Depression

[Glad]

Note: this thread has been closed due to its length. Please post in the new Depression II (http://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/showthread.html?p=5195642#post5195642) thread


as the previous thread had become very long, I'm starting another :)

the previous thread can be viewed here (http://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/showthread.html?t=218401&page=177)

please remember that this is a money saving site and medical advice/conditions/treatment cannot be discussed

I think it is important for me to clarify exactly what is and what isn't permissible on this board.

What it is for

This board is a discussion of all issues surrounding health, diet, nutrition and how they relate to MoneySaving. Discussing medical insurance policies, cheaper ways to see consultants, cashback for alternative health treatments, how to get specific medication cheaper (legally) are all perfectly acceptable forms of discussion.

What it is not for

It is very specifically and strictly not for the discussion of what to do in the event of certain medical problems. Please do not ask questions about this. If you're having problems use facilities such as NHS direct and your doctor to go and talk through what you should do.

Even though there are medically qualified people sometimes visiting these forums, I would ask them to restrain from answering specific medical questions.

Even though you know you are medically qualified, others don't. There is no way of proving it and this leads us open to somebody coming on, pretending to be a doctor when they're not and giving advice.

As such it is very important there is a blanket rule that nobody no matter who (not even Robert Winston) should be giving any form of medical advice or detailing what to do on these boards.

I am aware that some discussions have slipped down this route in the past couple of weeks. Well, this is a moratorium. We're starting afresh from here.

And please don't think that this is a telling off, of any variety. It's just a clarification of what is permissible and what's not. I wanted to see how the board developed for a couple of weeks before writing about this, and I think it's important to say this at this point.

Please do ask any questions here and I will do my best to respond.

Martin :)

[feelinggood]

Gosh that scared me!
A brand, spanking new thread, how lovely, thanks glad :)
And Feelie's got the 2nd post, yay!

[Miroslav]

Oooh nice new thread :)

I'm off to give some flowers to someone who doesn't really deserve them :o

:wave:

[feelinggood]

Oooh nice new thread :)

I'm off to give some flowers to someone who doesn't really deserve them :o

:wave:

Enjoy your walk Miro, hope it stays dry.
Catch you later :kisses3:

[EthelBloggs]

hmm... this feels weird, lol

feelie.. i have a similar thing with numb fingers and pins and needles.. be interested to hear what the pharmacist said.. I've got a drs apptment on monday cos of it :/

Good luck Miro *huggs*

[feelinggood]

Will PM you Ethel :)

[EthelBloggs]

okies, or msn is on if u prefer :)

[learning_to_drive]

The thread gone?

New one here guys, hey, tiff, in the old thread you didn't give me a shout out!! ltd is on this thread quite a lot now!

I had a decent day at ASDA today, was my first day, induction etc, wasn't too bad at all. Long way to go on the road to recovery, but today was positive!

[feelinggood]

The thread gone?

New one here guys, hey, tiff, in the old thread you didn't give me a shout out!! ltd is on this thread quite a lot now!

I had a decent day at ASDA today, was my first day, induction etc, wasn't too bad at all. Long way to go on the road to recovery, but today was positive!

Hey LTD :)
Glad today was positive, thats really good. Are you working part time or full time?
*hugs*
You sound upbeat, really nice :)

[Miroslav]

Enjoy your walk Miro, hope it stays dry.
Catch you later :kisses3:

2 hours 25 mins after putting card under her door and flowers outside.............nothing :(

I think I may have lost her forever :cry:

[Miroslav]

Good luck Miro *huggs*

Well, I think it's over sadly :o

[Miroslav]

The thread gone?

New one here guys, hey, tiff, in the old thread you didn't give me a shout out!! ltd is on this thread quite a lot now!

I had a decent day at ASDA today, was my first day, induction etc, wasn't too bad at all. Long way to go on the road to recovery, but today was positive!

Excellent news! :) Glad today was a positive.

[feelinggood]

Well, I think it's over sadly :o

Miro, she might just be taking her time, hopefully everything will be okay xxx

[Miroslav]

Miro, she might just be taking her time, hopefully everything will be okay xxx

I know :o But you know how it is when you fall out with someone you really care about - you panic :o

[feelinggood]

I know :o But you know how it is when you fall out with someone you really care about - you panic :o

I understand completely, maybe try and take your mind off it? Never nice when you are sitting, waiting :(
Any plans for tomorrow?

[Miroslav]

I understand completely, maybe try and take your mind off it? Never nice when you are sitting, waiting :(
Any plans for tomorrow?

I'm doing things, but keep drifting off onto 'S'.

Will probably go into town and have a drink with flatmate tomorrow, I don't know, i'm all over the place right now.

[feelinggood]

I'm doing things, but keep drifting off onto 'S'.

Will probably go into town and have a drink with flatmate tomorrow, I don't know, i'm all over the place right now.

You should walk in to town, walking is good :) Walking cures everything I reckon lol. Don't know what I'm doing tomorrow, might go for a walk :)

[Miroslav]

You should walk in to town, walking is good :) Walking cures everything I reckon lol. Don't know what I'm doing tomorrow, might go for a walk :)

Walking is good, but so is sleeping :o

Depression is setting in, now I have made an effort.

Hope she likes the flowers and card and just doesn't chuck them :o

[feelinggood]

Walking is good, but so is sleeping :o

Depression is setting in, now I have made an effort.

Hope she likes the flowers and card and just doesn't chuck them :o

Sometimes we've just got to go through the depressing times, but there are things you can do to help it feel a little better. How is your sleep pattern? i'm really looking forward to bed, had nightmares last night and didn't sleep well.

[Miroslav]

Sometimes we've just got to go through the depressing times, but there are things you can do to help it feel a little better. How is your sleep pattern? i'm really looking forward to bed, had nightmares last night and didn't sleep well.

Sleep pattern all over the place this week, thanks to new year.

I'm going offline for a bit. Shall return later maybe. I won't get a response to the flowers and maybe she is gone for good.

Flatmate thinks not, as she says 'S' cares about me but is scared, but I was the one that was there when she got funny.

Catch you later, enjoy bed feelie :wave:

PS - just seen your email, will respond soon :wave:

[learning_to_drive]

ey LTD
Glad today was positive, thats really good. Are you working part time or full time?
*hugs*
You sound upbeat, really nice

Hi, I love this thread, full of like minded people who suffer, I think that I go through stages but can beat this depression, just when I have bad moods / bad days / wake up feeling low, I panic because I associate that with feeling low as how I did before when I was very bad.

I hope I can better, I know I can, one day at a time, one step at a time.

[feelinggood]

Hi, I love this thread, full of like minded people who suffer, I think that I go through stages but can beat this depression, just when I have bad moods / bad days / wake up feeling low, I panic because I associate that with feeling low as how I did before when I was very bad.

I hope I can better, I know I can, one day at a time, one step at a time.

The swings are hard to deal with, I'm feeling good at the moment, hoping it lasts. I do have a bit of fear that I'm just going to go back down, but maybe this time will be different.
ODAAT, thats how we should do everything.
How is your sleep?

[Tomkatt]

Well I know that this has been mentioned several times already but I just felt I had to reply. Unfortunately, by the time I actually managed to get logged on here the thread had closed!!

I have had what has vaguely been termed depression for about 10 or 12 years on and off, it began with bouts of self harm that started at round about 15, mainly I just felt numb and removed from every day life. It gradually seems to have deterioated to the point where I am under the "care" of a psychiatrist but even he has given up on me stating that I have now three more sessions in which to show I wish to change otherwise he cannot help me. Which is great but its not going to make it go away. He has me all confused however as he won't attach a "label" to me and therefore would not describe me as "overtly" depressed. It probably does not help that I keep things from him but I cannot help it as it has been an automatic response for many years now (keeping people at a distance). I know I need help but I don't seem to know how to ask and when it is offered I shove it away because I don't think I need it.

What makes it even more confusing is that I can go days and feel absolutely fine, I get loads done and I even manage to keep the house clean. Other times I don't really see a point in anything and don't want to get up, this is made worse by the fact that I am not sleeping properly at all. Again the shrink says this is down to poor management but even when I do go to bed early (10pm) I still wake up at three and find myself unable to go back to sleep. I know by the end of these three sessions I won't have managed to prove anything, and the shrink and I will "part company" without actually having achieved anything and if past history is anything to go by its all downhill from here.

[kronas]

The swings are hard to deal with, I'm feeling good at the moment, hoping it lasts. I do have a bit of fear that I'm just going to go back down, but maybe this time will be different.
ODAAT, thats how we should do everything.
How is your sleep?

its the same with me, it never lasts long, its just certain periods are better than others, i just make the most of the 'mania' while i can, but when it all dies down thats when i hate things, depression will always be there, you just have to accept it and control it, things WILL get better, but you have to be prepared to 'lose it' during diffarent periods and go off kilter.

[feelinggood]

its the same with me, it never lasts long, its just certain periods are better than others, i just make the most of the 'mania' while i can, but when it all dies down thats when i hate things, depression will always be there, you just have to accept it and control it, things WILL get better, but you have to be prepared to 'lose it' during diffarent periods and go off kilter.

This time, I'm going to make sure I continue to go to the doctors, let him see what I'm like when i'm like this :) Although, that said, I was supposed to go to the doctor about a week ago, and I'm putting it off for another 10 days or so.

How are you tonight?

[learning_to_drive]

The swings are hard to deal with, I'm feeling good at the moment, hoping it lasts. I do have a bit of fear that I'm just going to go back down, but maybe this time will be different.
ODAAT, thats how we should do everything.
How is your sleep?

The swings are extremely hard to deal with, ODAAT as you say, its important to remember that, it can be beaten. I think of the swing low (sweet chariot?) as a bad mood / low point that all people depressed or otherwise have.

We cant let it beat us :)

My sleep is pretty good at the minute, fooked up after Xmas naturally, but on the whole its a lot better recently,

[feelinggood]

The swings are extremely hard to deal with, ODAAT as you say, its important to remember that, it can be beaten. I think of the swing low (sweet chariot?) as a bad mood / low point that all people depressed or otherwise have.

We cant let it beat us :)

My sleep is pretty good at the minute, fooked up after Xmas naturally, but on the whole its a lot better recently,

I'm being really strict and getting in bed at midnight and up at 8am.
Really don't want to go to bed tonight though!
I do so very much like how you post :)

[learning_to_drive]

I'm being really strict and getting in bed at midnight and up at 8am.
Really don't want to go to bed tonight though!
I do so very much like how you post

How do you like how I post? In what way?

Thanks I think!!

:)

[feelinggood]

How do you like how I post? In what way?

Thanks I think!!

:)

Just the things you say - like the "swing low (sweet chariot?)" and things :)

It was a compliment :)

[learning_to_drive]

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh lovely, well i do try, its my personality coming through, I felt today that after all my problems and really being "myself" after speaking with people and being the life and soul of our induction group that I can really go somewhere, but I have to keep positive.

If any fellow sufferers wish to speak via MSN / PM about things, it would be nice, to keep each other going through difficult times and speak on a personal level about our days.

The offer is there, please contact me via PM for MSN / chat, I'm happy to speak with others as well as on here! :)

[feelinggood]

I have sent you a message :)
I talk about my personal day on the thread too usually, bet these guys want rid of me!

[learning_to_drive]

Best way to do it!

Honestly, you should post here daily, I have no idea what I would do without the guys on here and over at DFW, I have some invaluable advice and help and that is helping me really sort out my finances!

[learning_to_drive]

I've added you in case you are wondering!!!!

Hope we all sleep well folks!

What are you going to do tomorrow to get that little bit better?

[kronas]

This time, I'm going to make sure I continue to go to the doctors, let him see what I'm like when i'm like this :) Although, that said, I was supposed to go to the doctor about a week ago, and I'm putting it off for another 10 days or so.

How are you tonight?

just let it all out infront of consultants GP's if you behave 'too' normal then they will think there is nothing wrong, im not saying lie but to show your symptoms.

im not too bad, just trying to keep myself occupied!

[feelinggood]

Best way to do it!

Honestly, you should post here daily, I have no idea what I would do without the guys on here and over at DFW, I have some invaluable advice and help and that is helping me really sort out my finances!

I usually post on here regularly, I was the 4th highest poster on the old thread I think.

Tomorrow I will go for another long walk, which will make me feel better. I was also have a long soak in the bath after I've got drenched on my walk :)

What about you? x

[learning_to_drive]

I've added you to msn? Using the yahoo address, @yahoo.com is that right?

[feelinggood]

@co.uk for both of them. I'll sign in and add you too, just so we know its right :)

[Miroslav]

bet these guys want rid of me!

Never :)

'S' didn't contact me - not looking good.

I know it's only 30 hours since.......and she acts like a child who doesn't want to hear the truth sometimes..........but still, my feelings are my feelings :o

[Tiff]

Well I know that this has been mentioned several times already but I just felt I had to reply. Unfortunately, by the time I actually managed to get logged on here the thread had closed!!
I have had what has vaguely been termed depression for about 10 or 12 years on and off, it began with bouts of self harm that started at round about 15, mainly I just felt numb and removed from every day life. It gradually seems to have deterioated to the point where I am under the "care" of a psychiatrist but even he has given up on me stating that I have now three more sessions in which to show I wish to change otherwise he cannot help me. Which is great but its not going to make it go away. He has me all confused however as he won't attach a "label" to me and therefore would not describe me as "overtly" depressed.
It probably does not help that I keep things from him but I cannot help it as it has been an automatic response for many years now (keeping people at a distance). I know I need help but I don't seem to know how to ask and when it is offered I shove it away because I don't think I need it.
What makes it even more confusing is that I can go days and feel absolutely fine, I get loads done and I even manage to keep the house clean. Other times I don't really see a point in anything and don't want to get up, this is made worse by the fact that I am not sleeping properly at all. Again the shrink says this is down to poor management but even when I do go to bed early (10pm) I still wake up at three and find myself unable to go back to sleep. I know by the end of these three sessions I won't have managed to prove anything, and the shrink and I will "part company" without actually having achieved anything and if past history is anything to go by its all downhill from here.

Hi tomkatt!:wave:
May I suggest the depression thread that's already on this board hun? Friendly people with varying degrees of experience and some good practical advice on a range of things.
So you're saying you've had long term problems hun - do you mind if I ask how old you are? How long have you been seeing the psychiatrist tom? What is making the psychiatrist think that you don't wish to change?

As you say it's not going to make it go away but there again angel, neither will a label. I can understand you wanting a diagnosis tom and try and look at it another way - the dr maybe thinks he's not being told the whole story and is urging you to reach out to him honestly.

And here lies your main problem hun! No matter how much it hurts or how hard it is, you have to be completely open and honest with your dr. If you're not telling him everything tom, then that's the reason why you're sessions don't appear to be working and you can't get an accurate diagnosis. How can the dr treat you hun, when he doesn't know all your history or symptoms?

May I suggest that you write it all down for him and give it to him at your next appointment? That helps a lot of people because it is very hard to open up completely - but so very necessary. Do you have a social worker / friend /CPN who you'd trust enough to speak on your behalf? Would it help maybe having them there for support either during your appt or waiting outside for you after it? By getting to the point where you are seeing a psychiatrist hun, something in you must have wanted help, so when you tell yourself that you don't need it, don't listen!

You may feel unable to tell all because you're afraid of the pain that telling all might bring. But waiting lists are long hun, and I urge you to please make the most of this opportunity while you can. Psychiatrists have seen and heard it all before hun, so don't be afraid and it is completely confidential tom.

The dr's opinion is based on all that you've shared with him. Again, he can only go on what you tell him. People with depression do have better days than others - it's not necessarily a flat line.

You don't know hun what will happen - especially if you open up to the dr completely. This really is the key to everything. If you've had this experience before tom and you really want the help, open up or as you say, you seem to feel that you'll go downhill from there. If you end up getting the real help you want, it could be a different story. Take the chance and open up - do it for yourself!:T
Good luck tomkatt.
Best wishes,
Tiff x

[Tiff]

Hi guys!:hello:
How do we like our new home?
http://images.google.co.uk/images?q=tbn:vmJObpo3i6nikM:http://www.caninecommissary.net/nss-folder/petfame/si_Uw280h280_funny%2520cat.jpg (http://images.google.co.uk/imgres?imgurl=http://www.caninecommissary.net/nss-folder/petfame/si_Uw280h280_funny%2520cat.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.techdomain.com.au/index.php%3Ftopic%3D1273.msg6802%3Btopicseen&h=262&w=280&sz=24&hl=en&sig2=BBFR452u3rHlSSMWzz1EiA&start=11&tbnid=vmJObpo3i6nikM:&tbnh=107&tbnw=114&ei=wZqgRfTpBrTAwgGx_-ycDQ&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dfunny%2Bcat%2Bphotos%26ndsp%3D20%26sv num%3D10%26hl%3Den%26lr%3D%26rls%3DGGLJ,GGLJ:2006-46,GGLJ:en) I've settled in already!:rotfl:

Thanks glad - I don't need a catflap now!:rolleyes:
A new thread for the New Year! http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/WooHoo.gif
And sometimes, it is a good idea just to remind ourselves of the rules too, just to re-focus a little bit.;)

Huge Tiffy Hugs to saz, elona, ethel, coggi, blinky, miro, glad, rose, gilly, gemni, l-t-d, fg, mac, goldy, moany, bunnie, kronas, cif, flis, razor, betty, mrs a, dora, cc, et al.
And a big http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/welcome.gif to CVID! I will answer your post cv - explanation in next post.
Thinking of you all.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/grouphug.gif

:money: Just a thought here guys, but did you know that if you're on a long-term/permanent medication that you must have (like a diabetic needs insulin for example), then I believe you can qualify for it to be free, even if you're not on benefits? I'm not sure if you apply through your GP (I think so) or through DWP. We all know how much prescription costs can mount up! Yay - 1st money-saving tip on the new thread isn't it?http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/high5.gif
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Be kind to yourself guys.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

The thread gone?

New one here guys, hey, tiff, in the old thread you didn't give me a shout out!! ltd is on this thread quite a lot now!

