Depression Support Thread

weegie.geek

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Heya everyone.

Not feeling too great today. Urges are strong. I don't think anyone knows I'm a self harmer here. Have been since I was 14. Don't really want to go into it.

There are loads of ways to self-harm. We knew about the eating but I guess you mean cutting. Don't worry about it. It's not ideal, but if it helps, it's better than the alternative. If/when you stop you'll be sooooooo !!!!ed off at yourself because of the scars though. *hugs*

Actually, that's not entirely true. I have a few on my chest that look like I was in a fight with a tiger, I quite like those. That's so wrong, isn't it?

[quite]I was going to go to hunts.mind today but I really can't face going out the door, so I'm sitting here watching Jeremy Kyle. What a sad life I lead.lol.[/quote]

God, it doesn't get much lower than watching JK. (And Trisha, 'cos let's face it that's what you'll watch next!).

I often just veg out in front of the telly, but I try to watch films and decent tv (well, stuff I think is decent. Regenesis was on last night in .CA , woot! Off to watch it in a sec). I can't watch JK or Trisha, it makes me furious. When I go on a killing spree it'll be at the Jeremy Kyle studios. :A Maury Povich was good though, he always had the freaks on. Springer's ace too. Kyle's just too much of a judgemental hypocrite.

My self esteem and confidence has hit rock bottom today. I'm going to talk to Janette tomorrow and the doctor on Wednesday. I hate feeling like this.

Did anything trigger it, do you think? I know there's not always a trigger (rarely is for me) but I always try and work out if there could've been anything that did it. Helps to be able to blame someone else.

Tulip's right though. Fire on some Dragonforce, you can't stay miserable when listening to Dragonforce.

LadyMorticia

weegie.geek wrote: »

There are loads of ways to self-harm. We knew about the eating but I guess you mean cutting. Don't worry about it. It's not ideal, but if it helps, it's better than the alternative. If/when you stop you'll be sooooooo !!!!ed off at yourself because of the scars though. *hugs*

Actually, that's not entirely true. I have a few on my chest that look like I was in a fight with a tiger, I quite like those. That's so wrong, isn't it?

I've got so many scars over my arms, legs, chest, stomach, everywhere really. They're noticeable. People stare at me in the street. I don't do it on my arms any more because I don't want those around me to know I do it so I manage to restrict myself to just my legs, chest and stomach now as I never really show those parts of my body.
I also pull at my eyelashes and eyebrows and in the past used to take my hurt out on my hair by randomly cutting at it. I don't do that to my hair now though.

That's not wrong. I have one that I'm not exactly fond of but I don't hate it like the others. It has this fleshy cream pink colour.It's like a gash though so it's my most noticeable one.

God, it doesn't get much lower than watching JK. (And Trisha, 'cos let's face it that's what you'll watch next!).

Lol. I blame my old foster carer. She used to watch it when she came back from taking the kids to school so I kind of grew accustomed to it. Most of the time it's just about who's the father or who slept with who.lol.

I often just veg out in front of the telly, but I try to watch films and decent tv (well, stuff I think is decent. Regenesis was on last night in .CA , woot! Off to watch it in a sec). I can't watch JK or Trisha, it makes me furious. When I go on a killing spree it'll be at the Jeremy Kyle studios. :A Maury Povich was good though, he always had the freaks on. Springer's ace too. Kyle's just too much of a judgemental hypocrite.

I'm not really into Trisha.lol.
Haha. What will be your weapon of choice? .lol.

Did anything trigger it, do you think? I know there's not always a trigger (rarely is for me) but I always try and work out if there could've been anything that did it. Helps to be able to blame someone else.

I don't think so. I've always had low self esteem but this is the lowest it has ever been. All the mirrors in my house are covered with sheets because I hate looking at myself. I hate me really. I really don't think my old CPN should have discharged me.

Tulip's right though. Fire on some Dragonforce, you can't stay miserable when listening to Dragonforce.

Gotta love Dragonforce.

