Can't take anymore

Darlyd

Apart from problems with DS1, stupid hours at work (less than 5 a week due to, to many of us, and no interviews for more jobs out of 100's I have applied for) I have today been told by gp my bloods I had last week were abnormal and require more bloods (tomorrow) and a scan ( they will call asap) for tests, more than likely cancer I bet ya, things comes in 3's, nans twin just been diagnosed with vascular dementia, nans sister got days/weeks to live (has cancer). !!!!!! I am so scared I am having nightmares.

Have lumps all in my breasts, abnormal bleeding and pain from down below, weight loss (not even dieting, makes a change), feel so unwell and I am only in my early 30's god...

So sorry I have no friends to confide in, keeping this to myself... Hubby knows but he is so laid back it's making me feel sick.. Felt a psychotic episode coming on last night (took meds, first time in months) it's killing me....

Anyone else ever been through a scare like this?

Spirit_2

A cyber hug is on it's way.

Sounds like you have a lot on your plate. I suspect your husband either does not understand the enormity of your worry or is trying to remain calm in the face of a worry he does understand and doesn't want to add to.

For the time being the short working hours may be a blessing and give you time to focus some attention on you.

Taking meds is fine, well done for recognizing they can support you and that you are managing this part of your health.

It is sad news about your Nan's twin and sister, however this is something you cannot change and it may be for the best if you can accept and empathise with this situation and let others take the lead in supporting them.

I have an over developed sense of responsibility (bred into me) and for my own health I have had to learn to stand back from shouldering the problems my wider family would have been happy for me to bear. Sometimes hard when their situations seem desperate too but your own resilience can only be spread so thin.

At the worst of times I have found MSE a great source of advice, common sense and support. You have come to a good place and you are not alone.

Take care

Spirit

Gra76

I went through 6 months of chemo last year for Hodgkin's Lymphoma (cancer) and I'm in my mid-30's. It's not the most pleasant thing to go through and I found my wife to be very supportive, although she seemed (on the outside at least) to be completely unphased by it all. She's a nurse so I guess all her sympathy goes on the patients, not the home!

It was quite an experience as it took 2 biopsys and a few scans to finally diagnose it. I think it was the lack of certainty that got me the most. I was sure it was cancer, and my consultants were fairly sure as well but until the morning I sat down with them for the results of the 2nd biopsy it felt like I'd never find out for sure.

I do hope you find out for sure what it is, and I'll have my fingers crossed that it isn't cancer, but the unexplained weight loss is very common to cancer, combine that with the lumps you've found and it's easy to add 2 and 2 together and come up with cancer as the answer.

Big hugs your way.

cobbingstones

Sending you big hugs.

I went through something like this a couple of years ago, but thankfully I was clear. Do not diagnose yourself just yet, try and wait to you have the results then you can action plan on what you feel will be the best way to deal with it.

Please keep us posted, I'll be thinking of you xxx

Nicki

Hope you feel better this morning.

A few years ago, my doctor pushed a note through my door the week before Christmas to say that a blood test had come back with high markers for ovarian cancer (I was also having other symptoms prompting the blood test). I saw the oncologist on Christmas Eve with all my kids in tow, and had exploratory surgery at the beginning of January, when I got the all clear.

I had 2 family members die of ovarian cancer so am higher risk, and had a very stressful few weeks imagining the worst, but in the end all was fine. Blood tests are a very blunt tool to "diagnose" this sort of thing, with a very high false positive rate, so doctors use them as a screening tool to refer on for further investigation, rather than a diagnostic tool in the first place. Its useless to say try not to worry, but try not to worry too much until you have something more concrete to go on.

Darlyd

Thank you so much for your replies.

I cancelled my bloods today as I was up till 3am drunk, and swore bloods would just be affected by the amount of alcohol I had in my system, rescheduled for 2 weeks, so can't be that bad surly?

I have had 2 biopsies now on my breast (lump) over the years, both times been clear. I just don't know. Think I will make an appointment with my gp soon as kids go back school to have a chat, nothing has come through for referral for scans yet. If anything I know it would be something to do with down below, I just know it.

Mrs_Ryan

Oh bless you.

FB me if you need to - I'm havin a carp time of it as well recently. xx

heartbreak_star

Darlyd - bit of tough love first...first, you're making yourself sick with panic. Make that appointment with the GP now, not later, and see if you can some breathing exercises (these and just normal exercise are great for anxiety). Also, don't you dare reschedule your bloods again - even if you were drunk, it only take 1 hour for 1 unit of alcohol to be out of your system, and most blood tests aren't affected by alcohol. Also...if worst comes to worst, why does it matter if it's "down below" as you put it? Wherever a cancer is, you will get the correct treatment for it.

Phew, now I'll take my stern cap off. BIG HUGS and the best of luck - you have a lot on your plate and even though your hubby seems laid back, I'm sure he'll cuddle you as and when needed Love and positive thought to you!

HBS x