I had a decent day at ASDA today, was my first day, induction etc, wasn't too bad at all. Long way to go on the road to recovery, but today was positive!

Hi ltd! Welcome home!http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/five.gif
I remembered you as soon as I saw your post hun and planned a lengthy reply too. I'm giving you a shout out now!
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:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

I will try and get that post out later for you but it was good to hear from you. :T I didn't get chance to come back on tbh ltd.

My mum was rushed into hospital yesterday at 5pm with breathing problems and water in her lungs. Must admit, I'm a very shakey and scared Tiff.
She is terminally ill and will be 69 on 14th Jan, God willing. Even though we know she's very ill, it was still a shock and I know she's a fighter. I don't know how I'll get through it if she doesn't make it - it's cruel because I only lost my Dad just over a year ago. I love her so much, as I did my Dad.

So if I'm a bit slow answering posts guys, you know why. I'm thinking of you all though.;) Still here for you all. :grouphug:Visiting times are far apart so I'll try and catch up in between.:o
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[feelinggood]

Morning guys :)
I'm off out for my walk, my trainers are still wet and my coat is still damp hehe. Will probably get wet again now, then everything is going straight in the wash!
Hope everyone is good day, will catch up with you all later.
Hugs&kisses to those who want them :)
xx

[Alex_Galt]

Morning guys!
hada bit of a rough night last night - finding it hard to sleep

[EthelBloggs]

Hi ltd! Welcome home!http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/five.gif
I remembered you as soon as I saw your post hun and planned a lengthy reply too. I'm giving you a shout out now!
http://images.google.co.uk/images?q=tbn:KimRIBm8Kj-LiM:http://www.madcat.org.ua/images/tiger.jpg

:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

I will try and get that post out later for you but it was good to hear from you. :T I didn't get chance to come back on tbh ltd.

My mum was rushed into hospital yesterday at 5pm with breathing problems and water in her lungs. Must admit, I'm a very shakey and scared Tiff.
She is terminally ill and will be 69 on 14th Jan, God willing. Even though we know she's very ill, it was still a shock and I know she's a fighter. I don't know how I'll get through it if she doesn't make it - it's cruel because I only lost my Dad just over a year ago. I love her so much, as I did my Dad.

So if I'm a bit slow answering posts guys, you know why. I'm thinking of you all though.;) Still here for you all. :grouphug:Visiting times are far apart so I'll try and catch up in between.:o
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Aww Tiffy.. so sorry to hear about your mum.. I'm sure she'll be fine.. my mum's gonna be 78 on the 12th (I'm not that old, she had me late in her life :rolleyes:) and everytime she gets ill I panic a bit too cos she's the only family i really have, but they're tough old birds and usually come thru for us ok *huggs*

I'll keep her and you in my thoughts and send lots n lots of good wishes xxx

[EthelBloggs]

Morning guys!
hada bit of a rough night last night - finding it hard to sleep

You n me both :( The pain in my arm was excruciating, I was almost crying with the pain and painkillers don't seem to help at all :confused:

I read somewhere about having a settled bedtime routine and that if you can't sleep.. get up, read a book or watch tv and then try again after a little while. Don't know where I saw that now, but the poster did say it worked.

[EthelBloggs]

anyone seen or heard from sazbomb????

I don't tink I've seen her for a few days.. getting a bit concerned :/

[Tiff]

anyone seen or heard from sazbomb????

I don't tink I've seen her for a few days.. getting a bit concerned :/

Hi ethel!
How are you hun? How's stuff? http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Thank you for your kind wishes about my mum - going to the hospital later. She's on intravenous antibiotics and nebulizers and is on constant oxygen. I know she's in good hands. She didn't have me until she was 26 (old in those days) and I had my only child at 26 too (old in my day too!:D ). I just couldn't bear to lose her and Dad so close together. It gives you a real reality check!

I believe Her Sazziness is in deep shock and exhaustion after having to return to work!;) Run off her feet she was! I'm sure she'll post soon. Don't worry angel - glad left a forwarding address on the old board so she'll find us. Take care hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[learning_to_drive]

Afternoon guys, how are you tiff? Shout outs to everyone mentioned !!!

I hope your mother will be ok, our thoughts are with you at this time, obviously if you wish to speak to anyone then we are all here, PM me for my MSN if you wish to, I am offering this because I like to share problems, they are halved after all.

I hope we are all ok, what are we going to to do that makes us that bit better today? What are we going to do that gets us one step closer to our destination of "Better?"

[EthelBloggs]

Afternoon guys, how are you tiff? Shout outs to everyone mentioned !!!

I hope your mother will be ok, our thoughts are with you at this time, obviously if you wish to speak to anyone then we are all here, PM me for my MSN if you wish to, I am offering this because I like to share problems, they are halved after all.

I hope we are all ok, what are we going to to do that makes us that bit better today? What are we going to do that gets us one step closer to our destination of "Better?"
The only thing that would make me better is if i ran away and left them all behind.. since i can't do that........ i'll just keep plodding onwards and trying not to let the selfish bastids get to me. atm i;m trying to clean up after everyone with one working hand.. and not one of them has the decency to look a bit ashamed or embarassed :mad:. I have asked them to help but they all say.. it's not my mess.. I didn't do it... etc etc etc

[Miroslav]

'S' has posted a note through my door saying she never wants to see me again.

It's over.

3 days ago she wanted to be with me, now she never wants to see me.

[feelinggood]

'S' has posted a note through my door saying she never wants to see me again.

It's over.

3 days ago she wanted to be with me, now she never wants to see me.

Miro, I'm sorry :grouphug:
Want to talk about it?

[Miroslav]

Not much point. Right now, i'm not sure I want to be here. It's just too hard.

[feelinggood]

Not much point. Right now, i'm not sure I want to be here. It's just too hard.

I know its hard Miro, but remember, there ARE good times, and there will be more good times. Things will work out.
I'm here if you need me, thinking of you
xx

[EthelBloggs]

'S' has posted a note through my door saying she never wants to see me again.

It's over.

3 days ago she wanted to be with me, now she never wants to see me.

Im soo sorry miro.... huge hugggggggggggs

Maybe it's just too much for her to cope with right now.. nothing to do with you personally.. know what i mean? :confused:

Here if you want to talk anytime xx

[learning_to_drive]

S' has posted a note through my door saying she never wants to see me again.

It's over.

3 days ago she wanted to be with me, now she never wants to see me.

That's bad brother, please PM me if you want to talk, but dont let this get you down, she is 1 girl in how many? 100's of millions?

She doesnt deserve you, again, easy for me to say, but believe it, act like you did with every girl you ever meet, several will love how you are, then, you can have your pick!

But dont let her get the better of you, not all girls are the same :)

[Mrs A.]

hi folks not been around these parts for ages
so i better post an update (huge cry for help if im honest)
ok
done the cbt whole course and i feel it did nothing for me,

day hospital want me to go to group therapy now which i will try probably tomorrow or sometime this week,

consultant wants to change my meds again and told me to wean myself of the 60mg of paroxitine i was on daily which i was doing until..... and here comes to bad bit...........

my gp called me in to discuss the consultants referral letter back to her after i met him in december.............

says "mrs a is suffering from unipolar depression, feels she has no good thoughts or feelings or cant remember a time when she felt good about anything or looked forward to anything, mrs a manages to cook a meal for her family on average once a fornight, mrs a feels afraid to meet new people or go to new places unaccompained by her husband etc etc etc, i am recommending that mrs a be prescribed venlafaxine again up to the maximum dose as soon as possible and if this has no effect on mrs a then i would suggest prescribing combination drug therapy for mrs a, namely max dose of venlafaxine and LITHIUM.........."


oh my goodness i am so shocked by that i mean lithium thats heavy duty stuff.
i had planned to return to work (after having been off the past 3 months or so with depression) but my gp says no way and if i have to go on the lithium i might not get back at all.........

however, i am now slowly getting over the shock of that and i have now accepted my depression for how bad it really is and i have also taken off the happy go lucky mask that i have been wearing for years.

so guys any ideas.
i am expecting to be put of half pay come the 25th of this months if i am luck this will last for the next 3 months.

my gp is not that hopeful that the venlaflax will work as i have been on it before so it looks like i am going to have to give the lithium a go.

yours
mrs a

[learning_to_drive]

give it a go, anti depressants have a huge stigma for everyone, we are all worried about them, it will get you better!

Take the course, if it gets you better you will be happy :)

[Tiff]

Hi mrs a! :wave:
Coincidence or what but I posted you a hello today - not forgotten you angel. I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time. http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Ok hun, let's take this one step at a time.

hi folks not been around these parts for ages
so i better post an update (huge cry for help if im honest)
ok done the cbt whole course and i feel it did nothing for me,
day hospital want me to go to group therapy now which i will try probably tomorrow or sometime this week,[quote]
Well done for posting angel instead of suffering - glad you could open up to us all. Did you have an intensive CBT course hun? Did you get regular feedback or input? This is very important to how CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) works. I can't really comment on whether it should be working for you mrs.a, but what you need to do now is focus on the remaining options.
I'm glad you're going to explore all the dr's suggested options hun - you'll never know unless you give it a go. And don't forget, it may feel strange at first but the people you'll meet will make you welcome. http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

[quote]consultant wants to change my meds again and told me to wean myself of the 60mg of paroxitine i was on daily which i was doing until..... and here comes to bad bit...........
my gp called me in to discuss the consultants referral letter back to her after i met him in december.............
They are communicating well with each other and you hun - that's really good.

says "mrs a is suffering from unipolar depression, feels she has no good thoughts or feelings or cant remember a time when she felt good about anything or looked forward to anything, mrs a manages to cook a meal for her family on average once a fornight, mrs a feels afraid to meet new people or go to new places unaccompained by her husband etc etc etc, i am recommending that mrs a be prescribed venlafaxine again up to the maximum dose as soon as possible and if this has no effect on mrs a then i would suggest prescribing combination drug therapy for mrs a, namely max dose of venlafaxine and LITHIUM.........."
Hun, I can imagine how scared you must be but we're here for you any time. http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/grouphug.gif
We're not at the lithium stage quite yet though hun are we? What did the gp say? There is the chance that the new ad and the combination of therapy may work.

oh my goodness i am so shocked by that i mean lithium thats heavy duty stuff.
i had planned to return to work (after having been off the past 3 months or so with depression) but my gp says no way and if i have to go on the lithium i might not get back at all.........however, i am now slowly getting over the shock of that and i have now accepted my depression for how bad it really is and i have also taken off the happy go lucky mask that i have been wearing for years.
I am so proud of you hun. Your courage has gotten you this far and you are a true survivor. I'm not trying to diminsh how you must feel angel but the word ''might'' can hold hope. Even if you are on lithium, I'm sure there are different levels and maybe some people do work while on it. I don't know about lithium very much tbh mrs.a. - but I know it's a heavy duty medication.

Sweetheart, even if you do start taking lithium, please remember that you are so much more than a job description. It seems that the straight talk with your gp has in a way, set you free - no more pretending that it's all ok and you will be amazed at how much help is available to people with mental ill health of any kind. It's good that the drs know what they're doing and that they are leaving the lithium as a latter option. Proud of you for keeping an open mind and being willing to try it out hun. :T I hope that reassures you angel that they do have your best interests at heart and are trying all they can.
I know it must be a heck of a shock but you've got a lot of support. We can also look at the other side of the page now hun. You end up taking lithium. If that helps you lead a better life, then it'll be worth it angel. No, it's not what you want mrs.a, but it's available because it does something and works for people. Hold on to this crumb of comfort.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

so guys any ideas.
i am expecting to be put of half pay come the 25th of this months if i am luck this will last for the next 3 months.
my gp is not that hopeful that the venlaflax will work as i have been on it before so it looks like i am going to have to give the lithium a go.
Now this is a bit more in Tiff territory sweetheart.;)
You need to contact DLA unit and request a form to apply for Disability Living Allowance.
I will look out the phone number for you to call and post it tomorrow morning on here.
This should be the first thing you do tomorrow hun as they only backdate a claim from the time you request the form. Also phone your local MIND, DIAL or CAB, and book an appointment to get the form filled in - don't wait for the form to arrive as the appointments can be a few weeks away. The form is about 15 foot long & repetitive but don't be put off. PLEASE let the experts fill in the form with you - wording is crucial -and then get it back to DLA via registered post. I know you'll have to pay for this but it ensures that it doesn't get magically 'lost'!
It'll be a few weeks before you hear anything - contact your gp and psychiatrist who will be contacted for info from DLA so that they'll have it ready to go. I cannot imagine why you wouldn't qualify for a medium-high rate hun. Hopefully, this will reassure you about finances angel though it takes a while to come through. It is not income related, and it doesn't matter if you are working, on benefits, single, married or if it's solely a mental health illness - it's purely based on the help you need and your health.
MIND's website is a gold mine of free information guys.:T
yours
mrs a
I have to go now guys but mrs.a, please keep us posted hun.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gifhttp://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

Miro hun - you're a wonderful person and your happy ever after will come. I know you're feeling tortured now but you're a survivor and you can get through this. Letting the pain out is part of the healing process angel - and just you remember the other 8 women declaring an interest in you recently! Scant consolation I know hun and I'm sure nothing I can say can soothe your pain right now - but I'm here if you need hugs and a friend.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gifhttp://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

Really sorry I can't stay longer guys - got to call hospital about Mum. Thinking of all of you and will hopefully catch you tomorrow. Take care of each other.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[kronas]

Never :)

'S' didn't contact me - not looking good.

I know it's only 30 hours since.......and she acts like a child who doesn't want to hear the truth sometimes..........but still, my feelings are my feelings :o

its as i suspected, time to move on, the grass will get greener on the other side, you just have to open up more opportunities for yourself, im sure many of us in the thread would want to be loved (or love someone) as the latter is the case with me, but for you i suggest you just continue your freindship if its left, else you just make yourself worse when it comes to thinking, which inturn makes your symptoms worse.

edit: just saw your other post, its a shame that it had to end that way, but heed my advice and move on, stand up, be proud, head held up high, it wasent meant to be, its not your fault, complications are to blame, im sure next time you will be luckier!

[elona]

(((Miro))))

(((tiff))))

(((Mrs A)))

[Tiff]

Good morning ethel!:hello:
Saw your light on hun - how are you?
Just wanted to say Good Luck for the doctor's appt. today angel. Let us know how you get on.
Don't forget to contact MIND with an update of the reactions you had Friday hun.
I'm thinking of you sweetheart.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Hi mrs.a!:hello:
Sending you hugs for today.
As promised, here is the phone number for the DLA Unit so you can ring and get the financial help ball rolling...
08457 123456
The DLA helpline is open from Monday-Friday 7.30a.m. to 6.30p.m.
Good luck angel.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[EthelBloggs]

Good morning ethel!:hello:
Saw your light on hun - how are you?
Just wanted to say Good Luck for the doctor's appt. today angel. Let us know how you get on.
Don't forget to contact MIND with an update of the reactions you had Friday hun.
I'm thinking of you sweetheart.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

G'mornin tiffy :)

been awake since about 4.30.. woke up with the pain in my arm and now my head.. feels like its been bashed on one side :/ got drs at 4 so I shall let u know how it goes. got a meeting at 9 abt my daughter... :rolleyes: not holding out much hope there but we'll see.. and I have to be at uni for 12, lol busy bee me today.

I was trying to stop my two from havign a fistfight last night and got stuck in the middle and was bashed by one of them either with a remote control or a phone, not sure which, both are metal and I've got 2 big cuts and a lovely bruise on my chest now :mad: . If i was a horse or a dog or sommat they'd put me down, it would be kinder but sadly im not soo i got to keep plodding on innit?

How are you doing tiffy? whats the news on your mum? I know how worrying it is.. I tend to panic a bit if my mum even gets a cold these days, but she is nearly 80 (had me when she was 44)

I'll keep you and your mum in my thoughts tiffy.. wishing you both well xxx

[Tiff]

G'mornin tiffy :)

been awake since about 4.30.. woke up with the pain in my arm and now my head.. feels like its been bashed on one side :/ got drs at 4 so I shall let u know how it goes. got a meeting at 9 abt my daughter... :rolleyes: not holding out much hope there but we'll see.. and I have to be at uni for 12, lol busy bee me today.

I was trying to stop my two from havign a fistfight last night and got stuck in the middle and was bashed by one of them either with a remote control or a phone, not sure which, both are metal and I've got 2 big cuts and a lovely bruise on my chest now :mad: . If i was a horse or a dog or sommat they'd put me down, it would be kinder but sadly im not soo i got to keep plodding on innit?

