Changing for good!

Stereo is all fixed now! Finally got the fuse that will sort it, and then paid for a code to unlock it but I now have music in the car!

Not very often I update at the weekend but OH is working every Saturday night and Sunday afternoon in December to work around his exes Christmas shifts, so we can have the kids whilst she is working.

We had a bust up last night big time, over the most stupid thing. I was seriously bored last night of just sitting in front of the tv all the time because we can't afford to go out anywhere, so he kept asking what I expected him to do if I didn't know what I wanted to do, it was going round in circles. I know we can't afford to go anywhere, but it didn't change the fact that it was another night sat in front of the TV. We sorted things in the end as I refuse to go to sleep angry or sleep in separate rooms, but it was a bit worrying in places. It was just a culmination of different frustrations I guess, I can't go to the gym until I unfreeze it following the crash which needs to wait for payday, and I can't run as my foot is painful again even though the foot guy assured me I'd be running by the end of the year, and I still feel a bit nervy about driving so at the moment all I feel I can do is just sit indoors. I guess I just got a bit of cabin fever.

The important thing is that we sorted it, I won't ever go to bed on an argument or sleep in separate rooms, it would eat me up inside. I apologised after we sat down and talked sensibly, and he said I didn't have anything to apologise for and we were all good again today.

I made a to-do list of things to do this weekend with my free time whilst OH is at work, and got most of it done tonight so I can just chill tomorrow afternoon. I might take a walk into the high street tomorrow, I would drive but everywhere is manic at weekends so close to Christmas!

I think I need to look into new ways of keeping myself busy or just calm whilst I can't do any proper exercise, I just get quite stressed or angry and it has nowhere to go. I have literally felt myself hunched over all week with how tense I have felt.

That has been quite a rant with nothing actually MSE there...

Perhaps tomorrow will be more productive

We did actually buy board games when he was at the flat but we've fallen out of the habit of doing anything with them.. I did suggest maybe we go for some walks in the evening, we did quite a lot of walking in the summer then completely stopped after our 100km charity walk :rotfl: I don't often feel bored like I did on Friday, it just really kicked in big time!

I'm hoping to crack on with getting my foot sorted in the New Year, I don't hold much hope of seeing the physio guy before Christmas now, so I'm just going to take it easy and then hope the New Year brings running back for me!

I finally got around to phoning up to try and find out where I need to go the hospital on Friday as the letter has disappeared into thin air, although sod's law it will turn up now that I have worked out where I need to go. I wasn't overly impressed with the switchboard lady I spoke to initially, I explained I was trying to work out where in the hospital I was supposed to go, and got asked which clinic to which I said I wasn't too sure, and basically got "Well you must know what's wrong with you" She then hurriedly starting listing various clinics and we managed to establish which one. It's people like that, that put me off phoning up for things like this as it makes me anxious.

Nearly sorted for Christmas though, two more bits to pick up at the weekend and I will be sorted! I am definitely starting (and FINISHING) much earlier next year though. I got a load of presents sorted at the end of October/start of November, I just ended up really putting off buying the rest and still got stressed :rotfl:

We have our inspection on the house tomorrow, which was supposed to be Monday. I did think it odd that they didn't take with them the stack of post that I left out labelled "old tenants/estate agents post" but OH got a bit of a snarky phone call yesterday asking why no one was home for the inspection when it states very clearly in our tenancy agreement the first inspection would take place on Monday's date, and that no one needed to be in for it. Madness. At least I can give it a proper clean tonight, OH's kids stayed on Sunday so even though it got tidied Sunday afternoon, it was all kind of undone by Monday :rotfl: