feeling so useless.. cant order pick :'(

jobneeded

Hello everyone

I recently started working at the NHS supply chain as an order picker which was arranged through a recruitment agency.
(now this is where im getting rather worried as i was tested for dispraxia when i was about 6, then when i moved high school and was 12-13 year old it reared its ugly head again)

Ive been working their now for 3 weeks, picking boxes from being honest a small aisle picking area upstairs.
Last monday i was told by my supervisor "Rob even though its your first week picking un-supervised we need to start aiming for 50-54 boxes per hour, OK ( i was already trying to double pick and was struggling and getting mixed up and confused, so went back to just picking 1 order at a time)
I was litteraly almost running round the aisle trying to hit the target set, -later last week i was told it still need to be higher as im still only hitting low 20's - which really it made me feel like i just wanted to ball my eyes out(but couldnt explain why).
then this morning when i got into work while taking in my 1st few picks, was told my figures had gone from low 20's down to between 19 to 14 per hour and was asked to try harder, i explained that i was trying my damn dist and its making me feel worse and making the figures worse. to which he replied" well if they decide to take you on permenant, they will look at this and well... you wont be picked to stay and will most likely be sacked.. then again carrying on with my picks i was again overwhelmed with the feeling that i just wanted to stop and cry

what makes me feel even worse about the whole issue is that im trying my hardest the figures get worse, leaving me feeling like i want to stop and cry at the thought of" im just too thick (and) to be honest why am i even here)
ive been called a !!!!!!!! from one of the other order pickers as he left the carpark last friday,ive been told to !!!! off by somebody else on order pick(but yet i dont want to complain as its the kind of place that they will think"new lad,on with recruitment agency that cant even do the job" he's just a trouble causer ... and will still get the sack

and to add insult to injury I think those dispraxia tests i took when i was little,and my head teacher when i was 12-13 were right,as they use barcode scanning, when looking through the barcodes to where i need to pick the item/s from and the scanner reads it, i have a terrible headache, and im usually in the wrong aisle too
and today being told that my picking hourly rate is getting worse made me feel a whole heap worse
my thoughts" one of the easiest possible jobs and i still cant even do it,cant get it right,am trying my absolute best and am making it even worse,no sod like's me,and i cant even do the job order picker,there's not much hope left for me anymore"
they were my initial thoughts
Im always forgetting to either put things in boxes and sending them off with items missing,without labels and stuff like that...
im always feeling tired and getting bad headaches at work,even though ive slept for over 8-10 hours straight. and still get headaches and then being told that i basically cant do the job,makes me feel really upset and tired all over again...

what am i to do?
Rob

JimmyTheWig

Ask for training?

rapunzelz86

Try not to get down. Bullies at work are just that, bullies, they are not better than you in any way.
I dont really know much about the job you've described but from what you've said maybe it would be best to look for a different job. I know theyre few and far between but you shouldnt be doing something that makes you feel so bad about yourself!
You need to remember that everyone is good at something, just like everybody is bad at something. It certainly doesnt make you stupid.
Give yourself a break

jobneeded

thanks for replying so quickly, we had 4 days training on the job already.
and thats what im thinking too. i like working with computers but due to having low school grades i dont think i could ever be a certified I.T engineer or anything to that way, i have tried an apprenticeship in mechanics not too long ago and that made me feel the exact same, out of my depth,i was completely incapable of doing the job.
Thanks
Rob

Spongbong

I think you should go back to your GP and voice your concerns. He should be able to organise some help for you. It's possible that this job just isn't for you, dyspraxic or not. It's nothing to do with being 'thick', everyone has different strengths and weaknesses. Personally, I couldn't do your job either, sounds like a bloody nightmare!

Hope you find something nicer soon; your workmates sound like toss-pots.

heretolearn_2

Leave.

This is clearly not a job you can do. You have to accept that. I once had a disasterous day at the end of a factory conveyor belt with products shooting off all over the floor and piling up, and being unable to keep up and ...oh! god! it was awful. Didn't go back the next day. And that job required the brain of a gnat, I just didn't have the physical coordination required. So what? I'm now much happier at work and earning tons more money than the people who were good at it, if they are still stuck in a factory line.

Who really cares about being good at picking and picking? It's a job, that's good, and one that no-one should be ashamed of doing, but it's not exactly something to be proud of either, is it.

I think you got worse precisely because you started getting stressed about it.

Find something else. You'll be great at something, don't worry.

scooby088

First things first tell your fellow employees to get lost, secondly it takes time to get the hang of any job, thats why we normally get 13 week probationary period, even on an agency you have rights just get in touch with your contact at the agency. maybe the job is just not for you.

teabelly

It sounds like it isn't for you and the more you get stressed and worry about doing it badly the worse your ability to do the job. Can you imagine how you could pick the required amount and how things would have to be organised to enable you to do this? If not it might be best to find something else. It seems to me that a physical job really isn't something for you. You want a job where you are staying still and thinking instead.

Your colleagues are also tosspots which doesn't help!

GEEGEE8

You obviously have a valid reason for not being able to do the job. You are not thick, you just cannot do this particular job. No different to a partially sighted person working in quality control really. It's not your fault.

Is there another job the temping agency can set you up with?

annie123

One thing that stands out load and clear is that in the right job would be a conscientious, hardworking and reliable employee and thats to be commended

My brother when he was younger got fired from a supermarket job stacking shelves, he wasn't quick enough, and he put the wrong products on the wrong shelves, with the wrong tickets.. he lasted a week. He overheard comments such as 'new blokes a bit thick!' etc
He later went on to get a first class honors degree in English and is a successful journalist and writer.

If you like computers get yourself enrolled into a course at your local college or evening class. You might find you like building them, or working with software, lots of options.

If you like doing something or have an interest in it, then you're half way there already at being good at it.

10 years from now you could be on here tellings us about how you teach young people with learning difficulties computer skills, or maybe you have your own company making bespoke computers for the rich and famous.
It could be anything, but its sure as hell not going to be how much you like/hate picking stock for the NHS;)

Good luck

jobneeded

True I had thought about this before - building up computers and so on.
I have spoken to my parents tonight and told them honestly and completely how i felt about it all. and just said, you need to find something your either good are or, you can do. - mum said computers,dad said army - but ive gone for it before and just didnt click with me. computers is something i could most deffinately look into.

Thank you
rob