How are you doing tiffy? whats the news on your mum? I know how worrying it is.. I tend to panic a bit if my mum even gets a cold these days, but she is nearly 80 (had me when she was 44)

I'll keep you and your mum in my thoughts tiffy.. wishing you both well xxx

Hi hun,
Who's the 9a.m. meeting with re DD? Have Social Services gotten back to you?
I'm sorry you had such a hard weekend ethel. Be sure and mention the physical fight to all parties - there needs to be some serious intervention here for everyone's sake. Make sure you show them your bruises too. They have to act to protect your young DS.
Don't forget to confide in your uni tutor if you haven't already hun. Getting more time and support is better than struggling and falling down at the last hurdle after all your hard work.
Are you going to talk about DD with gp too? They are the quick access road ethel - she may not be at The Ritz but hopefully she'll be safer.
Thanks for your thoughts angel. I'm thinking of you too.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[EthelBloggs]

Hi hun,
Who's the 9a.m. meeting with re DD? Have Social Services gotten back to you?
I'm sorry you had such a hard weekend ethel. Be sure and mention the physical fight to all parties - there needs to be some serious intervention here for everyone's sake. Make sure you show them your bruises too. They have to act to protect your young DS.
Don't forget to confide in your uni tutor if you haven't already hun. Getting more time and support is better than struggling and falling down at the last hurdle after all your hard work.
Are you going to talk about DD with gp too? They are the quick access road ethel - she may not be at The Ritz but hopefully she'll be safer.
Thanks for your thoughts angel. I'm thinking of you too.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx
It's a renegotiation meeting at the hospital, basically where she has to apologise for whatever she's done wrong and convince them that she'll be a good girl in future, although i think they should be apologising for putting her in the situation where she found a girl hanging herself :confused: however, I've got a list of my concerns and worries and i shall make sure they are addressed properly this time. My cousin is going to come with us, she works in special needs education dept in another borough so while she's not specifically trained in mental health, she knows her way around the system and how to use their jargon :)

Social services and the local cahms (child and adolescent mental health) team who referred her will be contacting them this week also to set up a meeting and see what can be done, my gp is kind of out of the loop on this one because she has a consultant psychiatrist locally, even tho she never sees her, but he'll help me as much as he can, he's ace :D

With a bit of luck, the advocacy team will get on the case this week also, although i've had trouble getting thru to them.

all the best tiffy.. gotta run.. cousin be here shortly and we've got a car coming at 8 :/

have a good day everyone xxx

[Tiff]

Hi guys!:hello:
Huge Tiff hugs to ethel, miro, mrs.a, sazzy, elona, blinky, qb, stenny, feelie, gemini, cif, glad, cv, kronas, rosie, ltd, gilly, moany, mac, goldy, coggi, bunnie, flis, cc et al. http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

ethel - fingers crossed for your busy day hun.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

sazzy - I know this week was going to be another really long hard work week for you. Well, you did have all that time off!:D Post when you can - even if it's in your sleep!:rotfl:

elona - bless you hun - thanks for the hugs angel. Our official Hug Provider's hopefully getting all hugged up himself!;) :T Hope all is well with you?:A


fg - morning hun - what are your plans for the week? Good to hear you're feeling happier hun.:T

ltd - much good luck for today and your induction part 2 at work! :T

stenny - hi hun - how are you? Not heard from you for a few days angel. You know where we are stenny...;)

gilly - where are you at angel? :confused: I hope all is well with you hun.;)

rose - hi hun - hope you're well? How's it going angel? Apologies for not getting back to you. Take care.:cool:

blinky - Monday greetings hun. Hope you had a great weekend with r? We missed you and are sending you some of your own hugs!http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gifhttp://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gifhttp://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

miro - I hope you're okay angel - I've been thinking of you and sending you virtual hugs.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

I've got a busy day too. Thank you for your best wishes and hugs everyone. Mum's stable which is good but the bad news we got last night is that her heart failure is worse. Will have to get up to the hospital today. Meeting drs hopefully at some point. So much going to be going on for me this next couple of weeks but I'm always around. Will let you know how I get on. Be kind to yourself guys - and each other.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Hi miro!http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
How are you angel? Just wanted to remind you that we're all here for you. This is probably not want you want to hear atm hun and I know you're hurting badly miro, but I'm going to throw back a few of your own words at you.;) Like...you were going to follow up on looking into work at the charity shop...like you don't know if you could take all the downs with s...like you said you've got to look after yourself.

Hun, these were all things you said yourself.
I've read back over your posts and over the last few days, it seems as though you'd realised that this was a battle that was going to be more destructive to you, than helpful. You were angry at the way you were being treated and so frustrated and determined to look after yourself now. That's what you have to hold on to right now hun! That's what's going to help you through this!http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/nod.gif

What you're feeling now is sadness because you tried so hard to make it work but hun, the girl is very ill and probably can't maintain any relationship. There was nothing more you could do, than you did - please remember that!
You're hurting because you want to be loved more than anything and because s was the first one to declare an interest in a low self-esteem miro. But she was the FIRST hun - not the last ! 8 others have recently admired you!:T

Once you start filling your time with admirable things like your charity work and by exploring your immediate outside world more, it will build your self-esteem hun. Share more of miro with your world. Join drop-in groups, meet people. Good guys don't always finish last at all! I know you just want to retreat angel, but that's the last thing you should do. I'm glad you called The Samaritans hun and don't forget your gp if you can't cope.
And don't worry too much about wanting to be loved - we all want that angel.;) Concentrate on building yourself a life you're happy with.
Just when you're not expecting it, love will suddenly appear and smack you in the face - and when it is really love, there will be no doubts hun! http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[feelinggood]

Morning all :)
Finally got the house to myself, now I don't know what to do with myself :rotfl:
Hope everyone is good :grouphug:

[Sazbo]

Morning feelie hun x Morning everyone :hello: Apologies for being a bit scarce on the thread recently... needed a 'time-out'.

I'm having a cuppa at my desk before the chaos begins at work. Hope everyone's well today. I'm sending extra special hugs to Tiffy and Ethel, who are having a rather tough time of it - hope you both get through today ok. Please post whenever you can, we're thinking of you.

I start counselling tonight and I'm feeling a bit apprehensive about that, to put it mildly! So can you all keep everything crossed for me?:D

Much Love,
Sazbombxxx

[Pumpkin Pie]

Hi,

Would it be OK if I post here? After years of ups and downs, I went to my doctors last week and she thinks I have bipolar disorder. I'm waiting for my letter.
I 'm on a really big down right now and all I've done for the past week is sit here and cry. I shoudl go back to work tomorrow and I really need to be there as I model the pay increases for my company and I wouldn't want tto lumber any of my colleagues with my work. But I can't seem to think and I feel so stupid an useless. I don't know what to do .

I'm sorry to bother you all, but you all seem so nice I thought it would be ok.

THanks

PP

[feelinggood]

Hi,

Would it be OK if I post here? After years of ups and downs, I went to my doctors last week and she thinks I have bipolar disorder. I'm waiting for my letter.
I 'm on a really big down right now and all I've done for the past week is sit here and cry. I shoudl go back to work tomorrow and I really need to be there as I model the pay increases for my company and I wouldn't want tto lumber any of my colleagues with my work. But I can't seem to think and I feel so stupid an useless. I don't know what to do .

I'm sorry to bother you all, but you all seem so nice I thought it would be ok.

THanks

PP

Hi Pumpkin Pie :)
Welcome to the thread, thanks for making your first post here - I know how hard that is.
You are more than welcome to post here, welcome to the family x
It is your descision wether or not to go back to work, but it sounds to me like you aren't ready. I know you don't want to put your work on to anyone else, but if you are ill, you are ill - it isn't your fault and you shouldn't feel bad. You are not stupid and useless. Have you got a sicknote?
xxxx

[Pumpkin Pie]

Thank you for replying, feeling good.

My doctor gave me a sicknote til today and said that if I didn't feel better I could call and get an extension. And I don't so I think I might have to do that - my other half said he would do it for me as I am finding the phone almost impossible. So scared of everything, its ridiculous

Its so hard not to feel guilty - It would be easier if I didn't care so much about my colleagues and my work.

Ohhhh I want to be me again:mad:

Thanks again Feeling good - Its comfortng not to feel so alone
PPxx

[feelinggood]

Thank you for replying, feeling good.

My doctor gave me a sicknote til today and said that if I didn't feel better I could call and get an extension. And I don't so I think I might have to do that - my other half said he would do it for me as I am finding the phone almost impossible. So scared of everything, its ridiculous

Its so hard not to feel guilty - It would be easier if I didn't care so much about my colleagues and my work.

Ohhhh I want to be me again:mad:

Thanks again Feeling good - Its comfortng not to feel so alone
PPxx

Hey PP :)
Hope you get your note sorted out. Sorry for such a short message, I've got to dash out.
I'll be back this afternoon
Take care, and remember that you are not useless and this isn't your fault
xxx

[geminilady]

Hi,

Would it be OK if I post here? After years of ups and downs, I went to my doctors last week and she thinks I have bipolar disorder. I'm waiting for my letter.
I 'm on a really big down right now and all I've done for the past week is sit here and cry. I shoudl go back to work tomorrow and I really need to be there as I model the pay increases for my company and I wouldn't want tto lumber any of my colleagues with my work. But I can't seem to think and I feel so stupid an useless. I don't know what to do .

I'm sorry to bother you all, but you all seem so nice I thought it would be ok.

THanks

PP

Hi Pumpkin,Welcome, of course it is ok to post,this forum is for anyone suffering from depression and related illnesses.Not sure what letter you are waiting on but it takes time for medication to kick in but when it does you should start to feal better.You are not stupid or useless! you have an illness which can be treated just like any other so hang in there.Try not to worry about work,it is not your fault that you are ill and everyone is off work through illness at some time.

[geminilady]

Thank you for replying, feeling good.

My doctor gave me a sicknote til today and said that if I didn't feel better I could call and get an extension. And I don't so I think I might have to do that - my other half said he would do it for me as I am finding the phone almost impossible. So scared of everything, its ridiculous

Its so hard not to feel guilty - It would be easier if I didn't care so much about my colleagues and my work.

Ohhhh I want to be me again:mad:

Thanks again Feeling good - Its comfortng not to feel so alone
PPxx

Just read this post.i would get your other half to phone for the extension it is obvious you are not well enough for work.Do NOT feal guilty i am sure if your workmates are as nice as you say they will want you to get well.

[Pumpkin Pie]

Hi Pumpkin,Welcome, of course it is ok to post,this forum is for anyone suffering from depression and related illnesses.Not sure what letter you are waiting on but it takes time for medication to kick in but when it does you should start to feal better.You are not stupid or useless! you have an illness which can be treated just like any other so hang in there.Try not to worry about work,it is not your fault that you are ill and everyone is off work through illness at some time.

Hi geminilady,
Thank you for your post. You are very kind.

My doc has referred my to the psychiatric unit for evaluation. I haven't been given any medication as they are waiting til I get diagnosed to see if it is bipolar disorder. So here I sit!

thank you agins for your kindness
PPx

[feelinggood]

Oh, just to update, I phoned the physcotherapy team, and I should get an assesment appointment letter through the post in about 3 weeks. Only been on the waiting list since september :)

[Sazbo]

Oh, just to update, I phoned the physcotherapy team, and I should get an assesment appointment letter through the post in about 3 weeks. Only been on the waiting list since september :)

Well let's hope it's not too long after that when your actual appointment date is. If you haven't had the letter in three weeks, chase them up again feelie xx

[Pumpkin Pie]

Oh, just to update, I phoned the physcotherapy team, and I should get an assesment appointment letter through the post in about 3 weeks. Only been on the waiting list since september :)

That is good news feelinggood. I hope it isn't as long for your appoinment

[Sazbo]

Hi geminilady,
Thank you for your post. You are very kind.

My doc has referred my to the psychiatric unit for evaluation. I haven't been given any medication as they are waiting til I get diagnosed to see if it is bipolar disorder. So here I sit!

thank you agins for your kindness
PPx

Hi PP and welcome to the thread :hello: People on here are wonderfully supportive, so please post anytime. Just wanted to say that if you are finding it hard coping in the interim while waiting for your evaluation appointment, do go back to your GP and discuss your concerns with them - you shouldn't have to struggle.

Much love,
Sazx

[learning_to_drive]

uch good luck for today and your induction part 2 at work!

Thanks Tiff! I'm sure I'll be fine, today I am dealing with my debt problems, to explain (£500 odraft with FD) currently at £-350 and I have loads of DD's to come out, such as mobiles / internet / insurance. I have no idea how I am going to pay them all :( obviously because of my health problems I've not worked since 17th Dec (when I left I.R. before they fired me for absence / health problems) and I've started again now in the new year at ASDA, but obviously I get paid on the 20th I believe, but that's only going to be 1/2 pay again.

This is the issue, I've not had a full pay since September but still had the same outgoings, probably more outgoings because of the car and petrol expenses etc. So I've virtually ran out of money now. I'm thinking of giving the CCCS a call, but what are the stages involved in that? Does it have an effect on your credit rating? Has anyone got any stories about CCCS, are they good, what would they do?

[Sazbo]

Thanks Tiff! I'm sure I'll be fine, today I am dealing with my debt problems, to explain (£500 odraft with FD) currently at £-350 and I have loads of DD's to come out, such as mobiles / internet / insurance. I have no idea how I am going to pay them all :( obviously because of my health problems I've not worked since 17th Dec (when I left I.R. before they fired me for absence / health problems) and I've started again now in the new year at ASDA, but obviously I get paid on the 20th I believe, but that's only going to be 1/2 pay again.

This is the issue, I've not had a full pay since September but still had the same outgoings, probably more outgoings because of the car and petrol expenses etc. So I've virtually ran out of money now. I'm thinking of giving the CCCS a call, but what are the stages involved in that? Does it have an effect on your credit rating? Has anyone got any stories about CCCS, are they good, what would they do?

Hi LTD, I've not had any experience of CCCS myself, but since Martin recommends them, they must be pretty ok:) I'd give them a call. Sx

[elona]

(((Pumpkin))))

You have nothing to feel guilty about.


Tiff

Hope things are getting a bit better with your mother.

Miro

You have done nothing to deserve this and you have been a fantastic friend to S. Eventually she will realise it but by then you may have moved on yourself. Beware the "White Knight " Syndrome.

FG

Glad you will be getting support.

Hugs to everyone.

I went to a memorial service at the hospice where my Dad died in August - with DH and all four daughters. It was very helpful and I had tears pouring down my face but it felt healing - if you know what I mean.

Just got back an hour ago and am typing this in the library.

[feelinggood]

Righites, I'm going to go for a walk, and then to buy a dustpan and brush. If I can find one, might buy a new washing up bowl and dish drainer too.
Hope everyone is okay, keep fighting on :)

And how is everyones new years resolutions coming on?

[Sazbo]

And how is everyones new years resolutions coming on?

They're coming on great... my resolution was not to make any!:D:D

[feelinggood]

They're coming on great... my resolution was not to make any!:D:D

That deserves a clap :T
Good luck sticking to that in week 2 ;)

[Sazbo]

I went to a memorial service at the hospice where my Dad died in August - with DH and all four daughters. It was very helpful and I had tears pouring down my face but it felt healing - if you know what I mean.

Just got back an hour ago and am typing this in the library.

Hi Elona - good to hear from you. I was intending to ask you how the memorial went, and if all your daughters managed to attend. I can imagine it must have felt painful and healing at the same time, but a significant point in your grieving that will hopefully bring peace. Big hugs to you and your family Elona, I'm thinking of you all. Sazxx

[Tiff]

Hi,
Would it be OK if I post here? After years of ups and downs, I went to my doctors last week and she thinks I have bipolar disorder. I'm waiting for my letter.
I 'm on a really big down right now and all I've done for the past week is sit here and cry. I shoudl go back to work tomorrow and I really need to be there as I model the pay increases for my company and I wouldn't want tto lumber any of my colleagues with my work. But I can't seem to think and I feel so stupid an useless. I don't know what to do .
I'm sorry to bother you all, but you all seem so nice I thought it would be ok.
THanks
PP

http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/welcome.gif PP!
Of course you can post here hun - if they let me, anyone can do it!:D Well done for posting angel - there's a mine of info here and you are very welcome. You are not a bother either bless you.
Was it your GP you saw? Have you seen a psychiatrist for a proper evaluation and diagnosis hun? Let's not panic about having bipolar disorder - lots of people live completely normal lives with support - until all the votes are in and have been counted.;) Please don't worry angel - you are NOT useless or stupid and well done you for getting this far. You are officially a Survivor!:T I'm not making light of what you're going through hun in any way. http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

Has your GP signed you off sick pumpkinpie? If you're too ill to work hun, then you're too ill! If you were ill with a nasty physical illness, the company would have to make allowances and it's the same with this. You'll be surprised at how many compassionate people there are pumpkinpie!

Your health is the most important thing you have angel - it has to come first. From what you say, you're on a very low right now and can't think properly. Surely then pp, it would be better to stay home and take care of yourself rather than go in and possibly make mistakes?

Make the decision not to go in tomorrow hun and take the stress of trying to decide if you should/shouldn't, off your mind. The work will get done.

Recognize that you are in a low and that is why you are feeling this way. You need to be kind to yourself right now hun. And remember that this will pass and that you will have better days too. Don't worry about the crying angel - it's the body's physical stress relief. Break everything down into hours and days hun - it's easier to manage. Please see your GP if you can't cope pp. Meanwhile, you're so very welcome here anytime hun.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
You've probably been told all this by all the wonderful guys on here so sorry if I've repeated it :rolleyes: .
Take care pp.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[learning_to_drive]

Just to echo Tiff's sentiments, if you had a broken leg then you wouldn't be expected to work, in fairness there is still a stigma attatched to mental illness that because you can't see the illness doesn't mean it isn't there.

Ive got an appointment to see a counsellor on Weds, Im very positive about this, Im off to asda in a bit for phase 2 of my induction! Lovely!

Take care folks, didnt have the bottle to ring FD so I e-messaged them explaining the problems and asked them to ring me, they will be sympathetic as they are pretty good, Ill give CCCS a call tomorrow too!

[rose07]

Hi everyone miro, tiff, fg, saz, ethel, elona, gl, ltd, and well... everyone you know who you are by now, lol. including the newbies, welcome to our humble abode, lol :D , i see we have a new place, hmm might take me a while to find my comfy chair. lol

Rosie is back from gran's

first my gran is doing ok, she is a fighter. ;)

and tiff i am sooo sorry to hear about your mum, its soo not fair hun, esp when its sooo close to your dad, but you know where i am if you need me hun, i am here anytime xxx

BIG ROSIE HUG
http://www.lgm.org/cathugopt.jpg

ok so rosie has some news...........

when i was in glasgow i went to the Big Brother audition :eek: , all i can say is WOW.
i was on edge for 3 hours just waiting in a que, i made some mates and clicked instantly with soo many people :D , was an amazing atmosphere. i never thought i would do it, as there was sooo many people, i was all on me own, and did not know where i was. lol yeah i know i was in glasgow. anyway it tested me alot as farr as my confidence, my self esteem, and my nerves, stress and anxiety levels etc.... so if you ever need a major challenge just try it. lol

ok so i really hope you are all ok and keeping safe

much love to all, and keep going

xxxx;)

[elona]

Rosie

You are "BRAVE!" :T :A

Sazbo

Thanks for the good wishes - all of us were able to light a candle and that helped a lot.

