Hi guys, just going to post here as I found a thread of someone else who asked a similar question to me, but I wanted to do a more updated description as previous thread from few years ago.
Basically, I don't know what to do. I feel so drawn to being a carer or some sort of care role. I am 19 now and when I turned 18, I worked at a care home full time for a month. It was so bad but not because of reasons you may think. I found personal care 'okay' and everything. It's just the hours, I did 40 hours a week and because it was my first care role it was so stressful and I found myself depressed all the time and having anxiety.
Personal care was okay other than the fact that I had little support from whom I was shadowing and I was expected to dress people on my own after 2 weeks even though I requested more training and the woman would be aggressive towards me, acting as if I was abusing her, telling me i'd be in sh*t when her daughter came in. This made me so put off because I would tell people and not have any support, and I found it so hard to focus from being tired all the time.
I even went to HR because of the lack of support and the man did not give two hoots, a girl I met in my induction, who I became friends with also went to HR as she was being bullied and they just ended up having an argument and she quit on the spot.
I don't know if being a care assistant for the elderly is my thing. But the thing is, I want to do something similar. I keep feeling like that one care home gave me a bad experience but I believe it can be different somewhere else. I felt so good in my uniform knowing I was there to help people, and I wanna feel that again.
I just don't know how to handle 40 hours, or the care assistant role. I'm actually so anxious to experience someone die too. I just need a care job that's more suited for me. I still wanna help people in my community and go to a job where I feel like i'm contributing.