Mooloo’s Managing it in 2018

It's been a hard slog for little return. I did manage around £8,000 profit in the second year, but then escalating costs and wages increases the last financial year I only made £1,000 profit.
I do expect to make a bit more this year now I don't have so many wages to pay, but the running costs have been so high and I know that the landlord wants more money.
I think that the majority of my customers will happily come to my house and that will cut my expenses by £12,000 and even if I only have 50% of my work I would make a reasonable wage instead.
£12,000 is a lot of £10 hems!
I think that I would have more flexibility if I am at home, and won't have to work every Saturday.

I am trying to stay upbeat.
I don't have to worry about the boys, and Biggest is adjusting so I don't need to stress about her.
Yes I continue to worry about DS and I am calling him daily but I cannot fight his demons for him.
The BF spent the week keeping his distance when perhaps the offer to come over even just for a shoulder to cry on at the time, didn't happen.
With him asking to be told if I had another BF in the future seemed very strange and a little unnerving. Then he said he was interested in possibly investing in my business ideas in Portugal yet until now he wasn't listening.
I realised that he left it all too late and actually what I had been waiting for for so long I actually no longer want or need. I am actually stronger than I expected.
Yes I will get Sad moments no doubt as 14 years is a long time. But if I read back through all these threads I just keep repeating the same mistakes again and again.
I realise that I actually want to break the cycle now and be free to do what I want when I want. ( within reasons obviously).

To night I have been at a Community Meeting at a local private school that is celebrating 100 years in the town.
Obviously I wasn't sure I should go or if I would stand out like a sore thumb but actually I enjoy it. I saw a few faces I knew and was introduced to others.
I actually was told by several other businesses that I was an asset to the town.
After the week from hell. It was probably the best thing I did .

See I can face a garden full of strangers and stand tall!
Who knew!!
Do it Scared!!!