Slimming for Halloween - Slimming World support thread 2018

Evening all
Beanie, told ya you would lose well done:T:T
Well done to all the other losers too:T:T:T
Just back from hospital for my leg, got to have an MRI scan, so still a waiting game:o

So.... bit of an emotional dump here.

Had what feels like a terrible day really. I know compared to most people, it's trivial, but I struggle with the pressures of work a lot and actually, one of the reasons I've had problems on SW in the past is work. It gets very heavy at times and without my ex, I end up feeling very lonely at times.

Yesterday, my car conks out on the way to work. I park it up and get a friend to take me the rest of the way to work. I get back to my car after work and it won't start at all. It's torrential rain and I'm sat in a car that won't budge at all. Luckily, a good mate of mine helps me tow it home.

Get up this morning, car still won't start (obviously, I mean what was I expecting?), so no way of getting to work. Phone in, explain the situation, told I need to try and work from home. Really? It's not easy in my line of work currently. So, I'm trying to work, and handle the fact I have an immobilised 3 Series on my drive which still needs to get me to work on Monday and is no closer to working again.

My dad eventually arrives and we go to a garage, but of course, the car needs towing which is problematic because garages are busy. So the car isn't even getting collected until tomorrow and they won't start on it till Monday and it should be fixed Tuesday.......... and that's assuming it's what they think it is. It could be something else of course..... oh and I've got all the fun with the warranty, because as I'm sure you all know, car warranties are basically just a good way for dealerships to get out of paying for jobs that really should be legitimately covered by your warranty.

Oh, and then I remember I need to be somewhere tomorrow. I've promised I'll be there to support them.....except I now have literally no realistic way of getting there. Even if I did take the train via a taxi or something, I can't get to them. The trains round here don't go that way.

It all got too much for me, I'll admit. It reminded me what I lost, being kind of helpless in my house. My parents are great and I love them, but having that support structure from a significant other Not being able to fulfil promises and I think part of my problem still, is that I hate letting people down. It actually scares me in a way. I'm scared of saying No and I'm scared of saying Yes then not doing what I said yes too If I let them know I can't make it, they'll be perfectly fine about it, I know they will..... but I won't be. I feel bitterly remorseful and guilty, because I said yes and I'm letting them down.

I felt very alone today though, and stressed. In the past, when I was living with my partner.... today would have gone so differently... and tomorrow. I'd have woken up, she could have dropped me off at the train station, I'd have gone to work and then handled this tomorrow when I was a bit more relaxed and able to think. Then, she would have probably driven me to the place tomorrow because that's what couples do right? Heck, it did happen before once or twice..... Amazing what two can do instead of one. Really makes you think

Bringing it back round to the topic at hand though, I took my dad to get a coffee and ended up buying this cake.... which is not really like me. I like cake, but it's not my usual go to comfort food. Regardless, within an hour, the entire thing has gone, which proves to me that I still have a really unhealthy relationship with food especially when life gets tough and I struggle with pressure And that's despite all my progress. It's almost certainly going to sabotage my progress for target.

So so disappointed with myself. Going to go for a run now. Skipping tea as well, really don't see the point. I'm full..... still..... albeit of cake. I'll start again tomorrow and try put a smile on again.

It's amazing isn't it? It's not the car that matters. That's just a lump of metal. It's everything else that comes crashing down afterwards, right?

Sorry for the bitterly miserable post. I know there's so much more bad things going on in the world than a poxy broken down car and I really don't want to ruin your Friday, just needed to vent