Depression Support Thread

fairydawn

Lady M hope you hve a good day and enjoy your trim :eek:

I hope you do manage to go and see your friends.

I have a friend coming to visit tomorrow we either have a good laugh or a good cry but normally feel better the following day:rotfl: .

See you all later.
D x

LadyMorticia

fairydawn wrote: »

Lady M hope you hve a good day and enjoy your trim :eek:

I hope you do manage to go and see your friends.

I have a friend coming to visit tomorrow we either have a good laugh or a good cry but normally feel better the following day:rotfl: .

See you all later.
D x

So do I. Nikki isn't going to be there I don't think though. I haven't seen her in a while because her son had appendicitis and had complications etc. Bless him. She's lovely though. She's like the mother I never had. We always email and I have a folder especially for her emails and I keep reading them because they cheer me up.:)

I hope I don't have a panic attack in the hairdressers.lol.

Have fun with your friend. I sometimes feel better after a good laugh, and a good cry. It's a great way to release built up emotion.

xx

LadyMorticia

Night night everyone. I'm going to see if I can catch some sleep.

Much sparkly and glittery love for you all.
xx

slowlyfading

Why can't I sleep at the moment? Its tiring

Tiff_2

Hi guys!:hello:
I hope all is well with everyone this morning.
Well, what a day! (week! month! year!) This week was so busy that I haven't read all the posts yet.

The head vet refused to break yesterday and even wants to see me again in a month. I shouldn't be surprised though really, as it was only our 4th appointment and she has just returned from a 3 week holiday, so she's had time to build up her defences. And cpn was happy because he's gotten me into a 'group' which starts next week (I've got news for him! ), consisting of a few 'survivors' of various things and called ''The Healthy Living Group''...... which will focus on socialising, improving lifestyle and quality of life...he don't know me too well do he?! On the other hand, it could be a good opportunity to Tiff in person with actual people - world domination could be closer than I thought!:j

Anyhoo, before the head vet went on holiday, she decided that the ad I've been taking for 3 years wasn't working and that I was really depressed. So she put me on a sliding decreasing scale of that ad and gave me a prescription for the new one, so that by the time she came back from holiday, I'd have already been on it a week and a half. I decided to do it the Tiff way and do it in slower steps, so today was actually only day 2 of taking the new ad. It'll take a couple of weeks to kick in so I haven't noticed any real problems, but I have been going through a really rough time with my health over the last couple of months anyway. It is more than a little scary when drs want to change your meds, whatever they are, and as I've been prone to developing allergies amongst other things over the last 5 years, it really took a huge leap of faith. So, we'll see how it goes. My cpn said to look out for any unusual symptoms or feelings or behaviour etc. I don't know how to tell the difference anymore! Lots to do today as per,, so I'd better get on with it.




The rain is awfully wet today -- so hopefully I'll not be going out. Hoping that it's dryer and warmer where you are peeps. Safe journeys guys.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi katie-tulip!:hello:
How are you angel? You didn't post much over the last couple of days and you've been missed.
So, as thread cat, it falls to me to come and track you down!




:rotfl:

If you give yourself up now, you can have an extra blue smartie and sausage and chips for tea from the chip shop!:j
I hope all is well hunnie - give us a hello when you can. Thinking of you sweetie.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

dawnylou

Sazbo wrote: »

Awww... hiya dawny! Long time no see! How are you hunnie?

Sazxxx

meyore wrote: »

Hi dawny, nice to see you

Hope you're doing well and work is ok.

Xx

Hey you two.

Sorry I've not been around much lately. Had quite a lot on my mind.
I'm still working full time - although I still don't feel ready.

Work have put me on a temporary 9-5 shift (usually I work on a 8 week rotation that has my shift ending anywhere between 3 and 10pm as well as weekends) I don't know how long they will let me continue on this shift but hopefully it will be for some time yet!

I had to go through full retraining with me being off for so long s I was in a training group with a set of new starters. I found I really difficult at the time to suddenly go from my lovely safe house into a room of 15 strangers (who had all already met during an induction!) I didn't feel I fitted in and with emotions running wild I just kept myself to myself rather than have an outburst and humiliate myself!

