Depression Support Thread

gillette147

LM you need to go out with me for a bit. All my girlfriends gain weight trying to keep up.
xxx

gillette147

I'm having an up period.
Work is improving. People starting to talk to me socially and I've been proved right in a work way over a few things. I feel I'm making a difference.

Sun shine is helping.
The exam is a major hassle and stress but I know what I have to do and a sort of calm is descending. And it will soon be over either way.

I hope you are all happy (and well fed)
Take care all of ya.
I don't post that often but I always read.
xxx

juno

razorbladekisses wrote: »

juno I bet it was a relief to submit it. Did you enjoy writing the essay?

What did you do to your wrist? I hope it gets better soon.

Strangely, I did enjoy it. But I'm also happy that I don't have another for that module until July. Although that is scary, because there's a lot of material to cover and I know I'll just try and leave it all until the last minute.

I broke my wrist when I was 7. And since then, I've had sporadic pain. I went to the hospital on Thurs, and they diagnosed me with arthritis. They also said I'll need surgery in about a year.

juno

LadyMorticia wrote: »

That's what my doctor says.
I have the ED clinic at the end of June. I want to get better and eat like a normal person. I've been like this for far too long.

xx

Could you try increasing things slowly. Or focus on another angle, and try and be more healthy. You could try having something like an apple - it doesn't have too many calories, but it's also good for you. If that's still too big a step then you could try building up even more slowly, and start drinking fruit juices.

LadyMorticia

I try but every time I get close to eating just that tiny bit more I fall again and am not able to do it. That's why, in the end, I went to the doctor because I really want to get better. I know I may never fully recover from my eating disorder but I want to get to a point where I can be happy with myself and not be scared of food all the time. I've been like this for 12 years, ever since I was 9 years old, getting better and then relapsing again. I don't want to see food as an enemy anymore. I want to see it as a necessity to live and I want to enjoy it.

slowlyfading

razorbladekisses wrote: »

slowlyfading :hello: What have you been doing today?

Not much really, you? xx

juno

LadyMorticia wrote: »

I try but every time I get close to eating just that tiny bit more I fall again and am not able to do it. That's why, in the end, I went to the doctor because I really want to get better. I know I may never fully recover from my eating disorder but I want to get to a point where I can be happy with myself and not be scared of food all the time. I've been like this for 12 years, ever since I was 9 years old, getting better and then relapsing again. I don't want to see food as an enemy anymore. I want to see it as a necessity to live and I want to enjoy it.

You've got to take it one day at a time. Don't think about what you did or didn't eat yesterday, and what you should eat tomorrow. Just focus on today.

So say to yourself that today you're going to do whatever, and then try and do it. Presumably you'll have to start right at the very beginning, with going to the shop to buy food. So that can be your first goal It's a bit late tonight so you might have to do it tomorrow. But you can go to the supermarket (or corner shop, if the supermarket is too far away. Or a market, if you want to support local enterprise etc) Your brain will put up a lot of objections at this stage, so you've got to try and counter them. Remember that buying food doesn't mean you have to it it, although that is the final aim. You might just want to sit and look at it for a while, or play with it, to get used to it.

You also need to realise that there are a lot of tomorrows, so don't let failure put you off. You can try again. But don't use this as an excuse to not do something; it will be easier to do it tomorrow if you've tried your hardest today.

Would studying and learning about food and nutrition help you? You'll probably find some kind of cookery class at your local college, and they often focus on healthy eating. Or the OU do Understanding Human Nutrition - it's a bit expensive, but you may be able to get help with fees, and anyway you're investing in your future.

Diamond78

razorbladekisses wrote: »

diamond How are you today? I saw on the other thread that you were taking your son to see the Doctor. How did it go?

hey RBK, sorry I missed you, not long got back. Son is ok, he has cream that he has to put on, hopefully it should clearup in 7 days.

Juno, well done with your assisgment(sorry for spelling)

SF, you ok hun??

Anni, if you ever win 2 wii please let me have one lol, my son would love it and so would I lol, i need to strengthen my back and posture. Have you looked into the drinks I mentioned? I noticed you was talking about weight. I have never been as heavy as I am now apart from when I was pregnant. Ive always been under 45kgs. which is about 7stone i think. Now Im 9stone, in a way I look healthier. I use to hate it when people would comment on my weight, asking i i was anorecix, or I needed to eat. Some people would say it in an insenstitive way and it made have such a complex. I have had it all my life, from childhood, till last year. i would feel so horrible about myself, it did my confidence no good. But since january, my binge eating got worse. I am shocked that Im just over 9stone. Im5ft3. My belly is also huge and i seriously look pregnant. Im due on so that also bloats me as well as IBS. I feel I need to go on a diet, even though deep down I know i dont need to. My clothes no longer fit me. My trousers are tight and ucomfortable. Anyway, I am seeing the dietican from the doctors in june or july. Cant even remeber when the appointment is lol, better go and try and find it.

Hope everyone else is ok today. My son is dissapointed as no doctor who or casualty on, so we are watching eurovision.

Have a great evening everyone.Hugs to you all. xx

Diamond78

gillette147 wrote: »

I'm having an up period.
Work is improving. People starting to talk to me socially and I've been proved right in a work way over a few things. I feel I'm making a difference.

Sun shine is helping.
The exam is a major hassle and stress but I know what I have to do and a sort of calm is descending. And it will soon be over either way.

I hope you are all happy (and well fed)
Take care all of ya.
I don't post that often but I always read.
xxx

hey hun, glad thingsare going well and your feeling good.Great news that work is improving and finally you have been proved right.

The sun was lovely today. I hope you dont live in the south. According to the papers, its going to be horrible weather, while in the north its going to be gorgeous. Oh well us southerns cant have it all the time lol.
Take care too, hugs xx

slowlyfading

Diamond78 wrote: »

SF, you ok hun??

Not really, you?