[Tiff]

I went to a memorial service at the hospice where my Dad died in August - with DH and all four daughters. It was very helpful and I had tears pouring down my face but it felt healing - if you know what I mean.

Just got back an hour ago and am typing this in the library.

Hi elona hun!http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gifhttp://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gifhttp://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Bless your heart angel. You're going through all that and you still found time to think of others - but that's you all over hun.:A Thank you very much for thinking of me.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
I'm glad all DD's got to go elona. I do know what you mean about tears being cathartic -as you know, it was just a year ago since my Dad died. There's nothing wrong with tears of love angel. I imagine it was a lovely way to pay tribute hun and I'm glad you weren't alone. I'm sure Dad's very proud of you elona. I wish you love and peace sweetheart. If you need a hug, just shout hun.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

Silly Ol' Tiff's having a cry now!:rolleyes: Can't have that - don't want the others thinking I've turned into a Trembly Tiff!!!:eek: :D Here we go...

http://images.google.co.uk/images?q=tbn:88grL7iGrljNOM:http://homepage.mac.com/andreshurtado/Mad-Cat.jpg (http://images.google.co.uk/imgres?imgurl=http://homepage.mac.com/andreshurtado/Mad-Cat.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.macuarium.com/foro/index.php%3Fshowtopic%3D112862%26st%3D50&h=546&w=591&sz=61&hl=en&sig2=Cy8248fQ0goeXobyFbUF0A&start=12&tbnid=88grL7iGrljNOM:&tbnh=125&tbnw=135&ei=o5CiRfD_D5nqwgHqyYCZDQ&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dcat%2Bmad%26ndsp%3D20%26svnum%3D10%26 hl%3Den%26lr%3D%26rls%3DGGLJ,GGLJ:2006-46,GGLJ:en%26sa%3DN)

that's fixed it!;) :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[elona]

((((Tiff)))))

I'm crying again!

Big hug.

[Pumpkin Pie]

Thank you Tiff so much for your lovely post. My OH has rung the doctor and I have a sicknote for another week. He will ring my work tomorrow. It IS a load off my mind. So much so that I am having a bath (what is it about lows that make you so stinky?)

Elona, so sorry to hear about your dad - Ilost mine in July sio I have some idea of the hell you are going through and how lovely of youto think about others at this time.

Thank youall for making me feel so welcome here - My OH does what he can but it is so hard trying to explain to someone who doesn't suffer.

With hugs

Pumpkin x

[Tiff]

Hi rose!:hello:

Welcome home!
[quote=rose07]Hi everyone miro, tiff, fg, saz, ethel, elona, gl, ltd, and well... everyone you know who you are by now, lol. including the newbies, welcome to our humble abode, lol :D , i see we have a new place, hmm might take me a while to find my comfy chair. lol
Rosie is back from gran's
first my gran is doing ok, she is a fighter. ;) [quote]
I'm so glad you saw her and that she's not too bad. I bet it did her the world of good seeing you.

[quote=rose07]and tiff i am sooo sorry to hear about your mum, its soo not fair hun, esp when its sooo close to your dad, but you know where i am if you need me hun, i am here anytime xxx
BIG ROSIE HUG
http://www.lgm.org/cathugopt.jpg
[quote/]
Awww - thanks hun. That's really kind of you and I'll shout if I need you angel. Glad to hear you enjoyed your trip.:T

[quote]ok so rosie has some news...........
when i was in glasgow i went to the Big Brother audition :eek: , all i can say is WOW.
i was on edge for 3 hours just waiting in a que, i made some mates and clicked instantly with soo many people :D , was an amazing atmosphere. i never thought i would do it, as there was sooo many people, i was all on me own, and did not know where i was. lol yeah i know i was in glasgow. anyway it tested me alot as farr as my confidence, my self esteem, and my nerves, stress and anxiety levels etc.... so if you ever need a major challenge just try it. lol [quote]
See guys - you just never know where she'll pop up next! Keep your eye on NO.10 everyone!!!:eek: ;)
Rose, that sounds fantastic! What did you have to do hun? Details!!! Did you make it? It sounds like you had a fantastic time - good for you hun. :T Now make sure you keep on looking after yourself PROPERLY y'hear?;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Pumpkin Pie]

Just to echo Tiff's sentiments, if you had a broken leg then you wouldn't be expected to work, in fairness there is still a stigma attatched to mental illness that because you can't see the illness doesn't mean it isn't there.

Ive got an appointment to see a counsellor on Weds, Im very positive about this, Im off to asda in a bit for phase 2 of my induction! Lovely!

Take care folks, didnt have the bottle to ring FD so I e-messaged them explaining the problems and asked them to ring me, they will be sympathetic as they are pretty good, Ill give CCCS a call tomorrow too!

Thank you x

Good luck with CCCS - I hear they are very good, Learning_to_drive. And good luck with the Asda induction too:D

Pumpkin x

[Tiff]

Only Tiff popping her head around the door!:D
http://images.google.co.uk/images?q=tbn:wuNH7vvfx2i6uM:http://www.thecatgallery.com/images/ragdoll_units.jpg (http://images.google.co.uk/imgres?imgurl=http://www.thecatgallery.com/images/ragdoll_units.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.thecatgallery.com/funny_cat_pictures_5.html&h=188&w=250&sz=7&hl=en&sig2=E-6Kv2otS1Mfap5L0iIoKA&start=28&tbnid=wuNH7vvfx2i6uM:&tbnh=83&tbnw=111&ei=iJSiRffEMcTIwQHhv6GjDQ&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dcat%2Bpeeking%26start%3D20%26ndsp%3D2 0%26svnum%3D10%26hl%3Den%26lr%3D%26rls%3DGGIC,GGIC :2006-52,GGIC:en%26sa%3DN)

Wishing you all a good night. May be able to get back on later or early tomorrow.
Sazbomb - good luck with the counselling.
Miro - thinking of you angel.
Ethel - when you've had time to breathe, let us know how you are.
Pumpkinpie - don't be a stranger hun!
Mrs.a - hope you're all right hun - thinking of you too.
Look after each other.;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[gillette147]

Hiya all of you xx

Golly It's taken me ages to readback.
May god rain happiness down upon you all.

The most depressing thing I find, is how many new people we are getting joining our thread. But I welcome the latest batch of posters with open arms. "I don't know much...but I know I love you..."

Tiff
My thoughts are with you and your mom. All the best and a hug from me xx

Ethel
Hope the doctors has brought some light about the arm. You've still got two good legs - so give that family a good kicking from me. You need help from those that can do xx

Miro
Manly hug mate. You deserve to be happy - you make sure that you build your life so that you are.

Rose
I'm keen to hear your B Brova story too.
Sorry.......but you ain't mad enuff for that programme xx

Feelie
I hope you are enjoying your long wet walks xx

........and so many other posters on here........
My thoughts are with you all, you lovely people
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Sazbo]

Hi Gilly :hello: How's things with you hun? Sazzyxx

[gillette147]

...........and as for me?

I've just had an almost wonderful weekend (villa lost to Man U and took the edge off it lol)

I guess you could say I'm with someone now. I'm only telling you all coz I know how Blinky's exploits have cheered me up in the past.

I feel I can get up tomorrow and tackle the jobsearch people and get my plan for employment underway. Five days into my ADs and I don't know of any differences in my actual problems (my mood has lifted a bit because of the above rather than any drugs). I thought my kidney's were failing for a couple of days - but I think it's gone away.

I will keep you informed - but you needn't read it if you've got more important things to be getting on with.

Blessings upon your house

PS
CC come back!

[learning_to_drive]

The 2nd phase went very well, everyone so so friendly, I'm very impressed and rather happy If I'm honest :)

Expecting bank to call me tomorrow to discuss my overdraft, that will be a weight off my mind to know that my DD's will be covered, been a nightmare recently and not had a full payday since September due to lower hours / changing jobs etc. Asda should be good for my money because I'll be on nights and not able to spend more.

I've sorted out a budget and had a LBM, I'm very savvy with money but I never get anywhere because I have the same outgoings and lower incomes! Not only that but my car tax is due next month which isn't good :(.

CCCS I will call tomorrow for sure, just to see what they recommend, im determined to get myself better and sort out my cash, but I never have any cash, I never had any when i was earning and well so its hitting me a lot harder now!

[EthelBloggs]

evenin all.. am very tired so haven't read back everything

ok.. the arm is a trapped nerve... phewwwwww!!! doctor has given me some antiflammatories and temazepam to help me sleep with instructions to go back if its not better in a couple of weeks so he can send me to physiotherapy. Told you he's ace :D

daughter is gone back to the same place, saw different psychiatrist and the nursing manager and put my worries across.. they agreed with me and said they would look into everything and get back to me, overall it felt much more positive leaving her there today

Huggs to everyone xxxx

Sazbomb how did the counselling go???? xx

[Sazbo]

...........and as for me?

I've just had an almost wonderful weekend (villa lost to Man U and took the edge off it lol)

I guess you could say I'm with someone now. I'm only telling you all coz I know how Blinky's exploits have cheered me up in the past.

I feel I can get up tomorrow and tackle the jobsearch people and get my plan for employment underway. Five days into my ADs and I don't know of any differences in my actual problems (my mood has lifted a bit because of the above rather than any drugs). I thought my kidney's were failing for a couple of days - but I think it's gone away.

I will keep you informed - but you needn't read it if you've got more important things to be getting on with.

Blessings upon your house

PS
CC come back!

Giily hun! You "guess you could say you're with someone"!:):) So backward in coming forward! Well that's great news!! :j You definitely must keep us all informed:D We want daily updates - only kidding hunnie! Just good to hear you had a wonderful weekend, that you're feeling happier and you're making inroads into the job stuff. Great news; you deserve it. You take care, much love, Sazzy xxx

[Sazbo]

evenin all.. am very tired so haven't read back everything

ok.. the arm is a trapped nerve... phewwwwww!!! doctor has given me some antiflammatories and temazepam to help me sleep with instructions to go back if its not better in a couple of weeks so he can send me to physiotherapy. Told you he's ace :D

daughter is gone back to the same place, saw different psychiatrist and the nursing manager and put my worries across.. they agreed with me and said they would look into everything and get back to me, overall it felt much more positive leaving her there today

Huggs to everyone xxxx

Sazbomb how did the counselling go???? xx

Hiya hun. Good to hear from you. You must be exhausted after today, but sounds like a few positives in there re GP and your daughter's care arrangements. Hopefully you'll get a bit of well-deserved respite now...

Counselling went ok thanks hun. Bless your heart for asking. I was REALLY nervous about it beforehand but therapist was really nice and put me at my ease from the beginning, so feeling much happier about the whole thing now.

Sazbombxxx

[Sazbo]

The 2nd phase went very well, everyone so so friendly, I'm very impressed and rather happy If I'm honest :)

Expecting bank to call me tomorrow to discuss my overdraft, that will be a weight off my mind to know that my DD's will be covered, been a nightmare recently and not had a full payday since September due to lower hours / changing jobs etc. Asda should be good for my money because I'll be on nights and not able to spend more.

I've sorted out a budget and had a LBM, I'm very savvy with money but I never get anywhere because I have the same outgoings and lower incomes! Not only that but my car tax is due next month which isn't good :(.

CCCS I will call tomorrow for sure, just to see what they recommend, im determined to get myself better and sort out my cash, but I never have any cash, I never had any when i was earning and well so its hitting me a lot harder now!

Hi LTD - no need to apologise about feeling happy! We're happy you're happy:) Sounds like you're getting your ducks in a row, making a start on sorting all the money stuff sorted out, which I'm sure will be a relief in itself. Takes courage to face problems and deal with them, which you're doing, so that's brill - keep strong, keep going hun. Love, Sazx

[Tiff]

((((Tiff)))))

I'm crying again!

Big hug.

Good morning elona!http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Me too!!;)
Thanks for the hug hun, bless your heart.;)
Ok you have to stop crying angel or else the gang will get me for making you cry!:eek: :rolleyes:
I'm thinking of you elona - look after yourself hun.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Thank you Tiff so much for your lovely post. My OH has rung the doctor and I have a sicknote for another week. He will ring my work tomorrow. It IS a load off my mind. So much so that I am having a bath (what is it about lows that make you so stinky?)
Elona, so sorry to hear about your dad - Ilost mine in July sio I have some idea of the hell you are going through and how lovely of youto think about others at this time.
Thank youall for making me feel so welcome here - My OH does what he can but it is so hard trying to explain to someone who doesn't suffer.
With hugs
Pumpkin x

Hi pumpkin!:hello:
You're most-very-entirely-totally and completely welcome hun!;) :D
It sounds like OH is an angel.:T I think it's often the worrying about all the possibilities sometimes that is worse than what actually will happen. It makes everything seem insurmountable. Once a decision or plan is made, we all feel a bit better. There's nothing like peace of mind is there hun? The guys on here are wonderful!:T
You will get through this pumpkin - don't be too hard on yourself and remember to look after yourself also. Give yourself time and don't make any big jumps hun, unless you know there's a soft landing on the other side!
Did that make any sense to anyone?! :confused: :rolleyes: Well anyway, I know what I meant.;)
Hoping you have a good day angel.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Hi gilly!:hello:
Good to hear from you hun. I thought you'd gone awol and was about to send out a search party!http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/nod.gif

[quote=gillette147]Hiya all of you xx
Golly It's taken me ages to readback.
May god rain happiness down upon you all.[quote/]
Well it's raining something here in Warwickshire hun, but I wouldn't call it happiness.:D :rolleyes: Sounds like gale force winds out there right now. I hope God smiles on you too gilly.;)

[quote=gillette147]The most depressing thing I find, is how many new people we are getting joining our thread. But I welcome the latest batch of posters with open arms. "I don't know much...but I know I love you..."[quote/]
It is sad that there are such illnesses for people to have - but it's great that we can support each other!:T Help is much better than the cattle prod they used 100 years ago thank God!;)


[quote=gillette147]Tiff
My thoughts are with you and your mom. All the best and a hug from me xx[quote/]
Thank you gilly. That's very much appreciated hun. I hope all is well. You sound full of the joys of spring - hmmm.....
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

[quote=gillette147]...........and as for me?
I've just had an almost wonderful weekend (villa lost to Man U and took the edge off it lol)
I guess you could say I'm with someone now. I'm only telling you all coz I know how Blinky's exploits have cheered me up in the past.[quote/]
Hi gilly - I knew it!
Gilly - you little minx!!!http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hd.gif
That's great hun - I'm happy for you.:T We love hearing good news. Tell us more!

I feel I can get up tomorrow and tackle the jobsearch people and get my plan for employment underway. Five days into my ADs and I don't know of any differences in my actual problems (my mood has lifted a bit because of the above rather than any drugs). I thought my kidney's were failing for a couple of days - but I think it's gone away.
Well this weekend really has put a spring in your step hun! Good luck with the job search. Do you have kidney problems gilly? Or was that a tad of dry humour? Don't worry hun, it's very rare for them to both pack in at once - unless you've been taking your ad's with the old dizzy water!:rotfl:

I will keep you informed - but you needn't read it if you've got more important things to be getting on with.
Blessings upon your house...
And on yours gilly. I hope you'll be happy together. Right now, I've got 78p in the hat fund and I don't know yet who I'll have to wear it for!:D Thinking of you and wishing you a great day.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Hi ltd!:hello:
[quote=learning_to_drive]The 2nd phase went very well, everyone so so friendly, I'm very impressed and rather happy If I'm honest :)
Expecting bank to call me tomorrow to discuss my overdraft, that will be a weight off my mind to know that my DD's will be covered, been a nightmare recently and not had a full payday since September due to lower hours / changing jobs etc. Asda should be good for my money because I'll be on nights and not able to spend more..... [quote/]
Glad it all went well for you. That's great hun.:T
Don't fret too much hun - you can only pay what you can pay. If you write to your creditors and say you've been ill and have just started a new job, I'd hope they'll be compassionate. These things happen. Anyway, February is a shorter month hun.;)
Never mind angel - it'll soon be Christmas!:eek: :D
Take care ltd.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Hi ethel hun!:hello:
[quote=EthelBloggs]evenin all.. am very tired so haven't read back everything

ok.. the arm is a trapped nerve... phewwwwww!!! doctor has given me some antiflammatories and temazepam to help me sleep with instructions to go back if its not better in a couple of weeks so he can send me to physiotherapy. Told you he's ace :D
I have that in both my arms - why do I have to be an over-achiever in all the wrong things?!:rotfl: I didn't want to say anything 'cos I'm not a dr but I'm glad you've got it sorted. That's one item off the list ethel.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

daughter is gone back to the same place, saw different psychiatrist and the nursing manager and put my worries across.. they agreed with me and said they would look into everything and get back to me, overall it felt much more positive leaving her there today
Huggs to everyone xxxx
Hopefully a change in veterr, doctor,:D will make a difference ethel. They have to take more care of her and if they can't give er the help she needs, then they should be honest and get the girl the help she needs to be safe. Make sure you keep on their tails hun and keep MIND updated too.
Get some rest angel - well done you!:T
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

;) :D Hi guys!:hello:
Hope we're all okay? Short post here everyone so won't list names. Thank you for all so much for your best wishes.:A

Psst... I got a shock last night...if you look closely at the subliminal flashing words in the intros to Big Brother, you'll see the word blink and a flash!
I bet blinky's gone on BB & that's why he's so quiet!!!:eek: :D
Seriously blinky, hoping you're well hun, working hard and having a great time with r and that these are the reasons you've not posted. Take care angel.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
miro - hugs and kind thoughts on their way to you hun.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Hugs and love to all who need them. http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Got another busy Tiff day and I'm thinking of you all. Shout out guys if you need hugs or anything.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif (Just temping until blinky's back!:D )

Right, Tiff's off for a catnap!:rolleyes:
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[feelinggood]

Morning guys, hope you are all good :)
Seems a little quiet at the moment, hope things all pick up and you all get chatty again! I was going to go to the doctors, but I've decided that as he is only going to upset me, I'm going to leave it as late as I can :rotfl:
Should be going to the pub one evening this week - OH told them we'd go for a meal and a drink (Doesn't he remember I'm giving up food/smoking/drinking?) anyways, I shall be able to manage, diet coke all night :)
Sky is clearing a bit now, so will be off for a walk in a while, probably this afternoon. Got lots of cleaning to do - got stuff on my mind, and cleaning is the only way to fix it :)
Anyways, things are good, I'm happy.
Hugs to all, thinking of you all.
Miro and Blinky, post if you want - miss you guys!
Sure I'll catch you all at some point today, Stenny, Ethel - got things I need to tell you! (You'll never guess what, have I mention how lovely......) Hehe
:)

[feelinggood]

Oh, and one more thing :)
Lemme know if any of you lot are going to go to SG and Shells Birmingham meet - I might (90% likely) going to go, just need to see if my mate is going (Too scared to go on my own lol).
:)

[Pumpkin Pie]

Morning all,

I hope everyone is feeling OK this morning? My darling OH is home on holiday this week so he says that he will look after me this week, in the hope that I will be well enough to go back to work next week. He really is so good to me.:blushing:

Many hugs to all of you lovely people - I hope you all have the best day

:grouphug:

Pumpkin xx

[feelinggood]

Morning all,

I hope everyone is feeling OK this morning? My darling OH is home on holiday this week so he says that he will look after me this week, in the hope that I will be well enough to go back to work next week. He really is so good to me.:blushing:

Many hugs to all of you lovely people - I hope you all have the best day

:grouphug:

Pumpkin xx

Morning Pumpkin :)
You sound brighter this morning, thats lovely :)
Your OH sounds so sweet, I see in your sig you are getting married soon? Looking forward to it?
Hugs to you too :grouphug:

xx

[EthelBloggs]

mornin peeps

glad to see you feeling better pumpkin pie :) enjoy the pampering :D

I slept!! almost all the way thru the night!!! I woke up once cos of the pain in my arm but was able to doze back off :D That's a big thing for me :)

Glad to hear the counselling went well for u sazbomb, lets hope its the road to you feeling heaps better xx

Tiffy! gawd i really feel for you having it in both arms.. will it ever go away or are we gonna be stuck with this forever? Whats the news about your mum?

