Freaking out about something or nothing?

Youdontseeme

I have worked for a small company for the past four years and I love my job 95% of the time and I have put my all into making what was rather a dull admin role that had been done by a parade of temps and fly-by-nights into something much better, because I could see the potential there.

Over the years I have got used to the unprofessional way the office has been run and to some point learnt to use it to my advantage.
But yesterday, I was told by a more junior member of staff that my role is going to change drastically over the next few months (bigger and better which is good, I think..) I have been slightly frustrated for a few months and the changes are actually what I was wanted to happen, and then some!

So why am I posting well –
a) I am rather annoyed to be told this “water cooler gossip” by someone who while the changes affect, hasn’t been at the company as long as me and is more junior
b) I had sort of made up my mind that after a big company event in a few months time which I have put a lot of work into, it would be time to move on as I couldn’t see me going any further here.

The changes (if they are true, god I’m freaking out about something that might not even be happening!) have rather thrown me, both in the way I was told, and the fact I thought they would never happen and if they do how will I cope, apparently I will still have my current responsibilities plus the extra stuff currently!!

I work around 12 hours a day as it is, plus at least a few hours most weekends, when will I fit this extra stuff in??? Will I be compensated for extra the extra work and responsibility?

I never thought I would be given further opportunities because of my relationship with one of my managers (strained is an understatement) and to be honest half of me thinks he’s just setting me up for a fall as throughout my time here he has constantly be chipping away at my work, a lot of the extra responsibility will come from taking over his role as he is moving to a sister company but will still have a big hand at what is going on in our office.

His attitude towards me has, I guess, made me work harder but has also put me under a lot of pressure and really affected my confidence (I am constantly 2nd guessing myself, suffer from anxiety, stress, depression but then I know it’s only my job that keeps me going, even if it is the half cause....!!!!!! is that about?)
Half of me just wants to pack up and go back up North , I mean my parents aren’t getting any younger and Im so far away if anything happens, but I can’t really afford to move back, my wages would be halved and I have bills (CC’s) to pay off and the lower outgoings don’t equate to the lower wages.

I'm so confused all the while knowing I might be worrying about nothing and what I was told was just office gossip, but knowing the company like I do, I kind of know that’s it’s not gossip there are changes afoot anyway, just wasn’t expecting this, whatever “this” is! I did plan on talking to my boss who I have a fantastic relationship with yesterday but he left early and I didn’t get the chance.

Now I have been awake all night worrying if I will cope? Is it worth it? What if I can’t do it?

Is it just a case of being careful what you wish for? Or is it the chance to really make a difference and actually DO something with my life but at the same time am I will I be doing something because think I should rather than what I want to do.

Not sure if I expect any replies to this other than “stop whining women, you might be worrying about nothing and it’s what you wanted!!” but I just needed to get it off my chest and I don’t really want to “talk” to anyone about it until I know for sure what my options are.

There is a case that nothing might happen at all and I have spent the will have spent the weekend freaking out about nothing

Although at the same time I want to be prepared with all the right questions when (if!!) it does come up??

I don’t post that often but when I do I do like to ramble, Thanks for reading if you’re still awake!

Zazen999

I think you need a coffee and a chum to chat to to put it into perspective.

safesound

Talk to the manager you get on with first thing monday, until then stop stressing about something that might never happen (in the way your imagining). You dont need to make any decisions until you first find out what it is your going to have to deal with. Honestly it isnt worth ruining a fabulous weekend over something that might be totally different to what you are laying awake worrying about.

DCFC79

To be honest i wouldnt worry about it, its just some rumours you have heard and its just that, it could take longer than a few months for the changes to take effect so it could be 6 months, 8 or even 12

wontfallforit

Youdontseeme wrote: »

“stop whining women, you might be worrying about nothing and it’s what you wanted!!”

Whilst I'd personally be a bit cheesed off to hear from another member of staff, as said, you might be worrying about nothing. It could be hot air

If it does happen, here's to hoping that it's the challenge you've been looking for, and that the transition is smooth.

Best wishes.

McKneff

You said it yourself, 'water cooler gossip'
How can this other person possibyy know all this, it will be a case of Chinese whispers .

Stop worrying about what might happen and concentrate on what's happening now. In a few weeks time you will wonder what all the fuss was about.
Chill.......................

epatolles

as above... what if it's not even true? speaking to your boss about it might make you look stupid and make the gossip monger look untrustworthy!

just wait and see what happens. it doesnt sound like you are really in a position to change anything thats going to happen - other than by leaving. So you really shouldnt worry about it.

Perhaps trying to deal with your anxiety would help with your other problems as it seems without wanting to sound harsh - that you are getting stressed over "nothing" - obviously i know its not nothing to you. I found dealing with my anxiety problems actually helped me progress in my previous job - possibly because people could trust me to do work without going insane - hehe!

you will get your oppourtunity to speak to your boss about it when they announce the changes.