I've failed

Gigglepig

OP life is not a competition. You have achieved many things. Lots of good advice on here. another small suggestion from me; Would it help to disconnect from facebook etc. for a while, so you remove the temptation to compare yourself to the glossy stuff people put on there. Remember most people have problems and issues, and you won't know about them. Some people have high salaries but issues with drink/drugs. Some get 1sts in their degree but struggle with eating disorders. Lots of secrets.

ilovelondontown

Honestly I was reading your post and I was thinking the whole way through, bl00dy hell that girl has done good! Look at all the things she's struggled through but look how far she's come.

I had a similar problem with my Math GCSE, I've got common sense coming out of my ears and can have an intellectual conversation with someone of any status but my word, I think my math level must be on par with a 5 year old, I'm not joking. Its actually embarressing but my mind just doesn't work with numbers.

It took me 4, yes FOUR times to get my GCSE maths. I went to school, got ungraded, went to college, retakes, got an F, went back to college, got a D and then retakes AGAIN and got the C. I took the final 2 tests doing an access to teaching course - which is actually to help you get the addtional grades I needed to get into Uni, they cut out all the [EMAIL="!!!!"]!!!![/EMAIL] and literally taught in a class of 5-8 adults and I got to learn the bare bones of what I needed.

And guess what? I've forgotten it all now but I have the "magical" C everyone wanted from me.

I graduated and got a 2.2, which was a HUGE achievement considering where I'd come from and I'm so proud of that. You have every right to be proud too.

Wallow in your emotions for a few days and let them wash over you, when you've had time to let it settle, dust yourself down and find the fight again, you are capable, you are worth it and can DO IT!

Best of luck!

teabag29

Hi chick, I can totally empathise with what you are feeling as it could have been me writing your thread. I am 32 with 4 children and whilst doing my degree I was in a violent relationship and hardly made it to any lectures/seminars I also had a baby during my final year and became a single parent, hence I also got what I felt was as a disappointing 2:2....that was in 2010!. I am still not working but home educating my daughter who has special needs, I too would love to teach but have a lower degree than most applicants and no work experience. My degree is in Criminology but not an area im particularly interested in anymore, instead id love to teach n a primary school. I feel as though ive got myself into debt with student finance for nothing and let myself down, I cant even seem to get a basic job as employers are put off that I have little in the way of work experience. Its really getting me down and I often feel depressed about life in general. I find it best to set myself 1 goal at a time until ive achieved what I want to, my next goal is to pass my driving test so that I can further my career options. As someone previously mentioned, have you looked at becoming a teaching assistant? this will give you a much better chance of getting onto the PGCE course and help you with your maths along the way, or what about some maths tuition yourself? I am lucky in that aspect as all my GCSE's wer grade C or above, with me its lack of work experience (you need atleast 1 weeks experience in a school too) and confidence. If you ever need to chat drop me a line and as others have said, you've done so much more than you realise and you are still so young, dont beat yourself up your doing great. Also I am also in the midlands (Leicester) so if you ever fancy meeting for a natter i'm not far away

Mojisola

I knew someone who was a wonderfully creative person but she couldn't pass her Maths GCSE. She'd taken the exam about fifteen times!

She was working as an Art teacher in a private school and was very good at her job but there are more posts available in government schools so was determined to get her Maths exam.

She eventually passed through a friend-of-a-friend giving her one-on-one lessons - they went right back to adding up the numbers from one to nine and moved up. He worked out exactly what she was finding difficult and taught her how to manage them - she never really "got" Maths but he taught her what she needed to pass the exam and a lot of children have had an inspirational teacher as a result.

DKLS

Nowt wrong with a Desmond and it sounds like quite the achievement with everything going on.

Prothet_of_Doom

Someone mentioned Farse book. Just kill it. If you MUST social network try linked in, but remember again that the social "brochure" is 95% spin for many. I look like a successful consultant, but actually I'm a freelancer.

Dimey

Wow Wiggywoo, you're not a failure in my book. I'm in awe of you.

You've got a degree, your own home and you are bringing up a happy child single handed. If that's not a success story I don't know what is.

Its known that people who are good at English are lousy at maths and vice versa. So not surprising you are brilliant at English but not at maths. I guess you could keep bashing away to get the maths qualification. Well worth taking the advice about help if you have a number dyslexic condition.

