The Compers Inn - Part 12

stressedofdevon

I feel so lonely, am tired of the sight of these four walls, missing my baby, just not enjoying life. And so very scared, even scared of going to bed as the dreams are awful, woke everyone up last night shouting in my sleep. A friend is pulling important people together for a meeting tomorrow to try to lobby, but I feel so beaten.

Sorry guys for being so sad, and I know there is nothing anyone can do, but there is noone else to talk to. I know too that tomorrow is another day and I will doubtless still be here, but I wish this one was done with already.

toniq

Stresssed can u not call oh and ask him to come home?
really hope everything is ok xxxx (((((((((hugs)))))))))) xxxxxxxx

Nicky63

!!!!!! what can he possibly want now, so sorry hun, I can't offer you anything but words on a screen, but if they can help you every key on the board is yours xxxx

cathyj

stressed (((((big hugs))))
I know it wont solve your problems but we (the guys in the inn) are all with you and if we can help you get from one day to another then we will, we need to get wokkies drunk again.

gerturdeanna

SOD- You know he is a weak and nasty man, and you know that you are STRONGER!! You will manage to get through this and out the other side.....look how far you have come already!!!!

krailton

you just have to hang in there Stressed, for the childrens sake...even if its hard and your sad....just keep going one day at a time and sending lots of (((((Hugs))))) to you xxxxx

toniq

U cant let this beat u, u cant stressed, u need to keep going and u will come out at the othe other end, hopefully life will one day have some element of normality for u, It sounds like u have some very good friends fighting your corner, it will get better, it has to xxx

stressedofdevon

Thanks everyone, just knowing I'm not sitting here totally alone is something. OH will have his phone in his bag in the changing room so no chance of contacting him. Anyway, as we have a seven seater he drives the team and he could not leave them stranded 40 miles away. He is such a good man and I feel sad that he is coming home to yet another crisis, after losing his wife and mum to cancer and still he is only 34, he didn't deserve this, and now he may even lose his own child. It is such a terrible nightmare.

stressedofdevon

Thanks everyone for your kindnesses. I can barely see the screen through my tears and am sobbing but I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

I don't drink but am gonna try to calm down, I cannot let this kill me, and a glass of OH's wine seems a good idea. I have never wanted a hug so much.

dementedhousewife

bhafc810 wrote: »

used to love this board but now it seems that its a race to post comps - is that just me??#

seems like someone has my comps list as all comps i used to post someone else now posts!

tried going onto loquax but doesn't connect for me , anyone else have problems?

I think that they must block you if they know you are a MSE user..
Also when OH was rebuilding my Laptop he found a virus or tracking cookie
that had come from there... so be careful... Surely those sites that do that should be done for criminal damage!

Also i need to give you a big kiss bhafc810.. I won one of your posts.. but i like to wait till its in my house
till i post it in the Win Forum... xxx Its a super win for my kids!!!... blimming brilliant infact xxxx