I am now back on my team. I know that some people think I am taking the !!!! as I have a 'cushty' shift compared to them.

When I first went back on my team I kept my head down. I had to listen in to someone before I went on the phones and I had a couple of tearful moments :rolleyes: however when I actually went on the phone my first call ended in floods of tears that just wouldn't stop. Don't really know why.
Since then I have started to settle down somewhat and thought things were getting back to normal.
BUT then a while back I started feeling very very low again. I felt unable to talk to those around me and sat at my desk crying most of my shift. It was a struggle to get out of bed again.
I didn't know what to do and couldn't get a doctors appointment.
I decided that if I was like this on my medication then it mustn't be helping at all and maybe I would be better off without it? But still I couldn't get an app at docs.
So I stopped taking them. Hadn't taken them for about 2 weeks before I could get in to see doc. I felt better though. More cheerful and 'normal'.
Doc said she would have advised against it if I had been able to see her beforehand but at least I was starting to make decisions about my life again and trying to take control.
That was about 2 or 3 weeks ago.
This week has been a shambles.
Monday I had a coach listening in with me and I kept bursting into tears. I couldn't really explain why (although not being able to hit my targets didn't exactly help the situation!) but it just kept happening. I felt down all day and night after that. Couldn't sleep on the night.
Tuesday I still felt low - too low to get out of bed but I probably won't get paid if I have any more sick time so I dragged myself there. Had a cry on the way in to try and get it out of my system. Had a coaching session in which I was advised I needed to build more rapport with customers and sound more 'upbeat' - I burst into tears again and spent the rest of the day like that.
It's a struggle to sound upbeat on the phone when you are trying to sound like you are not crying!! Kept waking up all night even though I was worn out.
All Tuesday night I cried and cried and my Fiance ended up putting me in the bath and tucking me into bed at half 8!! I cried myself to sleep.
Woke up Wed after having another very disturbed night. Felt exhausted and unable to go on - but no choice. Just kept my head down all day.
Yesterday I felt a little better but run down and exhausted.
I just need to get today over with and then I can catch up on some rest!!

So situation at the moment - I am not on any medication. Feeling very up and down and all over the place. Mostly feeling low, and very very tired.
Worried aout going back to the doctors and being told 'told you so'
Can't go back on medication anyway as can't afford to pay for prescription.

I don't know what to do. Tearing my hair out.
A friend gave me MINDs telephone number, but I am just too scared to ring!!

I have been trying to find time to do little projects at home. Just little things for myself that make me think a bit and then I am not thinking about how I feel. But it is very difficult at work at the moment!!

Feeling very frustrated


Anyway sorry to just barge back in here after so long and just rant on!!

I hope everyone else has a good day xxx

shazrobo

morning all, (((big hugs))) tiff and dawnlylou stopping ad and starting new ones is so hard, i have done that loads time over the last 14 years, luckily the one i'm on now seems to agree with me a little, and for the first time in years i'm even managing to sleep, still feel tired and unmotivated tho.
we have one of those healthy living groups in my area tiff, hope you go along just for the company and it is a bit of a laugh, we do quizzes on how much sugar is in certain products, and we got most wrong lol
today going to be a toughie i think, seeing my cpn this morn, not seen her for a month.
then this afternoon i have two ladies visiting me at home from an organisation called rethink, my house is so untidy and messy too, dont know if rethink is nationwide or not, apparently its new in my area, and they support people with severe mental health problems recover a better quality of life, will update later when they have been
where you hiding katie hun, we missing you here hope you ok
ladym, i once got a lawn mower that needed assembling, good luck, i could never do mine, but i dont have much patience anyway, so i sent it back, and bought one from elsewhere ready assembled lol
big hugs all
shaz xxx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Oh gosh I am so touched that you all thought about me I have been ok and yes I have been on my Nintendo ds lite playing my new card games :rotfl: I have missed being on here but needed some time out for myself for a bit

today I am back to pottery so I better dash but I will post more later on

Sorry that you all missed me though and I am glad that I make you all smile with my posts

:j

*hugs* to everyone that needs one


love and light,

Katie xxx

LadyMorticia

Morning everyone.

Mah eyes are blurry...lol.

xx