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The story of pania.
Pania is a mermaid in Newzealand Maori mythology.
Living beneath the sea with her sisters, each evening pania used to sit on the shore and sing with all her heart as she watched the humans on the land, longing to join them and experience a different life, A handsome man one day heard her sing and fell immediately in love with her. Pania walked onto the land and they married. Pania committed to her love, and a life on land. Safe, secure and comfortable. however she continued to miss her sisters greatly who would play in the waves each evening and call to her to come and play. Pania resisted the lure on many occasions, turning her back from the temptation of such a lovely experience, but one day the temptation grew too much. Pania entered the sea and swam out to meet her sisters. As soon as she was close enough her sisters encircled her, grabbed her and dragged her down into the depths enclosing her in a prison of seaweed they had made. taking from her the one thing she loved in the process, her prince.
Legend has it that on a moonlit night, on the shores of new zealand, if you listen very very careful you can hear pania singing from her seaweed cage, singing for all the things she loved and once had but lost through giving in to temptation.
When i first joined MSE in 2006, I hadnt long returned from a period of time in New Zealand. This story hit home to me with regards to my debt situation at the time. I had been lured by a handsome prince, given in to the temptation to help him, and had in the process entered the cold and murky waters of debt. when i was out of my depth i was encircled and grabbed and dragged down until eventually, all these years later debt has had me trapped. And, in the process lost and missed out on many of the things that I have loved.
Just recently someone has been reading my diary and using what i have put here to text me and call me and keep tabs on me. I allowed it to put me off for a period of time but in all truth this site is to me the debtors equivalent of alcoholics anonymous, my support group and access to some very very real, true, and enduring friends. This site is important to me. It keeps me under control, it stops me from slipping back into bad habits. If i was a heroin user, going through rehab, would that person take me out of rehab and make me cope on my own? It may sound extreme but to someone with exceptionally self detrimental tendancies that they are trying to resolve, work through and move on from this site is exactly the equivalent of that.
My debt stems from vulnerability, gullable tendancies, a lack of ability to budget and some previously incredibly self destructive behaviour. I havent amassed my debt through going to bluewater, buying £600 shoes and paying for it on my card, however my debt has come about through giving my money to others to use in a manner that was completely different to how that person eventually used the money.
So in short, I need this site. I have dipped in and out, I have fallen off the wagon, hauled myself back on and fallen straight back off the other side many many times. But the journey to debt freedom is exactly that, and lets face it, every journey has bumps in the road. And if someone previously related to my life has a snout around and doesnt like what they see then I am sorry, but its the real me you see here, not some imposter of me that you'd like to imagine I am. I am not leaving and I WILL get stronger.
Happier post to follow promise!!! :cool:
Pania is a mermaid in Newzealand Maori mythology.
Living beneath the sea with her sisters, each evening pania used to sit on the shore and sing with all her heart as she watched the humans on the land, longing to join them and experience a different life, A handsome man one day heard her sing and fell immediately in love with her. Pania walked onto the land and they married. Pania committed to her love, and a life on land. Safe, secure and comfortable. however she continued to miss her sisters greatly who would play in the waves each evening and call to her to come and play. Pania resisted the lure on many occasions, turning her back from the temptation of such a lovely experience, but one day the temptation grew too much. Pania entered the sea and swam out to meet her sisters. As soon as she was close enough her sisters encircled her, grabbed her and dragged her down into the depths enclosing her in a prison of seaweed they had made. taking from her the one thing she loved in the process, her prince.
Legend has it that on a moonlit night, on the shores of new zealand, if you listen very very careful you can hear pania singing from her seaweed cage, singing for all the things she loved and once had but lost through giving in to temptation.
When i first joined MSE in 2006, I hadnt long returned from a period of time in New Zealand. This story hit home to me with regards to my debt situation at the time. I had been lured by a handsome prince, given in to the temptation to help him, and had in the process entered the cold and murky waters of debt. when i was out of my depth i was encircled and grabbed and dragged down until eventually, all these years later debt has had me trapped. And, in the process lost and missed out on many of the things that I have loved.
