Mini meltdown and light bulb moment

DozyDeborah wrote: »

Good luck with everything. Your diary is only a couple of days older than mine and you're the first I have subscribed to. Maybe we can keep each other motivated.

Deb xx

Definitely Deb, I will be heading over to your diary and subscribing. Good luck!

So, I heard from a recruiter today about a job vacancy in my village. Even though it's technically more hours than I do now, it will be a shorter week and shorter days,because I now leave the house at 8.10 and get home after 6 most days, because it's in the village I'll be leaving home at the same time as I do now, but I'll be home at least an hour earlier, and I won't be doing 6 day weeks at all. Same salary, more holidays, company pension and bonus scheme, I don't get any of that now. The recruiter is contacting them to discuss my medical needs and will let me know if they will consider me. OH has said to go for it, the benefits outweigh the fact that it is still full time, and it means I won't have to reduce my wage. More importantly, it's a 2 minute walk so no £2.50 a day bus fare spend.
Something to think about.
In other news, nipped to the small supermarket in town to get, and I quote, 'potatoes, an onion, washing up liquid and frozen chips'. A basket full later and purse is £37 lighter. OH just can't help himself getting yogurts, biscuits and just rubbish we don't need! I can't do the shopping on my own, I don't have the energy to carry everything by myself.
So I'm not happy. Nothing else spent though and least we have snacks for the car journey on Friday and I have more soup and beans for work lunches.

So, balances as at today's date (getting a bit obsessed with checking, for someone who had to blow dust off the online banking card reader.....)

N CC £2402.35
Loan £1750.07
O/Draft £930.20
H CC £1891.80
Total £6974.42

Nothing spent at the hospital, was in and out within half an hour so free parking! Woop.

The recruiter emailed me again today about the job, the company can't accommodate the frequency of my hospital appointments and potential sickness absense because they already have staff on college days etc, which is why they are looking to recruit in the first place.
Ah well. At least they've said they'll keep my details on file.
I feel utterly useless, like I'd just be a burden so there's no use employing me. I know I'm over reacting but it's so frustrating!
No spends to report today.