Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

Unity · 21 November 2009 at 2:01PM

jennihen wrote: »

AARRRRRRRRRGH - in cyberspace no one can hear you chopping up your ex-husband into little pieces!!!!
How irritating and insensitive can one person be? Only a few more days . . .
Look at the pluses - kids get to see him, he's taking them christmas shopping, they love him, its only twice a year . . . . he's going to sort DS's car if I don't shove the can of tyre-weld up his nose and press the nozzle!!!!

And BREATHE! :rotfl:.

Seriously though - if you can just manage to strangle him whilst dreaming, you should get off, no probs

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Another disturbed night for me, couldn't keep my legs still with the feelings of insects crawling all over me - who needs to be a celeb in the jungle?:rolleyes: When I did get to sleep the dreams wore me out - daft things like telling DH that Rolf Harris had died and having to tell Mick Jagger I couldn't drive his tour bus, because someone had stolen my car and I had to get it back. I now have a headache from hell and feel like I've got a hangover. Another quiet day for me I think

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crazy_girl · 21 November 2009 at 3:20PM

witchwoopiggy wrote: »

hi everyone i just wanted to say sorry if i said or seemed to say anything funny (not haha) last posts only i was in a bad way hearing and seeing lets say odd things due to my illness. Meds have kicked in again and im sort of in control again, well thats what my cpn said today, wishing everyone the best and hope everyone is ok.
crazy-girl just wanted to say i totaly understand what you mean about it feels real, but it isnt real, big hugs your way and your right it isnt real and it cant harm you, easy for me to say now i know but i just wanted you to know your not alone please take care

thanks wwp x

btw, how do you go about getting a cpn?

crazy_girl · 21 November 2009 at 3:28PM

feeling a little better today if lazy as hell, just woke up properly now!

im stressing about having to go and see my doc about my knees again, they keep clicking and sticking and hurting but ive got majour knee issues! cant stand them being touched so when i saw him last time he said he wouldnt refer me on unless it got worse and its gotten a lot worse unfortunately

i think i could do with some community support like i had when they though i was summing else

crazy_girl · 21 November 2009 at 3:30PM

Unity wrote: »

And BREATHE! :rotfl:.

Seriously though - if you can just manage to strangle him whilst dreaming, you should get off, no probs .

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:rotfl: hehe! 'i thought it was a burgular honest guv'

black_paw · 22 November 2009 at 2:26AM

i had weird dream the other night ,due to allergic reaction to high dose steroid and muscle relax pills...mixed up together ! a allergic reaction my tummy swelled up real bad and i dream i had a large empty egg in side me ..sort of like a kinder surprise sort ! that was hollow and i felt i had the egg in me all the next day and night ..then it was gone..not sure if i layed it some where of not ! LOL took days to go down ! but d/b was talking about his hens before that happened ...it felt so real ..least the tummy looked the part about 8 months gone..never want that to happen again ..told doc and he said not to have the steroid again ! wrote it in his notes not sure he wrote about the egg tho

System · 22 November 2009 at 3:19AM

hey all how goes it? hope the black dogs are behaving themselves.

Not been on here in a few days. Mainly because i had an..episode, the other night. Bf would probably say it was a psychotic. For a long time i've heard HER in my head. Usually i refer to her as "bad me". When i've hurt myself and done things before i usually don't rmember but i've had her thoughts in my head before i've done it. The other night i saw her. She was there. Stood by my bed. Staring at me. She was real. I kept telling her to shut up and go away, not sure how long that went on for. Bf says he found me shouting at "nothing", crying and psychically shaking. He kept telling me she wasn't real. But i saw her. So how can she not be real? And i think he thinks i'm making it up but i'm not. I saw her and i have never been so !!!!ing terrified in all my life

i keep having to check the rooms to make sure she isn't there. Suffice to say this has stressed him out even more. seeing my psych on thursday but have no idea how to explain this. i'm sorry i'm rambelling on.i'm scared she'll come back

System · 22 November 2009 at 3:22AM

crazy_girl wrote: »

im still reeling from the BPD almost-diagnosis, i really dunno what to feel about it at all. i saw scary face but as a full man when i walked my pup, not nice. i KNOW its not real but it feels real if that makes sense, i have to keep convincing myself that it isnt real, it isnt real.........

i'm sorry i've just read your post (after i'd posted mine) *hugs* i definetly know what you mean hun

Unity · 22 November 2009 at 3:13PM

black_paw wrote: »

i had weird dream the other night ,due to allergic reaction to high dose steroid and muscle relax pills...mixed up together ! a allergic reaction my tummy swelled up real bad and i dream i had a large empty egg in side me ..sort of like a kinder surprise sort ! that was hollow and i felt i had the egg in me all the next day and night ..then it was gone..not sure if i layed it some where of not ! LOL took days to go down ! but d/b was talking about his hens before that happened ...it felt so real ..least the tummy looked the part about 8 months gone..never want that to happen again ..told doc and he said not to have the steroid again ! wrote it in his notes not sure he wrote about the egg tho

Black Paw it's bloomin' horrible isn't it?

My dreams are always weird (sleep disorder - always in REM sleep) last night I dreamed I was in a sauna and was going to go for a swim afterwards. I guess this translates into me not being able to regulate my body temp just now. I've been having a flare up for over a week now, starting with overwhelming tiredness, feeling hot and cold - bizarrely often at the same time _pale_, swollen glands in my neck, painful joints and muscles, pain on standing in the soft tissues of my feet, the insecty sensations in my legs and IBS worsening. I get these episodes every so often, usually accompanied by a burning sensation in my face and blisters on my cheeks or chin - so my doc knows the situation. However I'm never in a flare when I see a specialist.

Sorry once again for moaning

, it just seems to be taking longer and longer for these periods to pass, none of the meds seems to be helping and I wonder if I will ever feel well again.

Crazy-girl and xXMessedUpXx - your experiences sound very frightening and I hope you can get some help. I've only ever seen things with reactions to medication - or when I had pneumonia and that was scary enough, so I'm thinking of you both.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend people :wave:.

witchwoopiggy · 22 November 2009 at 5:46PM

crazy_girl wrote: »

thanks wwp x

btw, how do you go about getting a cpn?

I have had one for five years it was my shrink whom said i had to have one, maybe talking to your dr and saying you need help, would help. Sorry im not being much help.
But thinking of all whom are having problems and sending thoughts your ways

jennihen · 22 November 2009 at 8:34PM

Hi guys - still here laughing in the face of adversity!!
Vented my frustration on the little git who keeps shoving multiple copies of the freebie rag through my door. I shot out quick enough to catch him next door.
i shouted "Oi" so loudly he jumped out of his skin!! Then he tried to say he'd only posted one through the letter box!! I made him take back all 6 and pick up all the leaflets that had fallen out!!!
Kids are having a good time with thier Dad so I guess its all worth it in the end!!
Just waiting for him to go back to his hotel . . . . .
Hope everyone else is okay - what doesn't kill us makes us stronger ?!?!

Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

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