Feelie........ big huggs

Gilly.. wooohoooooooooo for you ;) glad things are feeling more positive for you and i hope the jobhunting etc goes well :)

Miro.. big huggs.. thinking of you.. it will feel better in time x

Elona.. you're a star.. huge huggs for you to get thru this time.. im glad you found the tears healing.. i tink thats a big step in the right direction

apologies if i missed anyone - but have the best day you can everyone!

xxxxxxxxx

[Sazbo]

Morning feelie hun :hello: I wish your OH wasn't making you go to the pub hun. I know you're a strong little feelie, but you've done so well and it's not really supportive of him to be testing you like that... just my thoughts hun. And hope you get along to the docs soon - if he upsets you might it be possible to see a different one at all?

Re Birmingham meet - I think I'll leave that to the professionals!:) Far too scary for a Sazzy!:) xxx

[EthelBloggs]

Oh, and one more thing :)
Lemme know if any of you lot are going to go to SG and Shells Birmingham meet - I might (90% likely) going to go, just need to see if my mate is going (Too scared to go on my own lol).
:)

I don't think i'lll be able to make it :(

[Sazbo]

mornin peeps

glad to see you feeling better pumpkin pie :) enjoy the pampering :D

I slept!! almost all the way thru the night!!! I woke up once cos of the pain in my arm but was able to doze back off :D That's a big thing for me :)

Glad to hear the counselling went well for u sazbomb, lets hope its the road to you feeling heaps better xx

Tiffy! gawd i really feel for you having it in both arms.. will it ever go away or are we gonna be stuck with this forever? Whats the news about your mum?

Feelie........ big huggs

Gilly.. wooohoooooooooo for you ;) glad things are feeling more positive for you and i hope the jobhunting etc goes well :)

Miro.. big huggs.. thinking of you.. it will feel better in time x

Elona.. you're a star.. huge huggs for you to get thru this time.. im glad you found the tears healing.. i tink thats a big step in the right direction

apologies if i missed anyone - but have the best day you can everyone!

xxxxxxxxx

Hiya hun! :wave: Was just thinking about you! That's great you got some sleep - you must've needed it after the day you had yesterday. Let's hope that continues. How's your daughter doing? Sazbombxxx

[feelinggood]

Hey guys :) Just wondered - what is the best thing for cleaning painted walls?

[Sazbo]

Morning all,

I hope everyone is feeling OK this morning? My darling OH is home on holiday this week so he says that he will look after me this week, in the hope that I will be well enough to go back to work next week. He really is so good to me.:blushing:

Many hugs to all of you lovely people - I hope you all have the best day

:grouphug:


Pumpkin xx


Morning Pumpkin - always makes a difference when there's someone to help us through the tough times. See how you feel in the next few days, don't go back to work if you don't feel ready - you do need time to heal hun. Love, Sazx

[Sazbo]

Hey guys :) Just wondered - what is the best thing for cleaning painted walls?

You need to post this on Old Style:D Probably something involving white vinegar but don't quote me on that! :rotfl: xx

[Sazbo]

Morning everyone, morning queensway_boy:) :wave:

Sazzy needs a cuppa! Hope you're all doing ok. Big hugs to all, especially Tiffy and Elona.

Love you all,
Sazzy xxxx

[feelinggood]

You need to post this on Old Style:D Probably something involving white vinegar but don't quote me on that! :rotfl: xx

Aww, I can't post on OS board lol. Walls will have to wait till I can phone my mum. Decided I'm going to do one room at a time, starting with the dining room. I've cleaned the outside of the fridge :)

[Sazbo]

Aww, I can't post on OS board lol. Walls will have to wait till I can phone my mum. Decided I'm going to do one room at a time, starting with the dining room. I've cleaned the outside of the fridge :)

Wow feelie I'm impressed! You're a human whirlwind. Any chance you could do mine?! :confused: ;):D

[feelinggood]

Eeek, no - its gonna take me months to do this place!

[queensway_boy]

:hello: Good Morning to everyone, Hi Sazbo :hello:

[Sazbo]

:hello: Good Morning to everyone, Hi Sazbo :hello:

Good morning!! :wave: Are we neighbours? I live near Queensway!:D How are you doing today?

Sazx

[feelinggood]

Morning feelie hun :hello: I wish your OH wasn't making you go to the pub hun. I know you're a strong little feelie, but you've done so well and it's not really supportive of him to be testing you like that... just my thoughts hun. And hope you get along to the docs soon - if he upsets you might it be possible to see a different one at all?

Re Birmingham meet - I think I'll leave that to the professionals!:) Far too scary for a Sazzy!:) xxx

Not sure what I'm going to do about the pub, I am considering having a night off from the drink. Will decide closer to the time.
The problem isn't with the doctor - its with me. I guess this problem just isn't fixable.

[EthelBloggs]

Hiya hun! :wave: Was just thinking about you! That's great you got some sleep - you must've needed it after the day you had yesterday. Let's hope that continues. How's your daughter doing? Sazbombxxx

Mornin sazbomb xx

Shes realised that she has to take responsibility for her actions, that's a big step.. the next step is her actually doing it, lol. The meeting yesterday was with some of the managers and they seemed to take on board my concerns and have said they will look into things and get back to me.

I do feel much better thanks... few more nights like that and i'll be right as rain :D

My next door neighbour is being a pain now, she seems to feel the need to complain about every little sound we make. I'm a bit !!!!ed off about it cos I thought she was a close friend, she knows what's been happening and I would have thought that she'd be more understanding. She has 3 boys so it's not always quiet from her house but i never say anything about that. Myabe she's cranky cos shes at the age to start her menopause or somat, i dunno. she even threatened me with the environmental health :mad: Creaky stairs can't be that noisy can they????

[EthelBloggs]

:hello: Good Morning to everyone, Hi Sazbo :hello:

Morning QB :D

Well done for dipping your toes in :j

have a good one and see u later x

[EthelBloggs]

Hey guys :) Just wondered - what is the best thing for cleaning painted walls?

Hot soapy water I think.. ask Stenny.. he'd probably know better than anyone :)

[feelinggood]

:hello: Good Morning to everyone, Hi Sazbo :hello:

Hey QB :) Welcome to the thread!

[Sazbo]

Mornin sazbomb xx

Shes realised that she has to take responsibility for her actions, that's a big step.. the next step is her actually doing it, lol. The meeting yesterday was with some of the managers and they seemed to take on board my concerns and have said they will look into things and get back to me.

I do feel much better thanks... few more nights like that and i'll be right as rain :D

My next door neighbour is being a pain now, she seems to feel the need to complain about every little sound we make. I'm a bit !!!!ed off about it cos I thought she was a close friend, she knows what's been happening and I would have thought that she'd be more understanding. She has 3 boys so it's not always quiet from her house but i never say anything about that. Myabe she's cranky cos shes at the age to start her menopause or somat, i dunno. she even threatened me with the environmental health :mad: Creaky stairs can't be that noisy can they????

Cranky neighbours are a pain. I think it gets to the stage were people like that are deliberately listening out for every tiny noise. If she continues, just tell her she makes noise too.

Hopefully now the managers will get things straightened out now... Sxxx

[elona]

FG

Try a solution of sugar soap for the walls. Last time I did this DH thought I had repainted them!

I have been trying to thank everybody but the thanks button will not work for me.

DH has been "persuaded" to drive me to lidl as i love their delicattessen stuff.

Hugs to everyone.:T

[EthelBloggs]

Cranky neighbours are a pain. I think it gets to the stage were people like that are deliberately listening out for every tiny noise. If she continues, just tell her she makes noise too.

Hopefully now the managers will get things straightened out now... Sxxx

She's never been cranky before.. thats the thing. And she knows it's not me personally.. yet she came in yesterday all guns blazing about it and on xmas eve too - she knows the situation here.. she knows I'm struggling cos up til now we've been really close friends. The clincher was.. Sorry I didn't invite you to our new years eve party.. but we didn't want your daughter to come! How nice was that?? I wouldnt have gone anyway.. never do but it's not the point. I'm soo cross with her, as it feels as tho she's just piling more stress on top of what i've already got and it's not neccessary. She could see how exhausted I was, even commented on it.. so why did she feel the need to be nasty :confused:

Rant over

yeah hopefully things will get sorted a bit better now, I've set the local mental health ppl on them as well as MIND so.. we shall see :D

hows you sazbomb?

[EthelBloggs]

FG

Try a solution of sugar soap for the walls. Last time I did this DH thought I had repainted them!

I have been trying to thank everybody but the thanks button will not work for me.

DH has been "persuaded" to drive me to lidl as i love their delicattessen stuff.

Hugs to everyone.:T

I might pop into Lidls later... need to go buy a new router and there's a lidl there too :D Just waiting on the painkillers to kick in before i leave

[dgregory]

some tips

Avoid melancholy people

read humourous books/articles

build blazing fires

exercise

sing

shower

[queensway_boy]

Good morning!! :wave: Are we neighbours? I live near Queensway!:D How are you doing today?

Sazx

Its not quite that London queensway Saz http://www.sheknows.com/graphics/emoticons/cat.gifabout 200 miles from there http://www.sheknows.com/graphics/emoticons/bike.gif i'm ok thanks

[feelinggood]

Ahhhh cleaning helps :D I've decided to leave the walls for today - I need to get some mould/mildew remover first, then will use sugar soap - thats that yellowy stuff ain't it?

Dining room is almost finished, just need to put a few bits away and then vacuum again. Started on the kitcken, cleared out some cupboards, think I'm also going to buy a few bits tomorrow, I need a new dishdrainer and stuff like that. Just going to give the kitchen walls and cupboards a going over and then clean the door and floor. Getting there. Hard work, but feel better for doing it. Will also do the bathroom today, that way I can have a nice long hot soak in the tub :)

Crying a little bit, very shaky, and feel very much alone :) But, I'm not eating/drinking/smoking. I am picking though, pretty tough, its bad today, which is annoying as I managed 8 days with minimal damage. Ahhh well, there is always tomorrow, at least I feel slightly better for it.

Oh and my mind is all over the place - I take 2 AD's and 3 other tablets each day. Today and yesterday I've been getting muddled up and taking the wrong ones at the wrong times,too many off one and not enough of the other! Will buy one of them pill thingys with the day / time compartments tomorrow.!

[Pumpkin Pie]

Feelinggood - Sorry to hear your having such a rubbish day *** Hugs***
A pill thing sounds like a good idea - My mum used one bfore and it helped a lot.

I wish I could magic your pain away.. I wish a lot of things.

I suggest a hot cup of tea :coffee:

Take care hunny
Pumpkin xxx

[feelinggood]

THank you Pumpkin :) You are very lovely, I'm glad you decided to join the thread :)

Feeling alright at the moment, spaced out. Pain will come back later :-/

Hope you are enjoying your day as best you canxxxx

[Sazbo]

Ahhhh cleaning helps :D I've decided to leave the walls for today - I need to get some mould/mildew remover first, then will use sugar soap - thats that yellowy stuff ain't it?

Dining room is almost finished, just need to put a few bits away and then vacuum again. Started on the kitcken, cleared out some cupboards, think I'm also going to buy a few bits tomorrow, I need a new dishdrainer and stuff like that. Just going to give the kitchen walls and cupboards a going over and then clean the door and floor. Getting there. Hard work, but feel better for doing it. Will also do the bathroom today, that way I can have a nice long hot soak in the tub :)

Crying a little bit, very shaky, and feel very much alone :) But, I'm not eating/drinking/smoking. I am picking though, pretty tough, its bad today, which is annoying as I managed 8 days with minimal damage. Ahhh well, there is always tomorrow, at least I feel slightly better for it.

Oh and my mind is all over the place - I take 2 AD's and 3 other tablets each day. Today and yesterday I've been getting muddled up and taking the wrong ones at the wrong times,too many off one and not enough of the other! Will buy one of them pill thingys with the day / time compartments tomorrow.!

Those pill compartment thingys are really good, or you can do what my aunt does and wrap each days tabs in a piece of tissue! - V money saving!:D:D Sorry you're feeling alone hun - we're here for you, dont forget that xxx

[new mum again]

Im just on my way out to pick kids up from school but thought i would post as i am sooo proud of myself and hopefully someone on here will understand but today i managed to go to the dentist and have 2 fillings on my own it is something that other people do without thinking about but i suffer from panic attacks and a fear of dentists and a few other things that i wont bore you with. It is also the first time i have been there without my mum who sadly died 28/09/05. I know its sad a 31yr old mum of 3 needing her mum to go to the dentists with her but hey that was me!!:o Gotta rush will pop back in later after kids in bed:wave:

[Sazbo]

Not sure what I'm going to do about the pub, I am considering having a night off from the drink. Will decide closer to the time.
The problem isn't with the doctor - its with me. I guess this problem just isn't fixable.

Feelie hun - the doctor's there to help you. I don't want to accept it's not fixable - you deserve help - I can understand it might be upsetting, but so long as that's part of the process of getting you healed that's sort of ok in the short term? Easy for me to say, I know... xx

PS don't go to the pub if ya don't wanna x

[feelinggood]

Im just on my way out to pick kids up from school but thought i would post as i am sooo proud of myself and hopefully someone on here will understand but today i managed to go to the dentist and have 2 fillings on my own it is something that other people do without thinking about but i suffer from panic attacks and a fear of dentists and a few other things that i wont bore you with. It is also the first time i have been there without my mum who sadly died 28/09/05. I know its sad a 31yr old mum of 3 needing her mum to go to the dentists with her but hey that was me!!:o Gotta rush will pop back in later after kids in bed:wave:

Well done New Mum Again, that is really something to be proud of - well done! :T :T :T :T :T :T :T

[feelinggood]

Feelie hun - the doctor's there to help you. I don't want to accept it's not fixable - you deserve help - I can understand it might be upsetting, but so long as that's part of the process of getting you healed that's sort of ok in the short term? Easy for me to say, I know... xx

PS don't go to the pub if ya don't wanna x

I'm just on a downer today, its days like this that I don't want to fight to get better, sometimes I just want to give up, just give in to the demons and do what it is I want to do. I'm resisting though. ODAAT, just got to get through this particularly nasty one!

[elona]

New Mum

:j :j :j

Give yourself a huge pat on the back! Your mum would have been proud of you. I used to hate going to the dentist too - but it does get better.

Gilly Congratulations on your new person.

Miro

Big hug.


FG

Rather than paying for special mould and mildew remover try a bleach solution with hot water first.

Have just had a posh open sandwich with german rye bread, smoked trout and a gherkin slice. happy bunny now. DH and DD enjoying the home made soup I made in the slow cooker.

[feelinggood]

FG

Rather than paying for special mould and mildew remover try a bleach solution with hot water first.

Have just had a posh open sandwich with german rye bread, smoked trout and a gherkin slice. happy bunny now. DH and DD enjoying the home made soup I made in the slow cooker.

I'm funny with what I can use - and bleach doesn't clean things well, isn't strong enough. Totally illogical lol, just doesn't 'feel' right hehe.

How are you today? xx

[gillette147]

Hi folks,

Up and down today.
My Chemical Romance (chemical=AD, Romance="friend") must be working and I have been on phone to all sorts of people. Dole say they were only waiting for a form from my old employer so a decision will be very soon as it arrived today. I've booked a jobsearch interview for 12:30 tomorrow and I'm going to see a job agency tomorrow 2:30 too!! I have also sorted out a place on the safety course i am going to do - starts MONDAY eek!!!

I was too late to do the learn at home so I gotta jump in deep end and do all week in london on a full-time course. Scared coz i now need to go from slob to student in 6 days!!

Even phoned Alliance and Leicester about overdraft fees they charged when i went overdrawn for 2 days. They offered me 1/2 back or i have to write in and make a complaint. I took half but i mite still write in - worth a stamp.

So I've pretty much tackled everthing today.

But now the downside.....

My niece who I love like a daughter is 8 months pregnant. She started bleeding yesterday and she is in hospital. They don't know what it is but are saying all their tests are showing that it's all ok. AND my uncle (who is also my great friend) who has cancer (the slowest one I'm told) is having kemo. He phoned me up (we do talk, but this is quite soon after xmas) and didn't really have anything to say. I know from experience how people act who are thinking they are going to die. I feel worried and can just tell how bad he must be feeling.

My life always takes a hit whenever it looks like I can be happy. That's why I have depression - if i allow myself to be happy then someone dies. I have some reasons to be happier this week so is there a cost? I just hope the cost is just that I have to do some worrying about two people I love rather than the cost is that something actually happens to them.

I have to spend my life thinking the worst or I jinx it. Whenever I walk to my parked car I have to approach it thinking "it's not safe to think it's not been broken into or stolen" right up until I have got back and can see it is alright.

It's not a happy way to live - it feels like a test from god.

So today I am happy really - but having to go through a load of OCD-type worrying.

Do people who have been unhappy all their lives finally find happiness?
Or are we just a type? Destined to be like this forever?

I have always had a feeling that MSE will save my life. That all the answers to life are somewhere on the threads. I know that may sound ridiculous to most of you but I have huge hopes for this place. The whole spectrum of life is contained here. You get what you give on here and I give everything.

Love to you all

[feelinggood]

Things can get better Gillette - people can recover and be 'cured'. I've known people who've lived with depression for 10, 20, 30 or 40 years and have found happiness.

I know it feels like your thoughts make things happen, just keep trying to fight that voice, try and remind yourself that you are not to blame for bad things that happen.

Any side effects with the new AD's, or are they suiting you well?

Thinking of you and yours x

[Sazbo]

Im just on my way out to pick kids up from school but thought i would post as i am sooo proud of myself and hopefully someone on here will understand but today i managed to go to the dentist and have 2 fillings on my own it is something that other people do without thinking about but i suffer from panic attacks and a fear of dentists and a few other things that i wont bore you with. It is also the first time i have been there without my mum who sadly died 28/09/05. I know its sad a 31yr old mum of 3 needing her mum to go to the dentists with her but hey that was me!!:o Gotta rush will pop back in later after kids in bed:wave:

Hi new mum and welcome! :wave: Post anytime. Good on you re fillings - I hate going to the dentist! You were close to your mum and associate certain things with her always being there for you; totally understandable. Catch you later. Sazx

[Sazbo]

New Mum

:j :j :j

Give yourself a huge pat on the back! Your mum would have been proud of you. I used to hate going to the dentist too - but it does get better.

Gilly Congratulations on your new person.

Miro

Big hug.


FG

Rather than paying for special mould and mildew remover try a bleach solution with hot water first.

Have just had a posh open sandwich with german rye bread, smoked trout and a gherkin slice. happy bunny now. DH and DD enjoying the home made soup I made in the slow cooker.

Hi elona hun :hello: How are you today? Posh sandwich sounds fab... which reminds me, I haven't had my lunch yet...:doh:

PS slow cookers are fab aren't they? I'm a total convert.
Sxx

[Sazbo]

I'm just on a downer today, its days like this that I don't want to fight to get better, sometimes I just want to give up, just give in to the demons and do what it is I want to do. I'm resisting though. ODAAT, just got to get through this particularly nasty one!

Good on you for resisting. You're a good example to me! Hugs xx

[Sazbo]

Hi folks,

Up and down today.
My Chemical Romance (chemical=AD, Romance="friend") must be working and I have been on phone to all sorts of people. Dole say they were only waiting for a form from my old employer so a decision will be very soon as it arrived today. I've booked a jobsearch interview for 12:30 tomorrow and I'm going to see a job agency tomorrow 2:30 too!! I have also sorted out a place on the safety course i am going to do - starts MONDAY eek!!!

I was too late to do the learn at home so I gotta jump in deep end and do all week in london on a full-time course. Scared coz i now need to go from slob to student in 6 days!!

Even phoned Alliance and Leicester about overdraft fees they charged when i went overdrawn for 2 days. They offered me 1/2 back or i have to write in and make a complaint. I took half but i mite still write in - worth a stamp.

So I've pretty much tackled everthing today.

But now the downside.....

My niece who I love like a daughter is 8 months pregnant. She started bleeding yesterday and she is in hospital. They don't know what it is but are saying all their tests are showing that it's all ok. AND my uncle (who is also my great friend) who has cancer (the slowest one I'm told) is having kemo. He phoned me up (we do talk, but this is quite soon after xmas) and didn't really have anything to say. I know from experience how people act who are thinking they are going to die. I feel worried and can just tell how bad he must be feeling.

My life always takes a hit whenever it looks like I can be happy. That's why I have depression - if i allow myself to be happy then someone dies. I have some reasons to be happier this week so is there a cost? I just hope the cost is just that I have to do some worrying about two people I love rather than the cost is that something actually happens to them.

I have to spend my life thinking the worst or I jinx it. Whenever I walk to my parked car I have to approach it thinking "it's not safe to think it's not been broken into or stolen" right up until I have got back and can see it is alright.

It's not a happy way to live - it feels like a test from god.

So today I am happy really - but having to go through a load of OCD-type worrying.

Do people who have been unhappy all their lives finally find happiness?
Or are we just a type? Destined to be like this forever?

I have always had a feeling that MSE will save my life. That all the answers to life are somewhere on the threads. I know that may sound ridiculous to most of you but I have huge hopes for this place. The whole spectrum of life is contained here. You get what you give on here and I give everything.

Love to you all

Gilly you are without doubt an all or nothing kind of person - and we on this thread are the beneficiaries of that. I wish I could tell you that those who deserve happiness always get it - but I can't of course. But what defines us is that we won't stop striving for it. What a wonderful thing that is. It's really us testing ourselves - we are our own biggest critics. Sometimes we just need to give ourselves a break, you know?

You are happy today - we all rejoice in that :T

Much love,
Sazzy xx

[gillette147]

I am in floods of tears.
I don't know if it's the ADs or life.
I don't cry.

This just feels like the most important day in my life.

[Sazbo]

I am in floods of tears.
I don't know if it's the ADs or life.
I don't cry.

This just feels like the most important day in my life.

Does it feel like a release Gillette? Talk about it if that will help. Big hugs, Sazzyxxx

[EthelBloggs]

evenin everyone

gilly have a massive cuddle from me.. sorry I can only reach to your knees :/ Not sure what i can say that would be helpful.. it's like feelie says.. one day at a time xx

well.. I got my new router, no more stealing internet from next door, lol
also went to lidl and got a bit of shopping.. omg ppl were huffing n puffing cos i could only do the packing one handed so I held up proceedings quite a bit :D

Other than that, nothing to report cept I am very sleepy for some reason, not sure if its the painkillers or real tiredness.. might go and veg out on the sofa in a bit with the tv, and fall asleep

Hope everyone's fine xxx

[Sazbo]

evenin everyone

gilly have a massive cuddle from me.. sorry I can only reach to your knees :/ Not sure what i can say that would be helpful.. it's like feelie says.. one day at a time xx

well.. I got my new router, no more stealing internet from next door, lol
also went to lidl and got a bit of shopping.. omg ppl were huffing n puffing cos i could only do the packing one handed so I held up proceedings quite a bit :D

Other than that, nothing to report cept I am very sleepy for some reason, not sure if its the painkillers or real tiredness.. might go and veg out on the sofa in a bit with the tv, and fall asleep

Hope everyone's fine xxx

Hiya hun :hello: I'm kinda in and out:D You veg away! That's what I'll be doing in a bit:D Love, Sazbombxxx

[gillette147]

I've stabilised now lol.
I think i've caught PMT - is that possible?

[feelinggood]

Evening Guys :)

Gillette - if guys can go through 'sympathy' pregnancies, I'm sure they can go through sympathy pmt! Hope your stable mood is a happy one :) Will be thinking of you at 12:30 tomorrow, and again at 2:30, you are a busy badger! I'm so proud of you :)

Ethel - Glad you've got a new router, does that mean you'll be online more :D What is you day looking like for tomorrow, is it another busy one? Hope you get a good nights sleep later, is your arm feeling any better?

Blinky - missing you hun, where ya gone? Lets us know you are okay if you can, thinking of you, sending you hugs x

CCstar - Don't know if you are reading, but if you are, I miss you, come back home. Hope you've not been having the stormy weather, and that all your plans are coming together.

Rose07 - are you about? You had a busy day, was it okay? Thinking of you, will catch you this evening I hope.

Saz - Thanks for everything earlier, really appreciate it. Hope you have a nice evening.

Stenny - Hope you manage to get all the decs away! x

Elona - you are making me hungry will your food talk! Where is my soup? :p Hope you had a taste too :) Did you get all your bits from lidl? Do they do the smoked cheese slices like at aldi? Yum, I could eat a whole pack of them in one go! Ooops, more food talk!

Pumpkin Pie - Have you had a peaceful day today? Hope OH is taking care of you and that you are feeling good today x

Queensway Boy - enjoy your evening, hope to see you posting again soon :) Enjoy the view by the pool.

Tiff - busy as usual! Hope it is good busy and that you are feeling okay. Got a few catnip treats if you want :) Hugs to you too x

Mclaren - hope you are ok.

LTD - Did you phone CCCS? Did the bank phone? Hope you've had a good day and things went as you hoped! Do you start your first shift tomorrow?

Miro - worried about you hun, really hope you are okay. You know I'm always here if you want to talk. Thinking of you, take care sweetie x x


To everyone one else lurking about - hope you are all having as good a day as possible. Hugs to everyone xxx

ODAAT Guys

[kronas]

blah, after about a week or two feeling good im starting to hit rock bottom again :(

depression = most hated thing in my life :(

[Sazbo]

blah, after about a week or two feeling good im starting to hit rock bottom again :(

depression = most hated thing in my life :(

Hi kronas - sorry to hear that, anything particular trigger it?

Sx

[EthelBloggs]

blah, after about a week or two feeling good im starting to hit rock bottom again :(

depression = most hated thing in my life :(

So sorry Kronas.. *huggs* as sazzy said.. any idea what set it off? for what its worth after feeling pretty positive all day, I can feel myself crashing down too

[kronas]

Hi kronas - sorry to hear that, anything particular trigger it?

Sx

it started yesterday that horrible worthless feeling....

just the usual, one thing that has annoyed me but i was expecting it was my local job centre sending me a later dated today recieved today for an interview....despite being on income support (applied for IB but not enough NI) before anyone says anything yes i know its a routine thing.....BUT YOU IDIOTS IF I COULD WORK WOULD I BE STAY AT HOME DOING MY OWN NUT IN :mad:

[learning_to_drive]

LTD - Did you phone CCCS? Did the bank phone? Hope you've had a good day and things went as you hoped! Do you start your first shift tomorrow?

Hi!

I didn't phone CCCS, I will do tomorrow for sure, the bank rung me though and I explained my situation and they sorted me out with an overdraft increase to cover my direct debits until payday but even then its only a small payday cos of me starting on the 5th or whatever it was.

Things went well, I'm going to see my counsellor tomorrow for an initial appointment to see where we go from here, I'll explain everything and see where we end up.

Everything has gone as well as could be hoped, my first night is tomorrow night so fingers crossed for me, once I get going, I'll be on 5 nights - 40 hour weeks + :) I have to keep that in mind!!!!

[Sazbo]

it started yesterday that horrible worthless feeling....

just the usual, one thing that has annoyed me but i was expecting it was my local job centre sending me a later dated today recieved today for an interview....despite being on income support (applied for IB but not enough NI) before anyone says anything yes i know its a routine thing.....BUT YOU IDIOTS IF I COULD WORK WOULD I BE STAY AT HOME DOING MY OWN NUT IN :mad:

I often find situations involving faceless, brainless bureaucrats can be the most annoying:rolleyes: Much easier said than done I know, but try not to let the b****** grind you down... You know how it is with these people - "rules is rules, I have to send these letters out" - regardless of how ludicrous it might be them doing it. Big hugs x

[kronas]

I often find situations involving faceless, brainless bureaucrats can be the most annoying:rolleyes: Much easier said than done I know, but try not to let the b****** grind you down... You know how it is with these people - "rules is rules, I have to send these letters out" - regardless of how ludicrous it might be them doing it. Big hugs x

someone has told me this particular person who i am going to see has a habit of 'turning the screw' despite what you tell her to be the case....

if she wants to feel the full force of my symptoms shes in for a shock :mad: ill just 'blow up' on her, when im at my worst its like im suffocating, sometimes i just want to beat the living daylights out of someone.

[Sazbo]

Hi!

I didn't phone CCCS, I will do tomorrow for sure, the bank rung me though and I explained my situation and they sorted me out with an overdraft increase to cover my direct debits until payday but even then its only a small payday cos of me starting on the 5th or whatever it was.

Things went well, I'm going to see my counsellor tomorrow for an initial appointment to see where we go from here, I'll explain everything and see where we end up.

Everything has gone as well as could be hoped, my first night is tomorrow night so fingers crossed for me, once I get going, I'll be on 5 nights - 40 hour weeks + :) I have to keep that in mind!!!!

All sounds good LTD! It's a nice feeling when it seems like progress is being made at last. That in itself lessens the pressure; making a dent in what seems like an insurmountable pile of hassle x

[CarolnMalky]

Hi everyone...Im a wee bit nervous...only posted on the other thread once or twice, as I felt you guys had enough to worry about without me whinging...hope you dont mind if I pop in now and again??

[Sazbo]

So sorry Kronas.. *huggs* as sazzy said.. any idea what set it off? for what its worth after feeling pretty positive all day, I can feel myself crashing down too

Heya hun, big hugs back to you. You said you were feeling tired earlier, maybe that's not helping. Try and get some rest tonight, you must need it. Sazbombxx

[Sazbo]

Hi everyone...Im a wee bit nervous...only posted on the other thread once or twice, as I felt you guys had enough to worry about without me whinging...hope you dont mind if I pop in now and again??

Hi Carol! :hello: Welcome hun. Don't be nervous, there's a really fab group of people on this thread. We all have a whinge at each other - that's the deal!:D:D So pop by and post whenever you feel the need. Love Sazzy xxx

[EthelBloggs]

Hi everyone...Im a wee bit nervous...only posted on the other thread once or twice, as I felt you guys had enough to worry about without me whinging...hope you dont mind if I pop in now and again??

don't be daft.. more the merrier... jump in as far as u want to.. we're all here to support you and each other :)

[CarolnMalky]

Thanks Sazbo and Ethelbloggs :D I just didnt want to tread on anyones toes by appearing after this thread has been on the go for so long...guess I do the brave face thing too well and dont like to admit to myself that I feel down.

[learning_to_drive]

Hi everyone...Im a wee bit nervous...only posted on the other thread once or twice, as I felt you guys had enough to worry about without me whinging...hope you dont mind if I pop in now and again??

Please dont be nervous, pop on and vent away, we are all here to remind ourselves that we are not the only ones suffering!

[Sazbo]

someone has told me this particular person who i am going to see has a habit of 'turning the screw' despite what you tell her to be the case....

if she wants to feel the full force of my symptoms shes in for a shock :mad: ill just 'blow up' on her, when im at my worst its like im suffocating, sometimes i just want to beat the living daylights out of someone.

Just treat her with cool contempt, kronas hun!:)

[Sazbo]

Thanks Sazbo and Ethelbloggs :D I just didnt want to tread on anyones toes by appearing after this thread has been on the go for so long...guess I do the brave face thing too well and dont like to admit to myself that I feel down.

no worries, think we're all guilty of doing that:) You're very welcome here. Sazxx

[EthelBloggs]

Heya hun, big hugs back to you. You said you were feeling tired earlier, maybe that's not helping. Try and get some rest tonight, you must need it. Sazbombxx

yeah.. that could be it.. doesn't help when a certain (_|_) tries to make me feel as tho I'm doing wrong when I do sleep and he doesn't :rolleyes: At the moment my arm feels as tho it's burning but numb at the same time, really weird :/ and painful!!

I really do want him to go but he just wont.. its so frustrating :mad: He's broke again and using that as an excuse. he's got nearly 3 weeks til payday and he's not even got his tube fare to work for tomorrow.. wtf ?? I manage really well on about 1/3 of what he makes and my money has to look after 4 of us plus bills etc on top :confused:

anyway.. huggs everyone xxx

[Sazbo]

I've stabilised now lol.
I think i've caught PMT - is that possible?

Gilly didn't you know it's HIGHLY CONTAGIOUS! :rotfl: Not that that's me giving you medical advice o'course, coz that's not allowed! :D Sazzy x

[geminilady]

[
Do people who have been unhappy all their lives finally find happiness?
Or are we just a type? Destined to be like this forever?

I have always had a feeling that MSE will save my life. That all the answers to life are somewhere on the threads. I know that may sound ridiculous to most of you but I have huge hopes for this place. The whole spectrum of life is contained here. You get what you give on here and I give everything.

Love to you all[/QUOTE]

i don't know if they find happiness, i suppose some do and some don't.I don't think all the answers are on MSE don't think they are anywhere.This thread however is full of people that understand and try to help one another and for that reason i am glad i found it
I can identify with your post,All my life it seams when i was happy something came along and spoilt it maybe happiness doesn't last maybe its just fleeting or maybe its a state of mind don't know only that i want it if only for a while.
Think its my turn for a downer now,just had words with "N" (by text ) he says i want to be too close he doesn't like it and he is backing off,not a lot i can do about it just told him i can't help wanting, the fact that he don't and that he is backing off.Nothing i can do.Sorry for tagging this onto your post,will someone please tell me how to do a new one must be stupid but i can't figure it out.

[Sazbo]

yeah.. that could be it.. doesn't help when a certain (_|_) tries to make me feel as tho I'm doing wrong when I do sleep and he doesn't :rolleyes: At the moment my arm feels as tho it's burning but numb at the same time, really weird :/ and painful!!

