab the other sofa and try and get a few minutes too.

First day back on weight watchers today, although was pleasantly surprised to go on my Wii fit last night and be 10lbs lighter than before Xmas so that was nice. Dependent on little girl will get back on the Wii fit tonight once she has settled, it's actually quite sad but I enjoy doing it lol.

Todays to do list:

- put all washing and ironing away
- 2 loads of washing
- 3 dooyoo reviews (finding it hard to get back into this )
- clicks/scratchcards
- List on Ebay

lilmissmup

I hope she feels better soon.


I know how you feel with Dooyoo, I haven't done any for a week but once i start a review I really enjoy it, its just getting started but its such easy money! I am up to £29.98 lol I want to get to £50 by end of month!