ex and would be ex-gamblers support thread

cantcope

i agree with whats been said above. i was always responsible with money and bet occasionally. until i stepped over the invisible line and lost all control. chased my losses for 14 months. racking up bigger losses.
you have a problem. its up to you how you address it.
accept you've had your last bet and you wont ever get that money back without hard work, or carry on and be in a bigger mess in a years time.

if you honestly think you can accept the loss and move on then that;s great. i couldn't without the help of GA and support forums.

jools1985

Well I already knew how stupid I'd been with the compulsive gambling, then last night I had another massive reality check. I have a Santander bank account and have a handy little app called spendlytics. I discovered yesterday that I could look at the previous years overall spend. I was horrified when I saw how much I'd spent gambling - tens of thousands of pounds. OK I got some of it back through winning, the app only shows money out not money in, but God I felt so sick and slept really badly last night waking up numerous times thinking about it.

I know I can't change what I've done, but I just wanted to get it out on here as I don't know who else to talk to today

cantcope

i know the feeling Jools. When i first stopped gambling about a week later i got a bank statement through the post. it was 114 pages for 3 months of ins and outs all from gambling sites. made me want to vomit.

The important thing is not to get there again. xx

jools1985

cantcope wrote: »

i know the feeling Jools. When i first stopped gambling about a week later i got a bank statement through the post. it was 114 pages for 3 months of ins and outs all from gambling sites. made me want to vomit.

The important thing is not to get there again. xx

Thanks CC you are so right about the important thing being not to get there again.

cantcope

How is everyone?

HEROWHENZERO

Doing great now thanks cantcope :-)

over 15 months in recovery, over £10K paid off my debt, life is more manageable and I'm taking the time to understand and discover things about me that I never really had time to explore.

All the time I spent in active addiction, I was emotionless and didn't really know who I was, working the 12 step program in GA is helping me to find out who I am, and it's making me a much better person.

I actually do care about other people, and actually feel empathy.

One day at a time

Hero

cantcope

Briliant turnaround Hero

I definitely found out by being in GA how much i really wanted to be a good person. compassionate, open minded, humble, helpful while also looking after myself.

cantcope

How is everyone?

HEROWHENZERO

I'm ok thanks, you? I'm still working the program, still going to GA, will be 18 months this Friday. Debt is going down month by month. Accepting that it's not a quick fix is paramount for my recovery.

cantcope

That's great news and 18 months off is a fantastic achievement!!!

All ok here. Had to slow down a bit in life after a big MS relapse in July that put me in hospital but recovering well and back at work now
Gambling certainly wouldnt have made it better!!!