I really do want him to go but he just wont.. its so frustrating :mad: He's broke again and using that as an excuse. he's got nearly 3 weeks til payday and he's not even got his tube fare to work for tomorrow.. wtf ?? I manage really well on about 1/3 of what he makes and my money has to look after 4 of us plus bills etc on top :confused:

anyway.. huggs everyone xxx

A certain (_|_) seems always to be broke! Funny that - particularly when it comes time to move out! ;) Hun go back to the doc if you're arm doesn't get any better. Sazbomb xxx

[EthelBloggs]

Thanks Sazbo and Ethelbloggs :D I just didnt want to tread on anyones toes by appearing after this thread has been on the go for so long...guess I do the brave face thing too well and dont like to admit to myself that I feel down.

dont worry about our toes.. they're numb :p It's hard to let people know how it feels cos we're afraid they'll think we're weak or someting, but you know what? we're stronger than them because each day is a struggle that we have to get thru..

Share as much or as little as you feel comfortable with, and if you dont feel like sharing at all.. just post whatever you like :)

[EthelBloggs]

[
Do people who have been unhappy all their lives finally find happiness?
Or are we just a type? Destined to be like this forever?

I have always had a feeling that MSE will save my life. That all the answers to life are somewhere on the threads. I know that may sound ridiculous to most of you but I have huge hopes for this place. The whole spectrum of life is contained here. You get what you give on here and I give everything.

Love to you all
i don't know if they find happiness, i suppose some do and some don't.I don't think all the answers are on MSE don't think they are anywhere.This thread however is full of people that understand and try to help one another and for that reason i am glad i found it
I can identify with your post,All my life it seams when i was happy something came along and spoilt it maybe happiness doesn't last maybe its just fleeting or maybe its a state of mind don't know only that i want it if only for a while.
Think its my turn for a downer now,just had words with "N" (by text ) he says i want to be too close he doesn't like it and he is backing off,not a lot i can do about it just told him i can't help wanting, the fact that he don't and that he is backing off.Nothing i can do.Sorry for tagging this onto your post,will someone please tell me how to do a new one must be stupid but i can't figure it out.[/quote]

You're not stupid!! far from it!

I can't say much about 'N' cos your heart is ruling your head and only you can make any decision about what to do.. I will send you a massive huggerooooooooooooni tho :)

[EthelBloggs]

A certain (_|_) seems always to be broke! Funny that - particularly when it comes time to move out! ;) Hun go back to the doc if you're arm doesn't get any better. Sazbomb xxx

He said give it a couple weeks and if it dont fix then he'll send me for physio.. if that dont work.. I think it be an operation of some sort - not sure tho, I read it on a google thing, lol

[Sazbo]

i don't know if they find happiness, i suppose some do and some don't.I don't think all the answers are on MSE don't think they are anywhere.This thread however is full of people that understand and try to help one another and for that reason i am glad i found it
I can identify with your post,All my life it seams when i was happy something came along and spoilt it maybe happiness doesn't last maybe its just fleeting or maybe its a state of mind don't know only that i want it if only for a while.
Think its my turn for a downer now,just had words with "N" (by text ) he says i want to be too close he doesn't like it and he is backing off,not a lot i can do about it just told him i can't help wanting, the fact that he don't and that he is backing off.Nothing i can do.Sorry for tagging this onto your post,will someone please tell me how to do a new one must be stupid but i can't figure it out.

Hi GL :hello: I'm sorry to hear about N. Only from what you've said it seemed he wasn't prepared to commit any time soon - probably nothing to do with you - as you mentioned, probably a combination of past events, his relationships with wife and ex - a pretty tangled web it seemed to me. Me saying you deserve someone for whom you are their main priority is of course not helpful to how you are feeling right now. Wish I could make it better for you hun... but sending you big hugs xxx

Re reply - I'm no expert either LOL! But if you scroll down there's window to "quick reply" or "go advanced" - think you can do just a reply there?

Sazxxx

[Sazbo]

He said give it a couple weeks and if it dont fix then he'll send me for physio.. if that dont work.. I think it be an operation of some sort - not sure tho, I read it on a google thing, lol

Oh ok but sounds a long time for you to be packing shopping one-handed and that. I hope it does clear up. x

[stenny]

Hi all,
hope your all well, been busy busy busy!

Big hugs

[Sazbo]

Hey lovely peeps, please forgive me but I gotta crash. It's way past Sazzy's bedtime and 6am will come far too soon! But before it slips my mind again - Blinky are you ok? Not seen you for a few days, just wondered hun. Mr Miro too xx

Good night everyone. Sweet dreams,
Sazzy xxx

[EthelBloggs]

I'll just have to be more organised about tescos online or better yet.. DELEGATE!!!! :D

[Sazbo]

Hi all,
hope your all well, been busy busy busy!

Big hugs

Hiya stenny!!! Good to here from ya! :wave: I'll catch up with ya tomorrow Sxxx

[kronas]

Just treat her with cool contempt, kronas hun!:)

yes i will, if she starts troubling me though and im in a mood then shes had it!

oh and as for happiness we all have moments of happiness at somepoint, but it never lasts :(

[kronas]

Hey lovely peeps, please forgive me but I gotta crash. It's way past Sazzy's bedtime and 6am will come far too soon! But before it slips my mind again - Blinky are you ok? Not seen you for a few days, just wondered hun. Mr Miro too xx

Good night everyone. Sweet dreams,
Sazzy xxx

night :T sleep tight :D

[Sazbo]

I'll just have to be more organised about tescos online or better yet.. DELEGATE!!!! :D

:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

[EthelBloggs]

:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

yeah I know.. I thought that as I was typing it, lol

na night sazbomb.. speak soon xxxxxxxxxxxx

[stenny]

Hiya stenny!!! Good to here from ya! :wave: I'll catch up with ya tomorrow Sxxx

U2, nice to see ya back hun xxx
Am away hols, wooohoooooooo!
Luv ya all xxx

:j

[geminilady]

will[/B] send you a massive huggerooooooooooooni tho :)

Nothing i can do,thanks for the hug Ethel long time since i had one

[blinky]

Blinky are you ok?


Blinky - missing you hun, where ya gone? Lets us know you are okay if you can, thinking of you, sending you hugs x



I bet blinky's gone on BB & that's why he's so quiet!!!:eek: :D
Seriously blinky, hoping you're well hun, working hard and having a great time with r and that these are the reasons you've not posted. Take care angel.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif

Tiff xxx


Hugs to all, thinking of you all.
Miro and Blinky, post if you want - miss you guys!
:)

Sorry guys :o :o

As most of you know I was 'busy' over the weekend. I did poke my head in briefly on Sunday afternoon when I was at home in the old thread but it had been closed by then. I was physically ill from Sunday evening and I wasn't at home so didn't have internet access. Didn't mean to make you worry. :o :o

I have read all the posts but cannot reply to all....

Oh, just to update, I phoned the physcotherapy team, and I should get an assesment appointment letter through the post in about 3 weeks. Only been on the waiting list since september :)

:j Excellent news, hope it goes well and any resulting treatment isn't too far away. (18 month minimum waiting list up here for an assessment :eek: ).


hi folks not been around these parts for ages
so i better post an update (huge cry for help if im honest)
ok
done the cbt whole course and i feel it did nothing for me,

day hospital want me to go to group therapy now which i will try probably tomorrow or sometime this week,

consultant wants to change my meds again and told me to wean myself of the 60mg of paroxitine i was on daily which i was doing until..... and here comes to bad bit...........

my gp called me in to discuss the consultants referral letter back to her after i met him in december.............

says "mrs a is suffering from unipolar depression, feels she has no good thoughts or feelings or cant remember a time when she felt good about anything or looked forward to anything, mrs a manages to cook a meal for her family on average once a fornight, mrs a feels afraid to meet new people or go to new places unaccompained by her husband etc etc etc, i am recommending that mrs a be prescribed venlafaxine again up to the maximum dose as soon as possible and if this has no effect on mrs a then i would suggest prescribing combination drug therapy for mrs a, namely max dose of venlafaxine and LITHIUM.........."


oh my goodness i am so shocked by that i mean lithium thats heavy duty stuff.
i had planned to return to work (after having been off the past 3 months or so with depression) but my gp says no way and if i have to go on the lithium i might not get back at all.........

however, i am now slowly getting over the shock of that and i have now accepted my depression for how bad it really is and i have also taken off the happy go lucky mask that i have been wearing for years.

so guys any ideas.
i am expecting to be put of half pay come the 25th of this months if i am luck this will last for the next 3 months.

my gp is not that hopeful that the venlaflax will work as i have been on it before so it looks like i am going to have to give the lithium a go.

yours
mrs a

Hi there Mrs A. :hello:

Lithium has traditionally been used for manic depression as it acts as a mood stabiliser. However, it can sometimes be used for clinical depression in combination with other drugs. One of the disadvantages of lithium is that the dosage and blood levels need to be carefully monitored - this means regular blood tests.

My consultant had tried to get me to take venlafaxine + Lithium but I went on Venlafaxine + Zispin instead. From what you have written from your notes I am wondering if you have a similar problem to me which is dysmythia (spelling?) in addition to clinical depression. This is a persistant underlying low level depression - best way I can describe it is even when you are not depressed you only score 6-7 / 10 on a happiness scale.

Hope your new treatment works out for you. http://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug2.gif


I know its sad a 31yr old mum of 3 needing her mum to go to the dentists with her but hey that was me!!:o

No, it's not sad, I know lots of people who can't go to the dentist. You have been very brave.:T http://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug2.gif

Ethel - Glad you found out what problem with arm was and DD is sorted out. I think you should really kick OH out this time otherwise you will just end up in the same cycle with him. Thinking of you and DD. http://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug2.gif

Gilly - Sorry to hear about family problems. Thinking of you. http://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug2.gif

Tiff - Sorry to hear about mother. Thinking of you. http://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug2.gif

FeelingGood, McClaren, Sazbo, Rose - Thinking of you http://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug2.gif

Miro - very worried about you. Please post or PM me. http://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug2.gifhttp://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug2.gif

Will be with 'R' on Wednesday night and we are away this weekend :love: ,so I'm not sure how much I'll be around till next week. Will pop in when I can. Back at work in the morning which I know will be busy :(

HUGE HUGS TO EVERYONE WHO NEEDS THEM
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http://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug7.gif:rotfl:


PS. Being in love is a good tonic for depression..... :love: :love:

[Tiff]

Morning ethel hun!:hello:
How are you angel? Thank you for your kind wishes hun. I'm sorry you're in such pain. http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif I've got bad carpal tunnel syndrome in both arms and will be having surgery on one hand done around early April. I don't know if you have the same thing as I do. It's a fairly small op - local anaesthetic I think. Annoying because they can only do one arm at a time!:rolleyes:

Glad to hear your news on DD hun.:T Make sure you keep on their tails.;)

As far as OH, give him the fares to his parents' home and then he's their problem. He keeps having this problem doesn't he hun? I know it must be hard angel, but he brings you more heartache than happiness from the sound of things - let him stay gone this time if you can ethel. ;) If his excuse is that he doesn't have this or that & that's why he can't go, harden your warm heart ethel and tell him that that is a personal problem for him! Time to get the bin bags out hun!:D If he needs money, tell him to get an advance from his boss or from friends - better still, just give him fares to get home and nothing more. You have no obligations to him angel. Steel yourself and get rid of this weight problem!

Good luck with uni ethel. How are the essays coming on?;) Like you have time right now, bless you. Thinking of you angel and hoping today will be kind to you.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

:hello: Good Morning to everyone, Hi Sazbo :hello:

http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/welcome.gif qb!
How are you hun? Glad you finally took the plunge and dipped your tootsies on the thread - I'd noticed your thanks to my posts bless you. Hoping all is well qb. Post whenever you feel you can. Great people on here right now!:T
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Hi dgregory & http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/welcome.gif
Thanks for your post hun. They really are very good ideas.:T I hope you'll stay around and get to know us. Hoping you're well.

Sorry hun and no offence intended to you, but Tiff's sad sense of humour can't resist...
some tips

Avoid melancholy people
It's a depression thread.:o

read humourous books/articles
I'm agorophobic and can't get to them.:D

build blazing fires
People get arrested for doing that! Arson is not the answer!;)

exercise
I'm doing it now hun.:rolleyes:

sing
It makes the people around me depressed.:eek:

shower
That's one way of describing us angel!:rotfl:


I'll go and hide now before you all start coming after me.:o
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Hi feelie!:hello:
How are you feeling now hun?
Gosh you've been a busy fg haven't you?!:T Thanks for thinking of me feelie.;)
When you feel like so tearful & low hun, please don't put the doctor's appointment off. Get the help you deserve. I don't like to think of you having to suffer all day. http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif I'm sorry things feel hard for you right now - we're all here for you angel. ;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Feelinggood - Sorry to hear your having such a rubbish day *** Hugs***
A pill thing sounds like a good idea - My mum used one bfore and it helped a lot.
I wish I could magic your pain away.. I wish a lot of things.
I suggest a hot cup of tea :coffee:
Take care hunny
Pumpkin xxx

Hi pumpkin!:hello:
Glad you're picking up a little hun.:T I agree - those little posset boxes are really good. Good idea fg!
I know what you mean hun - if only wishes came true hun?
I can recommend that a cup of tea (or milk if you're a Tiff!:D ) always makes me feel a bit better. There were news items on tea yesterday, saying how good it is for you and that you should have at least 4 cups a day. Lots of good properties in it. It doesn't matter what the blend is or if it's supermarket tea bags apparently. It's even better if you can drink it black. So that's the experts' opinions for this week!;)
Look after yourself pumpkin.http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Im just on my way out to pick kids up from school but thought i would post as i am sooo proud of myself and hopefully someone on here will understand but today i managed to go to the dentist and have 2 fillings on my own it is something that other people do without thinking about but i suffer from panic attacks and a fear of dentists and a few other things that i wont bore you with. It is also the first time i have been there without my mum who sadly died 28/09/05. I know its sad a 31yr old mum of 3 needing her mum to go to the dentists with her but hey that was me!!:o Gotta rush will pop back in later after kids in bed:wave:

Hi new mum again (nma;) ) and http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/welcome.gif
Firstly, congratulations on being a new mum again! You weren't boring us hun. What was nice about your post was the excitement and pride I could feel from you. You should be very proud hun.

Tiff + dentists = http://images.google.co.uk/images?q=tbn:rIYDqLd51ELPFM:http://xxdesmusxx.net/gallery2/d/4697-1/cat%2Bmine%2Bfield.jpeg (http://images.google.co.uk/imgres?imgurl=http://xxdesmusxx.net/gallery2/d/4697-1/cat%2Bmine%2Bfield.jpeg&imgrefurl=http://xxdesmusxx.net/gallery2/v/Funny/cat%2Bmine%2Bfield.jpeg.html&h=436&w=638&sz=101&hl=en&sig2=GHVVFDC968gIWebIynUu_w&start=278&tbnid=rIYDqLd51ELPFM:&tbnh=94&tbnw=137&ei=y5CkRYa_GLPAwgHQgOXBBw&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dfunny%2Bcat%2Bphotos%26start%3D260%26 ndsp%3D20%26svnum%3D10%26hl%3Den%26lr%3D%26rls%3DG GLJ,GGLJ:2006-46,GGLJ:en%26sa%3DN) :D

I had the same feeling as you did. I mean, it's not natural is it? I think you'd have to be a little sadistic to be a dentist - no offence to any looking in.:rolleyes: My hackles go up the minute you hear "Now, this isn't going to hurt..." - that's when it's time to RUN!!!:rotfl:
Seriously nma, your mum would have been very proud of you - I know it takes a lot of doing.:T Don't feel bad angel - our fears are our fears and panic attacks and I used to be best friends!:o Well done you!
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[Tiff]

Hi everyone!
Got so much to say to you all but can't do any more right now. Not feeling so well tbh. Hope I've started the morning off with a smile for someone.;) Will catch up later I hope. Have a great day guys. Huge Tiff hugs to you all.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

[feelinggood]

Hi feelie!:hello:
How are you feeling now hun?
Gosh you've been a busy fg haven't you?!:T Thanks for thinking of me feelie.;)
When you feel like so tearful & low hun, please don't put the doctor's appointment off. Get the help you deserve. I don't like to think of you having to suffer all day. http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/hug.gif I'm sorry things feel hard for you right now - we're all here for you angel. ;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

AH, I just can't be bothered fighting at the moment, going to take a rest on focus on the only things I seem to be any good at - cleaning and loosing weight. Everything else is just bad, horrible, painful, miserable waste. I don't deserve help, I don't deserve friends, don't deserve the life I've been given. I'm off out this morning if I can manage it, need to buy cleaning things. Can't believe I'm almost out of cream cleanser :eek:
Thinking of you all - take care.
To anyone I ignored last night on msn, sorry - had to go bed so I didn't throw up. Catch you today hopefully.

[feelinggood]

Hi everyone!
Got so much to say to you all but can't do any more right now. Not feeling so well tbh. Hope I've started the morning off with a smile for someone.;) Will catch up later I hope. Have a great day guys. Huge Tiff hugs to you all.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Sorry you are not feeling so well Tiff - hope you feel better soon.
Hugs x

[feelinggood]

Just wanted to say -

Carol, if you are about, post as much as you like, its great to have you here
Big hugs x

[CarolnMalky]

Morning, hope everyone is okish this morning

[CarolnMalky]

AH, I just can't be bothered fighting at the moment, going to take a rest on focus on the only things I seem to be any good at - cleaning and loosing weight. Everything else is just bad, horrible, painful, miserable waste. I don't deserve help, I don't deserve friends, don't deserve the life I've been given. I'm off out this morning if I can manage it, need to buy cleaning things. Can't believe I'm almost out of cream cleanser :eek:
Thinking of you all - take care.
To anyone I ignored last night on msn, sorry - had to go bed so I didn't throw up. Catch you today hopefully.

Feely.........u do deserve friends the life you have been given and lots more honey...low self worth is the hardest bit of depression in my opinion. Cleaning must be a sypmtom too-whenever I feel down I clean too!!!

[feelinggood]

Feely.........u do deserve friends the life you have been given and lots more honey...low self worth is the hardest bit of depression in my opinion. Cleaning must be a sypmtom too-whenever I feel down I clean too!!!

