An Explaination

moonlightpjs

Hi folks
First of all I have asked that the thread regarding my resignation from MSE be pulled.

Secondly, thank you, mostly in the majority, for your kind words of support, understanding and your Pm's.

Thirdly, whether or not you think I need to, I do need for my own sake need to explain my actions yesterday. I "resigned from MSE" in a moment of weakness, of stupidity and I felt very vunerable (sp?). I dont post regulary on the Pigsback board, mainly because DFW is my home so to speak but I have posted on there on a couple of occassions recently, mainly, due to our personnal circumstances we needed every penny we could get, be it in the form of vouchers or whatever. Most of you on this board will know the situation only too well.

In relation to the posts I made yesterday on the Piggie board, I feel I have to defend myself. I could just not have posted, kept the Piggypoints and cancelled the DD but I didn't. Nobody would have been none the wiser, I actually posted because I was in a dilema, I didn't know what to do and did take the comments made personally and to heart. If I were not too honest I would have just cancelled the DD and thought no more of it. In actual fact the DD has not been set up yet when I checked online banking today. And not for a minute do i think that Pigsback were given 700 points (£7) per person who signed up to the Dogs Trust but thats not important. I DO NOT TAKE FROM CHARITIES!!!

Most of you who know me will know that I would gladly give anything to anybody, in fact I have done this instead of e-baying things so that other people (DFW's or anybody I know) can benefit. I ask for nothing back in return and do not expect anything. I give, when and because I can and am happy doing so.

I do regulary give to charity, I give £5 per month to the NSPCC and have done for every month for about 5 years, even some of my utilities bills have not been paid because I think it is such a worthy cause and due to my own personal childhood circumstances, but again thats by the by.
We, Andrew and myself, have just given our £120.80 child benefit to the childrens cancer unit at St James Hospital in Leeds. We couldn't afford it but felt we had to give something back to the hospital that has treated and cared for Andrew so well over the last few months and supported us both tremondlsy. We did this 2 weeks ago as Andrew had his final bout of treatment.

I am feeling especially down and kind of vunerable right now. i think its mainly to do with the fact that Andrew has finished his treatment and throughout it all I remained strong, cried slient tears by myself and just got on with things because I had a husband who was ill and 2 children to think of. Now its over and its suddenly hit me, the last few months have caught up with me and I feel a bit of a mess and suddenly frightened about what the future might bring. Not that I wasn't frightened before , well, its hard to explain.................................

I haven't posted much on this board during the last few months because I had to concentrate on my family and knew that if I posted just how i was feeling I would completely break down and I couldn;t allow that to happen aa it wouldn;t stop, I knew the DFW's would be supportive and loving, as always and it was that that I was scared of if that makes any sense at all.


Anyway, enough for now, my sincere apoligies to everyone for causing such a fuss - a mad momment of weakness. I hope you will all forgive me. Andrew said I should just have logged off and returned later with my strength intact. But thats me - jumping the gun as always.

I hope I am still welcome on this board even though I will be still be taking a back seat until things return to normal.

Thoughout the whole of the last few months I have been really, really touched by the support I have received, and this time I will name names because I don't give a damn - Toto, PAP, Snaggles, Tig and my knight in shining armour SS. I have had support from loads of other people and I am not dismissing them but these ones in particular stand out.

So I'm back, if you'll have me and again, lots and lots of sorrys, please dont post on this thread as I don't want a fuss - I caused enough of one yesterday but thank you all for your lovely messages, as always they mean such an awful lot xxxxxxxxxxxx

Toto

Welcome back sweet, you didn't need to explain but I hope you feel much better now. We don't mind if you post once a minute or once in a blue moon so long as we know you're doing ok.

Big hugs to you and your lovely family xxx

Balls_Of_Steel

Nice to have you back, even though i don't know you :beer:

gems2381

I'm glad you've changed your mind and decided to stay, I've read the offending thread and don't think they really intended to cause you any upset.

rog2

weller711 wrote: »

I hope I am still welcome on this board even though I will be still be taking a back seat until things return to normal.

Just - THANK YOU for coming back.

tigtag02

weller ~ I only have onething to say and thats WELCOME BACK

hang on, this is me, one thing to say is laughable

Be who you'll be sweet, we think nothing of your *moment* and completely understand ~ just carry on being weller and I know you'll be reet

Lotsa Luv n Hugs
tigtag

In_Search_Of_Me

Good that you changed your mind. You really dont have to justify yourself to anyone though me lovely! What you do with your money is up to you! As for the cashback thing someone asked me recently if I felt guilty for not making a donation to a charity who sent me a trolley pound thing & the answer is an unapologetic no! Chareties rely on people feeling guilty & hope that will make people pay up but that particular manipulation didnt work on me! I give to charity when I choose and not because I am being emotionally blackmailed!! Plus I dont exactly have spare cash anyway!!
So welcome back and keep posting; sort the wheat from the chaff & accept that you wont always agree with what others say! Big hug!

lilmissmup

:j Yay I hope you know we all meant no harm and i hope you feel you can come back tp the PB thread one day.

barnaby-bear

weller711 wrote: »

In relation to the posts I made yesterday on the Piggie board, I feel I have to defend myself. I could just not have posted, kept the Piggypoints and cancelled the DD but I didn't. Nobody would have been none the wiser, I actually posted because I was in a dilema, I didn't know what to do and did take the comments made personally and to heart. If I were not too honest I would have just cancelled the DD and thought no more of it. In actual fact the DD has not been set up yet when I checked online banking today. And not for a minute do i think that Pigsback were given 700 points (£7) per person who signed up to the Dogs Trust but thats not important. I DO NOT TAKE FROM CHARITIES!!!

I read the thread, it's clear you didn't have any intention of scamming a charity, you yourself raised the moral dilema, likewise I don' think the comments were judgemental or personal. I hope things work out and you are less vunerable soon but as an outsider all I read was a non-event, I didn't read you doing anything wrong and I didn't read anyone making nasty or judgemental comments.

donner_kebab

Welcome back Weller! I was saddened when I read your leaving post yesterday and am happy to see that you are back! Well done you!

Luv the kebabmeister xxx

jpwhittle

yay you didnt leave. im glad you stayed to. can i have some of your friends please (or maybe just share them lol) i could really do with some like them.