taking responsibilty to get me where I want to be

Rebecca01 wrote: »

Hi
I have just read your whole diary. You are really engaging.

You are doing so well but you remind me of me as I live for holidays too and love the excitement of researching one. Maybe we should have been travel agents.

Hope you manage to quit the smoking for good. x

Hi Rebecca

Thanks for taking the time to read my story so far , thank you for the nice feedback too , its nice to know my droning isn't sending you to sleep

I love my holidays , the world is a big place and there is so much to experience - Although its typically not MSE but I have had some great weekends on a budget , i don't like to pay more then I have too.
Its funny you should mention travel agency - back in the day my first job ( 1991 now) was in a traditional old travel agency on a training scheme for a pittance ( kids today wouldn't get out of bed for it ) and after my children I was a booking agent for a holiday company
I loved that job even though the money was appalling unless you sold well ( which I did) , I only left as the emergance of the internet meant more and more people were doing their own research and booking their own trips and I could see the way the industry was changing so jumped ship



I just came across this also for all of those who are having a "not very ok " day

"Piglet?" said Pooh. "Yes Pooh?" said Piglet. "Do you ever have days when everything feels... Not Very Okay At All? And sometimes you don't even know why you feel Not Very Okay At All, you just know that you do." Piglet nodded his head sagely. "Oh yes," said Piglet. "I definitely have those days." "Really?" said Pooh in surprise. "I would never have thought that. You always seem so happy and like you have got everything in life all sorted out." "Ah," said Piglet. "Well here's the thing. There are two things that you need to know, Pooh. The first thing is that even those pigs, and bears, and people, who seem to have got everything in life all sorted out... they probably haven't. Actually, everyone has days when they feel Not Very Okay At All. Some people are just better at hiding it than others. "And the second thing you need to know... is that it's okay to feel Not Very Okay At All. It can be quite normal, in fact. And all you need to do, on those days when you feel Not Very Okay At All, is come and find me, and tell me. Don't ever feel like you have to hide the fact you're feeling Not Very Okay At All. Always come and tell me. Because I will always be there.

Wise old bear that winnie the poo

Ever feel like life is just overwhelming

Today is my anniversary of being a parent , over a quarter of a century racked up yet I don't even feel like I am a grown up or know myself yet.
Happily my eldest seems to have her shizz together so she obviously doesn't take after me !!!

We will have a dinner this evening along with her boyfriend and a few family members , this is going to hit my pocket but has been thought of in my non essentials budget which should stretch now the dreaded weed is not being purchased

Got through yesterday ok with the vape , its a knack to perfect and makes my throat quite dry but i shall perservere

Yesterday was a spend day - I finally got round to ordering a replacement for middle sprogs long lost provisional driving licence. Shes concerningly down at the moment and appears a bit lost and unconfident in the big wide world. I am hoping that learning to drive which is something she has always enjoyed will regain some focus and pick her up a little.
I am have been badgering her with getting job applications submitted for anything at all as she needs to be working , she has also been preparing her final uni work for her masters degree but seems to be experiencing anxiety levels which are very unfamilar to me

Not sure how long she has had them , or whether they will pass but if it starts to affect her daily life then we may need to seek some medical guidance