On the other hand you could consider changing direction into a job where you don't need the maths. That's not failing. That's adapting to circumstances. Something you've already proved you are good at.

Sounds like you need to be kinder on yourself. You're pushing yourself too hard. Maybe you are a bit depressed. See your GP for help & advice.

Don't let your child see you so unhappy. Enjoy time together. Go to the park lots and build a comfy secure happy home for the two of you. Once you close your front door, it doesn't matter what the outside environment is.

Perhaps your "career" for the next few years should be bringing up your child. Put your energies into that and put your teaching or other work on ice till your child is at school. Raising a happy, well adjusted child will be a wonderful accomplishment.

FatVonD

Just a thought, OP, but if you've just got a D this year can you ask for it to be regraded? There's lots in the news about harsh marking this year and my son's school has asked for permission for the papers of lots of the kids in his year to be re marked as their grades were lower than anticipated.

carefullycautious

Wow! you got a 2.2 :beer:
Your cup is half full not half empty.

Think of the positives.

High rise flat= roof over your head, its home, bet it has fantastic views
Stairs= exercise
Nasty critters can be eradicated
Son wont care what you have or don't have your love for him will see you through, If you have the chance read as many rags to riches autobiographies as you can get your hands on and then be grateful for what you have and not what you don't have.
Go back to basics with the maths and try try again you will get it in the end.

After what you have been through you are an inspiration.
Look in that mirror and tell yourself how well you have done.
Change that heading from Ive failed to Ive achieved.

Jojo_the_Tightfisted

wiggywoo9 wrote: »

I don't know why I bother. Obviously I'm just going to be a useless, jobless layabout on benefits for the whole of my life. Why should I even keep going? What is the point being here anymore?

I just finished university. I had no gaps, I passed with everyone else my age. I'm 21. I was pregnant the first year, abandoned 2 weeks in by my long-term partner, first love ever. I did that alone. I did the 2 following years, with a baby, then as he grew to a toddler. 5am starts for 3 years, battling PND, travelling a 40-mile round trip. Homeless 7 months ago with my son because of my family.

I finally got my own place. Crappy, highest floor, stairs nightmare, bugs in flat, no money. Managed that.

But now? Why? What the hell is the point in doing anything? I'm desperate to work, I don't enjoy being at home all the time. I got a crappy 2.2, keep having to explain for that- trouble at home, too many issues, but least I did it. But can't pass my GCSE maths. Got a D, tried 3 times, no luck. I went for an adult education test today to get onto to the maths GCSE course, but guess what, so crap at it and everything else, failed. needed 23/30 to get on. I got a 10.

So now my dream of ever teaching has gone. not gonna get a job with that either. life is over. all I want to do is teach english, to share my passion, to be in the school. all I wanted to do since I was 14. i'm a lone parent. I have no friends, poor prospects, i'm all my 2 year old boy has got, I just want to say yes I did it, I got a mortgage, good job, i'm alone but i'm doing it. i'm living.

I just feel like my life prospects have gone now, wiped by some silly qualification that isn't even relevant to my subject! I just want to teach! I'm yearning for it, its what I want to do, and it feels like a big wall has come down, resigning me to the reject pile. What am I supposed to do now? In 2 years he'll be off to school and I'll be such a bad example & influence without any future, anything to offer him. Its all on me- if I don't do it or make it, that's it. There's no super dad with a great job, to help buy a home or support in anything. It's me and I'm struggling with the pressure.

my sons better off with his nan, what can I ever give him? no permanent home, no job, I only had one relationship, i'm fat, i'm not worth having here. there is no point anymore. theres no one to dry these tears.

I'm possibly going to get flamed for this, but still;


STOP WHINING



You've got somewhere to live, a perfectly adequate degree and your kid.


You didn't get the maths thing this time. So enrol on a slightly lower level course and get up to speed before you take GCSE. It takes a bit longer to get it. Big bloody deal, so it takes longer.


The more you sit around telling yourself and anybody else about how it's all still soooooo awful, the more you'll believe it - after all it's easier to give up than it is to keep on going, isn't it?


I'm not here for the usual MSE handholding stuff. I'm not sugarcoating it. You're whinging because it isn't easy. Newsflash. Nobody ever said it had to be easy.


You've got the ability to get out there and do it if you choose.



So choose and stop trying to get out of it.