Btw your replies always make me smile.lol.

xx

LadyMorticia

Just had a run in with absolutebounder on the "Energy switch salesman" thread.

All I said was that I didn't have the confidence to say no to British Gas so I said yes and that I can't phone them up due to mental health reasons and I don't need the stress of it all at the moment. He/she (not sure what sex they are) said how do I know it would caause more stress so I replied with "I do not wish to go further into the matter as this is about energy supplier door salesman and not my mental health. Thank you", trying very hard not to get upset and lose it. Then absolutebounder replied with "So what you really meant was "someone got me to change my supplier which now I sort of regret because new supplier is more expensive but I cant be @rsed to do anything about it apart from whinge." I lost it and replied with "Don't judge me. You don't even know me. I had just about enough of you judging us on the depression support thread."

I feel really guilty now.

xx

queensway_boy

He's slagging the thread again and now trying to hide behind Ted,he says




"This is probably why ted said that the depression support thread supports ongoing depression whils minimising any real help."



what a




http://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/showpost.html?p=9418033&postcount=237

LadyMorticia

queensway_boy wrote: »

He's slagging the thread again and now trying to hide behind Ted,he says




"This is probably why ted said that the depression support thread supports ongoing depression whils minimising any real help."



what a




http://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/showpost.html?p=9418033&postcount=237

Thank you. I thought it was just me being paranoid. Now I know that the problem doesn't lie with me.

Love that smiley btw.

xx

Diamond78

ladymortica, dont let him or she get to you.We all know absoluteblunder is thoughtless. He wants a reaction from us.It is him who is the attention seeker. And now he is trying to get others to back him up. All he is doing is trying to aggravate the situation and make it worse. Let him carry on talking to himself. It will be him getting reported in the end not us hun, so let him chat away to himself.Hugs x

LadyMorticia

I'm sorry guys. I just take things to heart a lot of the time. It comes with the BPD I guess. That's what I've been told anyway.lol.

I am so glad I found this thread. The support here is amazing. And even though I don't know you all in person, I consider you my friends.

****hugs****

xx

ilovegreatdanes

hi,
as soon as im gone, you all come back:D just had to read about 15:eek: pages....now hows a girl supposed to remember all that info ...some days i cant remember my own name, let alone all you lots goings on:D
..so good to hear from meyore, sf, TIFF, and bmf and gillette....
tiff, as agreed unanimously...excellent post to the one whose initials start the alphabet:mad: , nuff said..also excellent post from gillette.dont whose version i liked best.....the logical one from tiff or the no nonsense one from badger:beer:
was a bit worried when glad had to intervene again as we always seem to have a new home just after she visits:D ....at least this time we can get tips on moving from ccstar.xx
rose......glad you held your own against the boss from hell:eek: .can only sympathise and say to her...what goes round ,comes round, so she will deffo get hers:T
katie....am so glad you had such a lovely night out.you deserve it:A
weegie, meyore, juno and ladym.....i now feel sooo old as all your talk of those groups went right over my head....mind you, my mum was the same over my obsession with the bay city rollers:rotfl: .....old age and poverty comes to us all:D
hi to everyone else i havent mentioned.
(note to ab....if you cant say something nice....find yourself another site:p and if you want to slag ppl off ,then please be man enough to do it on the thread to which you are referring, and we will try our best to accomodate you....just before we all press the ignore option:cool: )
....and i promised myself that enough had been said previously on the matter, but dh always says i have to have the last word:D its my duty:rotfl:
am off now but ill be back,
love ilgd xx

ilovegreatdanes

For someone who's supposed to be a therapist he's a judgemental !!!!!.[/quote]
glad hes not my therapist:eek: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: you would deffo need counselling for the counselling!!!!!:rotfl: :rotfl:

weegie.geek

LadyMorticia wrote: »

I'm sorry guys. I just take things to heart a lot of the time. It comes with the BPD I guess. That's what I've been told anyway.lol.

Why apologise? If he knows anything about the condition, he should know to be careful what he says. He's the one with the problem here, not you.