As good as it gets

tibawo

I am one of those people full of good intentions but never seem to complete the job. It is usually that when I have the time to do the job I run out of cash to buy the bits needed so that it is put off for another day, which turns into another week, month and even years!

This, then means I sit of the sofa depressed which means I stay in the viscious cycle of no motivation and feel sorry for myself. I am sat here typing looking at a pile of things ready for a car boot, they have been there for weeks. I also have more stored at mums house.

I finished my iva months ago and cannot really say that I have moved forward with anything. I am fed up with having no money and living one pay packet to the next. My car has just got an oil leak so the extra money I was going to pay off the leccy arrears looks like it will go on that. I give up.

I know I should do something about it but lack the push to get started. Because where exactly do you start?

tibawo

I think just that one diary entry yesterday and the lovely weather today have spurred me on a little.

Off work so did a mystery shop, was treated to lunch. When I got back my shredder died. So as I had to sort the chimnea out thought I would burn it instead. It felt good and I don't have another pile of stuff cluttering the floor. I read the kon Marie thread and am really getting into it.

I have bags of stuff to go the tip, including books by my bed that I started to read but just could not get into. I also have a bag to go cash for clothes and did the bill/paperwork. When you find things not filed from last Easter I can understand why I am am so depressed with it all. I read the kon Marie idea might take six months!

Decorating one of the girls rooms the moment, have been since February. all her stuff is everywhere which doesn't help my mood but nothing is going back in that she doesn't play with. Another reason why I might hold off on the car boot!

Well the car is going in tomorrow, I hope it is not too much and easy to do as I wanna get the jobs done that I had planned for the hols.

tibawo

Car is waiting for a part and not going to be done till Monday. So annoyed as I need it for work and will have to take day off , no pay neither as zero hours contract.

Half way through painting and did some de cluttering of things that are currently in my room which felt good.

Been looking at my CDs : finally time to sift thru them. Not sure how to copy songs onto a more upto date device nor wether to do album or just tracks I like?