Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

Thanks guys. It's nice to know that you also think they should have at least bought me a card. It felt really rubbish because although I had the problem with the colleagues talking about me, I felt like I had a good relationship with one or two of them but it just felt like they couldn't wait to get me out the door. I shouldn't be surprised. On my first day, I was assigned a buddy to show me the ropes. He zoomed through reading the manual in a monotone and didn't invite me to lunch. Nobody did. I'm so glad to be out of there.

I think it's too late to cancel the bike now so I'm stuck with it. I suppose because I did spend so much money on it, I'm actually going to have to use it. I haven't been on a bike since I was 14, let alone one with a motor and a throttle. This is going to be a learning curve. It will save me about 30 minutes commute a day but that helps and it will remove the need for a bus pass or train fare for 2 extra stops. I think it's on its way now so I can't cancel it.

Tea and hbs - I think if the job excites you, that's a good sign. I was never very excited about rubbish job, although I pretended I was because I felt like I should be iyswim? Interviews are horrible though, it's just stock questions and stock answers, although my most successful interviews are the ones where I've broken the stock answers. My old, old job, I spent most of the interview chatting about setting up a Linux partition, and the rubbish one, I got the giggles and kept going off topic (I got on well with my line manager there and he told me that he was so bored of hearing boring interview answers that he chose me because I was different. Of course, then I was all miserable and incapable of being my usual bouncy, eccentric self. If you meet me in person on a good day, I'm pretty much a human labrador.). My interview for going back to the old job was 'do you want your job back?' I probably wouldn't recommend it as a strategy though. I usually do poorly in interviews.

That sounds perfect for you hbs. Fingers crossed.

So, it turns out my bike hasn't been sent out - they made a mistake and I don't know when I'll be able to take time off for delivery so they're going to refund me

I am feeling a bit rubbish today. Penguin about digestive issues end penguin.

It's true and it gives me some space to decide whether I do really want it. I was stressing about the cost which is stupid as I can afford it. I think I'm just so anxious about everything that's happened lately that I don't trust myself to make decisions anymore so I'm worrying about every single minor thing and doing myself no favours. Does that make sense? I'm hoping once things have settled a bit, I'll be able to recover a little belief in myself again. At the moment. I want to live in a duvet fort forever.

If you're having girl problems I feel bad for you son...