Just recently someone has been reading my diary and using what i have put here to text me and call me and keep tabs on me. I allowed it to put me off for a period of time but in all truth this site is to me the debtors equivalent of alcoholics anonymous, my support group and access to some very very real, true, and enduring friends. This site is important to me. It keeps me under control, it stops me from slipping back into bad habits. If i was a heroin user, going through rehab, would that person take me out of rehab and make me cope on my own? It may sound extreme but to someone with exceptionally self detrimental tendancies that they are trying to resolve, work through and move on from this site is exactly the equivalent of that.
My debt stems from vulnerability, gullable tendancies, a lack of ability to budget and some previously incredibly self destructive behaviour. I havent amassed my debt through going to bluewater, buying £600 shoes and paying for it on my card, however my debt has come about through giving my money to others to use in a manner that was completely different to how that person eventually used the money.
So in short, I need this site. I have dipped in and out, I have fallen off the wagon, hauled myself back on and fallen straight back off the other side many many times. But the journey to debt freedom is exactly that, and lets face it, every journey has bumps in the road. And if someone previously related to my life has a snout around and doesnt like what they see then I am sorry, but its the real me you see here, not some imposter of me that you'd like to imagine I am. I am not leaving and I WILL get stronger.
Happier post to follow promise!!! :cool:
debt @05/11/11 £12210.63!! slowly chipping away!!
:heart2:impossible is nothing.:heart2:
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Pania well done !!
Good on you for staying around and fighting back - this WILL make you stronger.0 -
OK, so happier post promised and here it is!!
I need to make £200 in a month!! :eek:
Should I acheive at this my monthly surplus will rocket dramatically. my life will be massively easier and I can then dedicate myself to paying off A DEBT A MONTH!!!!
have you any idea how long I have dreamed of those words!!
I also have over the last year watched my weight steadily creep upwards from an eeny weeny 9st to a slightly larger 10st 6 :eek: I am 5'4 (and a half
) so not the tallest character and the extra weight certainly shows. My dislocated knee has put paid to any "strenous activity" and my recent single status has quashed any desire to loose weight, well, lets face it, carrots and cucumber sticks ain't exactly comfort food are they girls!!! 
Yet today I have managed quite a long stroll along the seafront with my mum and minimal knee pain!! Bonus!!! although i think it quite some time before i am back to running i am feeling confident that walking and swimming are to be allowed back in and therefore kick starting the weight loss once again!
So! taking a leaf out of madame hypnos book I have found some pictures to divide into squares. I currently have 3. one, a short term bitesize, acheivable goal of £200. another my entire debt divided into £50 squares (looks freakin scary if you ask me!!) and another with the 1 st 10 lb weight loss i am aiming to acheive (possibly with the assistance of a fellow newly turned cambridge diet counsellor mse'er!!!)
Oops!! dinners ready, part3 "how" to follow after!! debt @05/11/11 £12210.63!! slowly chipping away!!:heart2:impossible is nothing.:heart2:0 -
Sorry, do I know you??
:rotfl:Successful women can still have their feet on the ground. They just wear better shoes. (Maud Van de Venne)Life begins at the end of your comfort zone (Neale Donald Walsch)0 -
:T Good for you Pania - great to see you back! :T
You will get there - stay strong X0 -
_Cheeky_Cow!!! wrote:Sorry, do I know you??
Says it all really!! :rotfl:debt @05/11/11 £12210.63!! slowly chipping away!!:heart2:impossible is nothing.:heart2:0 -
Sorry you've been though such a horrible time, lovey. But good for you for sounding so positive & dealing with it @ LBM = £15,872.65, now £10,819.82AF Jan = 7/? Feb = 5/14 Mar = 14/20 Apr = 6/14 May = 2/14 June 2/14 July 0/TF Aug 1/TFv Sept 6/TF Oct 4/7"NEVER DOUBT YOUR OWN QUALITY"0
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Just recently someone has been reading my diary and using what i have put here to text me and call me and keep tabs on me. I allowed it to put me off for a period of time but in all truth this site is to me the debtors equivalent of alcoholics anonymous, my support group and access to some very very real, true, and enduring friends. This site is important to me. It keeps me under control, it stops me from slipping back into bad habits. If i was a heroin user, going through rehab, would that person take me out of rehab and make me cope on my own?
They would if they were poison themselves. Good on you for resisting.It may sound extreme but to someone with exceptionally self detrimental tendancies that they are trying to resolve, work through and move on from this site is exactly the equivalent of that.
My debt stems from vulnerability, gullable tendancies, a lack of ability to budget and some previously incredibly self destructive behaviour. I havent amassed my debt through going to bluewater, buying £600 shoes and paying for it on my card, however my debt has come about through giving my money to others to use in a manner that was completely different to how that person eventually used the money.
So in short, I need this site. I have dipped in and out, I have fallen off the wagon, hauled myself back on and fallen straight back off the other side many many times. But the journey to debt freedom is exactly that, and lets face it, every journey has bumps in the road. And if someone previously related to my life has a snout around and doesnt like what they see then I am sorry, but its the real me you see here, not some imposter of me that you'd like to imagine I am. I am not leaving and I WILL get stronger.
Good!Happier post to follow promise!!! :cool:OK, so happier post promised and here it is!!
I need to make £200 in a month!! :eek:
Should I acheive at this my monthly surplus will rocket dramatically. my life will be massively easier and I can then dedicate myself to paying off A DEBT A MONTH!!!! have you any idea how long I have dreamed of those words!!
So plans are needed...I also have over the last year watched my weight steadily creep upwards from an eeny weeny 9st to a slightly larger 10st 6 :eek: I am 5'4 (and a half )
Don't forget the half - it is important.so not the tallest character and the extra weight certainly shows.
But you still iz a babe...don't forget that. You just need to go down the "more focussed babe" route...My dislocated knee has put paid to any "strenous activity" and my recent single status has
Done the same? :rotfl:
*ahem* :whistle:quashed any desire to loose weight, well, lets face it, carrots and cucumber sticks ain't exactly comfort food are they girls!!!
Get comfort not through food, but people. Works much better.Yet today I have managed quite a long stroll along the seafront with my mum and minimal knee pain!! Bonus!!! although i think it quite some time before i am back to running i am feeling confident that walking and swimming are to be allowed back in and therefore kick starting the weight loss once again!
Swimming will probably be better - no shocks to the system as it were.So! taking a leaf out of madame hypnos book I have found some pictures to divide into squares. I currently have 3. one, a short term bitesize, acheivable goal of £200. another my entire debt divided into £50 squares (looks freakin scary if you ask me!!) and another with the 1 st 10 lb weight loss i am aiming to acheive (possibly with the assistance of a fellow newly turned cambridge diet counsellor mse'er!!!)
Oops!! dinners ready, part3 "how" to follow after!!
Important part of a diet - don't skip dinner.
Welcome back... :kisses3:"Follow the money!" - Deepthroat (AKA William Mark Felt Sr - Associate Director of the FBI)
"We were born and raised in a summer haze." Adele 'Someone like you.'
"Blowing your mind, 'cause you know what you'll find, when you're looking for things in the sky." OMD 'Julia's Song'0 -
ok so heres the how.
1) I have finally today got around to posting off my music magpie cd's. that'll bring me in £9
2) I have a very small surplus £20 that i can use to place a small matched bet to start me off again. Had a quick look so will place that within next 24 hrs.
3) bingobritain has been going on for me for over 31 days now so I am making the most of that while it lasts!! I have a balance of £11.60 in there currently plus £5 free. need to get it up to £20 to be able to withdraw it.
4) I have been pants at ebay lately. I have atleast 15 things to list on it!! I need to get them on as i may have about £80-£100 sat here that can contribute to that.
Weight loss. Get back on slimming world!! I followed that about 2 years ago when i was with my ex. I managed to loose quite a bit of weight on it. I really need to get the motivation to do it. I need to realise that the weight loss is for ME no one else. I dont need someone important in my life to do it, I am the most important person in my life. does that make sense??
Right rambling now so going to shut up and ebay!!! debt @05/11/11 £12210.63!! slowly chipping away!!:heart2:impossible is nothing.:heart2:0 -
Weight loss. Get back on slimming world!! I followed that about 2 years ago when i was with my ex. I managed to loose quite a bit of weight on it. I really need to get the motivation to do it. I need to realise that the weight loss is for ME no one else. I dont need someone important in my life to do it, I am the most important person in my life. does that make sense??
Makes perfect sense. You *are* the most important person in your life."Follow the money!" - Deepthroat (AKA William Mark Felt Sr - Associate Director of the FBI)
"We were born and raised in a summer haze." Adele 'Someone like you.'
"Blowing your mind, 'cause you know what you'll find, when you're looking for things in the sky." OMD 'Julia's Song'0
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