Horace's Biting the Bullet Diary

satchmo1

Hi Horace

Just found your diary and have read right through - you are so inspirational, I feel idle compared to you.

I had a brainwave whilst wondering if you'd do home-based fundraising, so looked on the Third Sector website and thought that you'd be fab at this.....(hope the link works)

http://jobs.thirdsector.co.uk/job/337097/community-network-and-fundraising-manager/

Also, wondered if you had a debit card because if you just wanted a small amount of cash you could get cash-back and it doesn't come out of your bank account for about 3 days from Sainsbugs. Sometimes just a couple of days grace can be the difference between getting bank charges or not.

I thought Tatco took LVs?

Hugs, Satchmo1

Wordsmith

Horace, that job Satchmo's pointed you at looks right up your street! Need a reference?

bast

As Satchmo says you are inspirational and I think that works in your favour, but even then just sometimes, we need a rest... Depression is very hard to cope with... I understand how much you want to work and thats fantastic and you have so much drive, commitment, I have no doubt that you will succeed, just sometimes the slightest negative response hits us when we are low.. We all need time to think and digest. It costs you nothing to put a claim in and even it you find you cant claim you have not lost anything... I only tell you this as a person who had a breakdown a few years ago, not for a second saying you are heading in that direction, but look after yourself my love... there is only one Horace... She needs some care...and some time to reflect... life is so hard please look after yourself... x

ani_26

Horace, morries is very good, especially if you can walk there. When your back is against the wall, its against the wall. They sell most things for around 9p, if you go half an hour before they close. Bread, fruit, veg, you name it, cream cakes, donuts, i've even bought 4 fresh haddock fillets for 5p, and they reduce their cooked chickens to giveaway prices around 15 mins before they close, but you have to be quick with these, as people will grab several at once. Thinking about it, i'm quite an expert myself. Thank goodness for good old morries. This is no time for supermarket snobbery. Also, aldi were selling fruit cheaply lasy week, ( as were morries ), ie melons for 69p, ( what they used to be, not so long ago ). If you have a freezer, you can eat very cheaply for a long time, on largely, fresh produce. Unfortunately, morries have recently extended their opening hours, which just means a trip out, later in the evening.

Hth Nh.

Wordsmith

Morning, Horace. Did you get your minutes finished yesterday? How was the rest of your day, and how are things so far today?

Horace

Morning peeps

I have a confession, I made a start on the minutes but didnt finish them and instead plumped for watching an old western on the tv. The minutes will be finished today. I have also completed an application for the BHSF to get my policy reduced so that I pay £9.95 a month instead of £17.95 - I know it is only a few pounds less but I use it to get money of my dental treatments and glasses.

A trip to Morries it will have to be, I shall sort out my old wicker shopping basket and start walking..the reason I had this old basket was to discourage me from buying more than I could carry. It is the carpark at Morries that I don't like but sometimes needs must.

I shall have a look at that job that Satchmo pointed me in the direction of too. I hadnt thought of doing home based fundraising - although I have in the past raised loads of money for charity.

This morning I have done some washing up, emptied the bin, dumped my old toaster in the bin too as it stopped working, have done yet more clothes washing and this is now drying on the airer in the living room.

I may even postpone the Tuesday breakfast meets for a couple of weeks too - I want some breathing space and I am finding it hard to be motivational ahd cheerful when I am feeling low and am worried sick about my situation.

Yesterday, I found out that the chap I was supposed to be organising gay weddings for is struggling too - he keeps posting on FB about how he is looking for works yet only a few weeks' ago he was bragging about the number of enquiries he was getting, it was as I thought a ploy to make him look busy when he wasnt.

I saw another job at MG Cars - something to do with marketing but although I wouldnt say that I was an expert at marketing, I am good at talking to people, I can be quite persuasive and I know that I can organise some pretty amazing events - the downside is that I haven't worked in the automobile industry yet I have extensive knowledge of cars. Nothing ventured, nothing gained and I could walk to work as the factory is just up the road:D

I guess I just need to have confidence in myself - I know that I can do it but have started to talk myself out of things, I know that this is the depression talking and I am determined not to slide further down that slippery slope.

Wordsmith

Big up your event management skills and knowledge of cars on your CV. And you do have knowledge of marketing (your own business, events etc), so I'd say the MG Cars job is definitely worth going for.

Wordsmith

For what it's worth, I'd try to do your breakfast meets if you can. I'm not underestimating how difficult it may be, but I wonder whether it will help to have these as goals when you are finding it difficult to get motivated. Forcing yourself to do things can sometimes be a kick-start to getting other things done. Only you know what will be best for you, though - so it was just a thought.

Horace

I am having a 2 week break from the Tuesday breakfast meeting too as of today, the venue has already been notified. I need to notify everyone else - last week there were 3 of us so hardly worth it. At the moment I don't have the mental strength to cope and today I am feeling particularly tearful and flaming angry.

Flaming angry at Tatco's where I went this morning for milk eggs and cheese I knew how much everything was worth and handed over my £4 voucher plus a 50p off eggs voucher and was told that I had to pay x amount before I could get the £4 off. I told them that I didnt want the eggs or cheese so the woman on the till made me feel like a criminal so I told her to shove it and walked out sans milk, eggs or cheese - I will never shop there again:mad: I only went in because I had been to the chemist.

Today, is a day of letter writing and bank account opening, oh and buying stamps. I shall also be applying for jobs including that one at MG - of course I have car knowledge I have restored one and built one in the past plus there were those years marshalling and rallying:cool:

Felt embarrassed this morning as I broke down on the phone to someone who was reminding me about a large networking event that I had said that I was going too - I am now not going. Now, I know that my depression is bad when I start crying to total strangers.

The trip to Abersoch may also be off - sure I would love a seaside break but I am not feeling particularly sociable and it would appear that my lift is having a lift with someone else according to the event wall on FB.

Millie2008_2

Sending huge hugs and strength and you know where I am xx