PIP MR request - Activity 9 - Clarification over case law

Muttleythefrog wrote: »

You're welcome. I think these things are so person specific it is hard to translate much. For me, working was always a war of environmental control... inherently high stress because I would be filled with self doubt and need to organise the world around me including importantly the people. I was highly manipulative.. and wrecked people's careers even when I respected and liked them. But I would completely burn out.. struggle to eat and sleep.. my health would decline until I had to make my excuses (always fabricated except last job) to leave. My last job was catastrophic.. I got a senior IT position with a large public sector organisation.. I'd not experienced the bureaucracy and lack of ability to control... I was 4 weeks into my job and I still didn't even have a dedicated PC or desk...I was having to fuel increasingly violent fantasies just to get there and cope. Ultimately I tried to walk out of the window to the roundabout below...I was completely out of control. 10 years on from promising myself I'd never put myself through the horrors of work again I consider that judgement my finest even if made in desperate circumstances.

So I do very much relate to what you're saying... and the thoughts in your mind I might have triggered. Crucially for me amidst a very difficult job market I was cleverly applying for jobs that I felt I'd be able to manage my mental illnesses within... my problem was I was being rejected as overqualified... but I couldn't be honest about any of my health problems and the relevance to work. Really I just wanted a simple job in a simple environment which was simple to get to... but I ended up forced to apply for jobs more suited to my work background and got a top job. That job had so many factors about it liable to create me serious problems that I could not have designed a worse environment for me. Within an hour I knew I was going to end up in deep trouble.... by then I was already using extreme coping strategies just to maintain an appearance of regularity.

My view is MI is largely manageable if the environment is manageable and cleverly constructed or chosen. And that's why your circumstances are interesting... you've seemingly been clever enough to create the right circumstances for you to persist without engaging the symptoms/disabilities you can face. Someone with no legs could be a top computer game player experiencing and exhibiting no evidence of disability.. the concept translates to physical disability... put someone with no legs onto an athletics track and they are going to be demonstrably disabled and with severe symptom of physical defect. So my advice to you probably would be keep working while you can keep finding or creating the environments you can cope within. Given the greater tolerance and openness of MI in society also possibly the assistance of employers to make it viable. It is entirely possible that without work depression could set in.... which is why generally speaking for mental health people are advised to remain as active and functional in society as they can.

I agree obviously on your last point. I do find it ironic they expect your supporting evidence to be recent yet they can rely on near 30 year old facts (in my case) to draw important inferences that seem to be loosely related even if the facts were contemporary. My great criticism of ESA and PIP is that they encourage you to focus on maintaining (evidence of) qualification for the benefits rather than making any positive change. There is a fear they will use any concession of capability or activity as a stick to beat you with and conclude zero point scoring descriptors. Crucial I think is imposing into evidence, be it written or oral, the associated difficulties with activities done so as to encourage more thought and accuracy into assessment. Assumption and extrapolation are certainly not confined to benefit assessments of course... I met what was the (quoting my GP here) "most senior psychiatrist in the region" who described in his first report, full of gloriously long words and professional terms, my last job being a menial one in a call centre causing sufferance of my ego... I ended up taking that job description to our last encounter and I politely explained to him that in his lowly position of a bull*****er I would no longer be subjecting myself to being the inspiration for his latest works of fiction. His final report to my GP I got a copy of and made manual corrections to all the errors in it... and sent it to my GP with a comment at the end "Must do better". The great thing about being unemployed is you can get away with insulting idiots who should be...lol