I clean to try and remove the dirt, but it doesn't work. I think the dirt is an internal thing that I project on the outside world, so the only way I'll ever get things to be clean is to tackle why I feel so worthless and pathetic. But I don't know how to do that - so I'll clean instead and hope things improve on their own. The cleaning also helps with the anxiety, I think. Could be that I feel anxious when I'm not cleaning. Wall cleaning day today :) Also going to clean the inside of the fridges and the oven.

Didn't go to the doctors again, keep meaning to, but just don't see the point - they can't cure me, so why go?

How are you feeling today? Want to talk about anything?

[CarolnMalky]

I think you should go to the docs feely...we know they cant cure us, but it helps them to know what we are going through and it may help them in the future with other patients.

I know what you mean about feeling anxious when you are not cleaning...when I feel "jumpy" I try to keep myself as busy as possible, hubby is great and knows the signs so lets me get on with it. The minute I sit down I always feel as though I "have" to get back up n find things to do...drives me nuts. When we clean our mind is occupied with something, and we feel a wee bitty safer/normal, the minute we stop all the thoughts just come flooding back.

Im going to stay in today incase the hospital call about a cancellation for tomorrow, I wouldnt be happy going out as I would worry the whole time that I had missed their call!! bizarre eh!

[feelinggood]

I think you should go to the docs feely...we know they cant cure us, but it helps them to know what we are going through and it may help them in the future with other patients.

I know what you mean about feeling anxious when you are not cleaning...when I feel "jumpy" I try to keep myself as busy as possible, hubby is great and knows the signs so lets me get on with it. The minute I sit down I always feel as though I "have" to get back up n find things to do...drives me nuts. When we clean our mind is occupied with something, and we feel a wee bitty safer/normal, the minute we stop all the thoughts just come flooding back.

Im going to stay in today incase the hospital call about a cancellation for tomorrow, I wouldnt be happy going out as I would worry the whole time that I had missed their call!! bizarre eh!

I am seeing the doctor reasonably regularly, was suppose to go back on the 27th to get a new sick note, but haven't. I think I can manage another 9 days without going back, so will do that.

OH gets a little annoyed with my cleaning - I watch him like a hawk incase he has dirty anything, and as soon as he has put his cup down I grab it and wash it up lol. He is under instructions now to not touch anything in the dining room or kitchen with washing his hands first. They are my 'safe' rooms at the moment.

Hope you get the call, waiting for something like that must be very hard.

[CarolnMalky]

At the minute, I have a washing on...one waiting to go in, have done the first basin of dishes and the plates are soaking...windows are opened, candle burners on lol!!

Try and explain to OH(if you havent already) why you feel the need to do the cleaning, I sat with Hubby and explained to the best of my ability why I did what I did and it helped him to understand.

I dont even want to use the house phone incase I miss the call...talk about ocd!! Going to sort out a wee bag for the hospital too, it will keep me busy!

[feelinggood]

At the minute, I have a washing on...one waiting to go in, have done the first basin of dishes and the plates are soaking...windows are opened, candle burners on lol!!

Try and explain to OH(if you havent already) why you feel the need to do the cleaning, I sat with Hubby and explained to the best of my ability why I did what I did and it helped him to understand.

I dont even want to use the house phone incase I miss the call...talk about ocd!! Going to sort out a wee bag for the hospital too, it will keep me busy!

OH doesn't understand any of my odd behaviour, its best if he just ignores it and I don't mention it. Then he can pretend that I'm happy and well :)

Can't use the washing machine at the moment, the kitchen isn't clean enough.

[EthelBloggs]

Hi dgregory & http://scriptureforums.org/images/smilies/welcome.gif
Thanks for your post hun. They really are very good ideas.:T I hope you'll stay around and get to know us. Hoping you're well.

Sorry hun and no offence intended to you, but Tiff's sad sense of humour can't resist...


I'll go and hide now before you all start coming after me.:o
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiffy you're a rascal!!!! definitely some catnip treats for you and an extra saucer of milk after that, heheheehe :D

[EthelBloggs]

Hi everyone!
Got so much to say to you all but can't do any more right now. Not feeling so well tbh. Hope I've started the morning off with a smile for someone.;) Will catch up later I hope. Have a great day guys. Huge Tiff hugs to you all.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

You gave me some smiles for sure :D Sorry you don't feel well... hopefully that will improve soon x

I don't think I've got that carpal wotsit.. I hope not anyway.. gp said its probably a trapped nerve, after a few weeks of it.. I can understand why you can't stay at the pc very much, it's bad enough for me with one arm.. I really feel for you having it in both *huggs*

[gillette147]

Hiya folks,

got no time - getting ready for my interviews and trip to brum.
My wishes are with you all - you gorgeous people.

Carol - you're already a mate, welcome xx.

And to newbies and regulars - hugs, kisses an handshakes for the men.

xx

[EthelBloggs]

I am seeing the doctor reasonably regularly, was suppose to go back on the 27th to get a new sick note, but haven't. I think I can manage another 9 days without going back, so will do that.

OH gets a little annoyed with my cleaning - I watch him like a hawk incase he has dirty anything, and as soon as he has put his cup down I grab it and wash it up lol. He is under instructions now to not touch anything in the dining room or kitchen with washing his hands first. They are my 'safe' rooms at the moment.

Hope you get the call, waiting for something like that must be very hard.

Feelie.. try n get to the doctor when you can.. if he doesn't know how you're feeling then he can't put things in place to try and help you, even if it's only a little bit of help. You've got so many positives to look forward to, but you need some extra help to make sure you can enjoy it fully and make success come easy to you.

[feelinggood]

Feelie.. try n get to the doctor when you can.. if he doesn't know how you're feeling then he can't put things in place to try and help you, even if it's only a little bit of help. You've got so many positives to look forward to, but you need some extra help to make sure you can enjoy it fully and make success come easy to you.

Too late now anyway.
There isn't any extra help available :)

[EthelBloggs]

I think you should go to the docs feely...we know they cant cure us, but it helps them to know what we are going through and it may help them in the future with other patients.

I know what you mean about feeling anxious when you are not cleaning...when I feel "jumpy" I try to keep myself as busy as possible, hubby is great and knows the signs so lets me get on with it. The minute I sit down I always feel as though I "have" to get back up n find things to do...drives me nuts. When we clean our mind is occupied with something, and we feel a wee bitty safer/normal, the minute we stop all the thoughts just come flooding back.

Im going to stay in today incase the hospital call about a cancellation for tomorrow, I wouldnt be happy going out as I would worry the whole time that I had missed their call!! bizarre eh!

I have the opposite.. when I'm anxious I get really dozy and sort of vegetate. Then people think I'm lazy and I bollocked for that, lol

Hope you get the call you want xx

[EthelBloggs]

ooh feelie.. might be worth asking in your pharmacy if they can make up your meds into blister packs of a week at a time.. thats what my mum has.. each set of pills is divided into morning, afternoon, evening etc for each day of the week. The chemist does it for her

[feelinggood]

ooh feelie.. might be worth asking in your pharmacy if they can make up your meds into blister packs of a week at a time.. thats what my mum has.. each set of pills is divided into morning, afternoon, evening etc for each day of the week. The chemist does it for her

My pharmacy doesn't do that.
I'm gonna get one of those 99p pill dispenser thingies when I get off my bum and go in to town. I've got it right so far today hehe.

[queensway_boy]

My pharmacy doesn't do that.
I'm gonna get one of those 99p pill dispenser thingies when I get off my bum and go in to town. I've got it right so far today hehe.

I bought one of them,i cant fit all the tablets in:rotfl:

[elona]

FG

Lidl have some gorgeous smoked cheese slices and they do a lovely boxed Camembert for about 89 pence (Sainsbury do the same thing for £1.69!)
I baked the Camembert in its box at New Year and we dipped bread sticks and pepper strips into it. Yum.

If only I lost weight and cleaned when I felt low!!!!! I just lapse into an apathetic heap!!! Enjoy reading , cooking and coming on MSE though!

Big hug to everyone


Miro

We are all worried about you pet.

Can you give us a wave???

Carol

Nice to see you - I was going to say the more the merrier! ;)

[feelinggood]

I usually gain weight when I'm depressed, but right now I'm enjoying having something to focus on other than my mood - just focus on calories and exercise instead! Only need to loose another stone to be at my lowest weight, which is a nice feeling - 3 weeks or so and I'll be slimmer than ever :) Really beautiful weather at the moment - I'm walking at 2pm, hope it lasts till then. I've given up with cooking - not cooked for a good few weeks now, just don't want to when I'm depressed. This time round though, I'm having low fat ready meals and steamed veg - last winter we lived on takeaways everynight for about 3 months! I never thought I'd get fed up of curry! Reading is another thing that I tend to loose when I'm depressed, but I'm fighting to keep that. Reading some humour books at the moment - bit easier to focus on than novels. Music is something that always helps too, gotta use my headphones though, OH doesn't like my country music.
Enjoy your lunch, having something nice?

[learning_to_drive]

Hi guys, welcome to the newbies :) :hello: and also big hugs to those who are needing it, if you need to vent / chat please PM me, I'm always on here!

Woke up feeling not bad at all today, first night at ASDA tonight, first night of graft, wont be long before im doing 5 nights > 10 hour shifts and on the Monaco Harbour in my boat :rotfl: :rotfl:

First counselling session tonight, well its an initial appointment just to see what treatment I need and where to go from here really. I'm looking forward to it (is that wrong?) as hopefully I can start my recovery now!

I'm hoping my job is the thing for me too, a lot of my friends have wished me well from Sainsburys even though I have gone to ASDA, my advice is to follow your heart, do what makes you happy, I did the Tax Office because it made my mum happy, she thought it would be good, it just ended up worrying her because I hated it and well I just hated it.

Bless you all, have a good day, and PM me if you require someone to speak to.

:)

[CarolnMalky]

Thanks to everyone for the really warm welcome...I appreciate it, and through time you may live to regret it as I open up and share my worries :eek: ;)

LTD - Good luck with your counselling appointment tonight, most of all be true to yourself, they are not there to judge you(first time I went I still had my brave face on)

Feely - Hugs to you

Tiff - Hope you have an ok day today

EthelBloggs - I go between hyper and lazy when im anxious..its weird!

Elona - Hiya :wave:

Badgie Boy - Good luck with your appointments today, I am talking to your angels for you! :)

Anyone else I have missed :wave:

I will get used to this thread and everyone on it.
Thanks
Carolxxxx

[Sazbo]

Hi everyone :wave: Hi Carol :wave: You're more than welcome here, although I have to say it'll probably be you that will be regretting it, putting up with us!:D:D

Bit manic at work today, will pop in when I can.

Much love to you all,
Sazzy xxxx

[blinky]

AH, I just can't be bothered fighting at the moment, going to take a rest on focus on the only things I seem to be any good at - cleaning and loosing weight. Everything else is just bad, horrible, painful, miserable waste. I don't deserve help, I don't deserve friends, don't deserve the life I've been given.


http://www.dambusting.co.uk/hug2.gif

You DO deserve help

You DO derseve friends

You DO deserve a better life than you have at present.

Hang in there, it will get better

[blinky]

First counselling session tonight, well its an initial appointment just to see what treatment I need and where to go from here really. I'm looking forward to it (is that wrong?) as hopefully I can start my recovery now!


:)

Good luck

Counselling can be very hard and painful work but it is useful and helpful but it might not feel like it at the time or after a session.

[feelinggood]

Hang in there, it will get better

It is likely to get better, but it is no guarantee.

[blinky]

It is likely to get better, but it is no guarantee.

No hun, it will get better

[feelinggood]

No hun, it will get better

You don't know that - you don't know with 100% certainty that it will get better, so don't make me false promises please :)

[CarolnMalky]

You don't know that - you don't know with 100% certainty that it will get better, so don't make me false promises please :)

C'mon now feely...try n not be so negative...we all know from our experience that there are good days and bad, we are only trying to give you hope and cyber hugs honey

[feelinggood]

C'mon now feely...try n not be so negative...we all know from our experience that there are good days and bad, we are only trying to give you hope and cyber hugs honey

I appreciate the hope I really do, I just don't want false promises cos they hurt so much :o

3 bad days out of 10 isn't bad at all, so I've got nothing to complain about really.

I just am being realistic - I might not beat this. That ain't admitting defeat or being pessimistic - just aware of the situation.

[CarolnMalky]

I have days when I weep for hours in the realisation I am no longer the bubbly, independant, career woman I used to be...its sooooo hard sometimes :(

[feelinggood]

I have days when I weep for hours in the realisation I am no longer the bubbly, independant, career woman I used to be...its sooooo hard sometimes :(

That must be hard Carol :(

At least I've had someone wrong with me for all my adult life - I'm used to living like this. Still hurts though.

I am going to go out now, I'll be back at about 4pm, hope we can chat then x

[CarolnMalky]

Have a good day out Feely...speak later :kisses3:

[learning_to_drive]

We will get better, if we lose sight of the fact that we will get better then every day becomes a bad day, what are we aiming for if we wont ever get better?

To manage days where we are bad, worse than bad, terrible, and not so bad?

NO! We must realise that we will get better, through any means, we will find a way of coping with the bad days and make sure that at the end of the week, the good days are winning 6-1 / 5-2 / 4-3!!!

[blinky]

You don't know that - you don't know with 100% certainty that it will get better, so don't make me false promises please :)

I'm not making false promises, hun.

I know you are feeling really low at the moment and the it's the depression thinking / talking.

I'm not saying everything is going to be okay tomorrow, it will take time. Tomorrow things might be a little bit better but still crappy. It might not be tomorrow, the day after or next week but it will get better.

I feel for how low you are know - I have been there far too many times myself.

From your posts here and chatting to you I know you are a wonderful young lady with a lot to offer this world. Please take some heart in this.

You have lots of friends here.
You do deserve to be happy
You do deserve not to feel like this.
We do care about you.

Hang in there - even if it's just for me ;)

[blinky]

I have days when I weep for hours in the realisation I am no longer the bubbly, independant, career woman I used to be...its sooooo hard sometimes :(

That person is still in there... In time you will rediscover the good parts of how you remember yourself. You won't be exactly the same person as you will have learned from your experiences.

[CarolnMalky]

That person is still in there... In time you will rediscover the good parts of how you remember yourself. You won't be exactly the same person as you will have learned from your experiences.

Thanks Blinky...I have times when a different person emerges, stronger and less guilty than the old me, and its good, I think I set myself back by expecting too much too soon, feels strange talking about it on here I suppose that will go the more I post.

[blinky]

Thanks Blinky...I have times when a different person emerges, stronger and less guilty than the old me, and its good, I think I set myself back by expecting too much too soon, feels strange talking about it on here I suppose that will go the more I post.

Yes, it does take time.

I know it's really hard but try not to get too disheartened by the setbacks on the way - you're not the only one with that problem here :o

[feelinggood]

I know you are feeling really low at the moment and the it's the depression thinking / talking.

Thats the thing though - this probably isn't even depression, this is just who I am, this is just my life. Its self inflicted.

From your posts here and chatting to you I know you are a wonderful young lady with a lot to offer this world. Please take some heart in this.

I don't feel wonderful - I feel worthless. Is that ever going to change? Its only going to change if I change who I am. Is that possible? I don't know, I'm trying, but don't seem to be getting very far.


You have lots of friends here.
You do deserve to be happy
You do deserve not to feel like this.
We do care about you.

Hang in there - even if it's just for me ;)

Thank you Blinky, only trouble is I don't believe you :)

[blinky]

Thats the thing though - this probably isn't even depression, this is just who I am, this is just my life. Its self inflicted.



I don't feel wonderful - I feel worthless. Is that ever going to change?



YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS
Certainly not to me ;)

If it's your life then you can do something about it AND don't be afraid to ask for help.

Yes, it will take time - I don't know how long. It is not all going to be easy but it will get better in time


Its only going to change if I change who I am. Is that possible? I don't know, I'm trying, but don't seem to be getting very far.

Yes it is possible. You are not rebuilding a new you. You only want to get rid of the bits you don't need / want.



Thank you Blinky, only trouble is I don't believe you :)

I know hun, but if you read through some of my posts I have days like that too.

I know it's incredibly hard but it is worth it.

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[feelinggood]

I know it's incredibly hard but it is worth it.

Is it? For me, I don't know if it is. No other option though :confused: carry on and make the most of the best days.

[Pumpkin Pie]

Hi all,

Looks like its been a tough day for some of us so here is a whole bunch of hugs for us all:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

Feelinggood - Bad day, huh hun?
Worthless????? On a day when I thought nothing mattered, ever, you made me feel wanted and cared for. Thank you. You are a very special person.
Time for a SERIOUS pamper - sugar in your tea, not sweetner, watch something really silly on the telly and have a hot bubbly bath - These are my treats for myself to make the day a little better.
Oh yeah and elasticated pants so I don't feel so pudgy :whistle:

More seriously, I hope tomorrow is better for you, hun:wave:

Carol - I know what you mean. One of the hardest things for me has been admitting to work that i am not always the bouncy optimistic smart person they think i am.

Well i got my letter today - I have my first mental health assessment a week on thursday. Does anyone here know what happens at the first one?

Love n hugs to you all
Pumpkin xx

[feelinggood]

Hey Pumpkin :)

Thanks for the hugs, much appreciated. What I'd give for a real one lol.

Glad you got your letter, a week on thursday doesn't sound too far away, have you got far to go to get there?

I've never had an assessment, so can't give any idea what it'll be like, hopefully someone will have an idea later :)

[Pumpkin Pie]

Hey Pumpkin :)

Thanks for the hugs, much appreciated. What I'd give for a real one lol.

Glad you got your letter, a week on thursday doesn't sound too far away, have you got far to go to get there?

I've never had an assessment, so can't give any idea what it'll be like, hopefully someone will have an idea later :)

Its at my doctors round the corner which isn't too bad. OH is taking the time off to come with me.
I was pretty surprised at the speed as I have heard that it can take months!